My Peyronie's seems to be developing in a unique way—25y—1y, 4m from first symp

[toeng18]

From my first symptoms—being a small hard lump—to deformation, pain, limb gland, it now seems I've been at the chronic phase for 3-5 months time, depending on the definition. The pain stopped about 6 months ago, but the calcification appears to continue developing (or at least changing).
Though it began as the standard lump, it has now morphed into something distinctly different. Firstly, I have a "wide string" under my gland, Spanning about 3cm from gland towards shaft in erect state. It spans almost the whole circumference, except over the small lower swell body. This symptom causes a decrease in the diameter of that area to be about 1/3 of my norman penis girth when pinching back the skin. At the end of the "wide string" (away from the gland), it comes an extruding "border".
The worst though, is a very hard, tendon-like band, that runs all the way from the base of my penis to the end, just before the gland, in a sense, merging with the "string".  it is about 1cm in width and square-like in character, with actual palpable edges. Though not on the underside, where it has no palpable edges and seems to just merge with the insides.
On top of this catastrophe, I also have the normal lumps, two actually, one on each side. they are kind of extension of the "border". But at this point, this is outside my spectrum of worries.

If you read through this clusterfuck, thank you, hope it makes just a fragment of sense. If not, I'm happy to elaborate. This stuff is pretty hard to describe in a non-medical language (not that I posses such)

My question is: Is this at all relatable to anyone? I haven't been able to find analogies of similar expression of Peyronies Disease.

FYI:
*30-45 degree upward curvature, located pretty much in the area of the "wide string"
*Using Penismaster Pro for as long as I can every day. Started Dec 2019
*Using Bathmate about 4 times pr. week. Started Jan 2019
*Jelqing before putting on Penismaster pro or using the Bathmate.
*Did five sessions of ESWT, with no result
*Actually, all of this has been without result, but who knows, maybe it has negated some negative development
(Note: I use these two devices with a lot of caution, as I'm scared shitless of worsening the condition or inflicting ED)

If you want the self-pity mental state story:
What most of you can probably relate to, is the mental impact. I've been depressed since the age of 21, something that appears to run in the family. I have a few screws loose inside my head for sure, one of them being an ostensible inability to fall in love. Despite this, women have been my main coping mechanism in life. Passionated sex and the intimacy in social relations that comes with it was about the only joy I found in life. Ironically, as the medical literature seems to suggest, it was also what probably has lead to my current downfall.
A year ago, I was in an open relationship with two girls, both aware of each other's existence. Now, I have no intimacy in my life.
Though, I actually got a girlfriend in November, as she basically offered herself me. During sex with her, my mind could not but stop contemplating the condition of my penis, this 70% erect, difficult to keep hard, piece of crap penis. Escapism through sex was what I lived for, the F~@< am I to do now? I dropped out of university 5 months ago, as Peyronies Disease progressively took over my life and made me completely—even more than before—apathetic towards the outside world. I'm am not suicidal, but I think about killing myself every day. I'm not afraid of death, if this doesn't get better, I'm taking my free ticket to: F^@$!ng anywhere else than here! Not there yet though. I will certainly try everything before folding on life.
Needless to say, the relationship didn't last, obviously. I realized I was only there to figure out the impact on my sexual life, and ended it after but 2 months. If I was unable to fall in love before, I have now become incapable of even just loving.
Thanks for reading

Tor

[TonySa]

Hi Tor, certainly seems you have Peyronies.  Every I nes plaque distribution is different but if it is resulting in narrowing and curves it is Peyronies.  I hope you don't mind me saying this but your likely worsening your condition (or offsetting any gains from traction) w jeqiling—def stop.  Be sure to read the survival guide here.  I'd shoot for 6-9 hrs/day of traction or consider restorex (if you can get it) which requires 60 minutes or so aday.  I'd add pentox (If doc will prescribe) and low dose nightly pde5i, prob 2.5-5mg tadalafil as it will also strengthen erections as well as remodel plaque to healthy tissue.  With a 35-40 degree and a strong erection intercourse should be doable.  Use the curve to your partners advantage to stimulate their erogenous zones (women-g spot or men-prostate).    You've come to the right place for support !
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