Help Me - First post

[HelpMe]

Hi, I'm going to be 34 soon and I remember one day when I was around 13 or 14 years old I noticed a significant bent in my penis down and to the right. It seemed to have just formed over night??? I was crushed I thought I broke it from masturbating too much!!! I'm now almost 34 years old never saw a doctor, never had no pain.. I will say this I used to be a heavy drug user and I remember two times while engaging in rough sex my penis swelled up like a ballon, length stayed the same as fully erect when is was not and it was twice as wide as it was when normally erect, this lasted for around two weeks both times and it was over 5 to 10 years ago since that last happened, I stopped drinking and doing drugs over 7 moths ago and I started to notice sometimes when flaccid and right when on starting to have an erection and even when it's going down, I noticed this dent like hour glass kind of shape going on like poor blood flow or something.. Now the curve has always been the same with very little soreness lasting only a few seconds after sex or masturbation, but the dent seams new, I tried doing some research about this and I have to say the info I found really scared me, everything I read said the only thing that helps with curvature is operations and I was stupid enough to google picture of them and wow it freaked me out. I can across a site selling this stuff called Neprinol I bought some three months ago and it seemed to help with hour glass,dent blood flow problem??? But the day I ran out it came back?? I'm currently on disability and medicare and that stuff is very expensive and I don't even know if it's good to use, I really don't know what to do, I have felt like my life was over ever since this happened when I was 13, I have never really been very sexually active, I have had a few long term girlfriends but now without being able to use drugs or alcohol to help me, I don't know what to do I have zero confidence, my sex life was good when I was having sex but I haven't had a sex life in over three years, everyone I get to that point where the relationship may go in that direction I freak out and back off and it sucks cuz I'm getting old I want to get married and have kids but I can't even date because I freak myself out wondering what she is going to say about it! What if she laughs at me and/or makes fun of it and that happened once before and I haven't had sex since....this sucks,I don't know what to do I have been trying to build up enough courage for four months now to go to a doctor I made it in the door of the urologist office saw a cute girl sitting there and turned around and walked out. I am being treated for depression, anxiety and high blood pressure recently been taking CoQ10 & vitamins e no change noticed dent still there, I don't know why the other stuff makes it go right away but it does but I can't afford it... I'm currently living in palm beach county in FL and can use some help finding a ur and psychologist in the area that take medicare ....Just want to thank you guys for this group,I have had this problem for along time now and was never able to talk about it before this is the first time I ever told anybody and it feels good..now if I can just tell a doctor I might be ok.... thanks again!!!!

[Hawk]

Helpme,

Hopefully you read MUST READ BEFORE YOU POST - Information for new members - Peyronies Society Forums  it has a lot of basic information.  Also just as a tip, there is a spell check button below where you post so you can check for errors before you post.  You must have had about 100 words run together without any spaces.  I had to use spell check to correct these so members could better understand your post.

Hopefully you can find a good psychologist to help you with your lack of confidence because that is almost half your battle right now.  You must get past being embarrassed in front of a doctor.  You pay them to listen and to help you.  There is nothing for a grown man to be embarrassed about.  You did not do anything wrong.

Regards

Hawk

[james1947]

HelMe

I would like to say that you have done the first step on the right direstion regarding:

I want to get married and have kids

by quitting the heavy drinking and drugs.
Surgery is the last and not the first treatment. You need to see a Peyronies specialist, many of the leading specialist do except Medicare. You may find one close to you on:
https://www.peyroniesforum.net/index.php/board,37.0.html
You must to be proactive with this disease.
And you are not getting old, 34 is a young age, my young daughter was born when I was 62

Welcome to the forum
James