My psychological peyronie's horror story

[StayStrong2030]

This is how I developed peyronie's:

-someone found out that I visited a legal "teen porn" (18+) website
-he told a number of people who told a number of other people (likely embellishing what it was I actually looked at)
-I became an evil monster in the minds of many (including those I had never met before) - this was made clear with body language and verbal implications
-the exposure to this constant barrage of hatred continued growing over the next couple years and it began affecting my professional career as this all occurred within the office (my boss knew of this and used it against me)
-when my penis was straight, rumors that I was a perverted porn addict led many in the office to use innuendo implying I had a bent penis
-one night after one of the most frustrating interactions with anyone I have ever had, I masturbated vigorously and angrily - I had given up all hope and became exactly who it was I was being portrayed as
-the next morning I woke up and my penis had a bulge on the side: I had ruptured my cavernosa
-submerged in ice water to keep swelling down for a couple days and laid off it for a couple weeks
-a couple weeks later I try to get an erection - I hear a popping sound
-over the next few months the collagen that had entered my penis in response to the trauma begins to harden, curving the penis and indenting the bottom-right side
-get on pentox and viagra
-over the next year the penis curvature stabilizes
-I am left with a bent penis with pronounced scar tissue

I am convinced that this would not have happened had the wrong person not found out that I visited that site, or had I just left the office to enter a new social environment free of rumors that I was an evil pervert. Instead, I stayed, and ended up harming myself out of immense frustration.

Teen-themed porn is the most common form of pornography. And pornography is used every so often by the majority of men with access to the internet. It is not evil to look at teen-themed pornography, it is normal (to have an attraction to young sexually mature females, and to masturbate to pornography in the 21st century). If anything, a man who looks at this sort of thing on the internet is showing a lapse of self-control and strength, not that he is evil. But try telling this to an angry mob who is convinced that you're attracted to "little girls".

That is my horror story. It is as dark as most of the pornography industry, and so I view it as a form of scale balancing. But it would not have happened if my internet anonymity wasn't compromised. And there are millions of men out there who look at teen porn from time to time and do it anonymously (and legally) and without psycho-social torture and eventual self-harm.

I don't know what sort of lessons anyone could take from this given that we all pretty much have it now. It feels good to get it out there though (presuming this is anonymous - I will presume that it is).  

[emasculated]

I always knew americans are extremely uptight and super ashamed of anything sexual. They are even too ashamed to tell a doctor when they hurt themselves during sex. You're not even from US but Canada... seems the same there.
I cannot really relate to this. If I go to hookers or watch porn no one at work would even care about that where I come from... It's a weird story. What I especially fail to understand how you would even care about what other people think about you. I wouldn't give the smallest crap.

Also.. in case of acute injury with swelling one should always go IMMEDIATELY to a doctor.
So here's something readers can learn from your story: watch porn as often as you want and as much as you like and if anyone thinks that's worthwhile news laugh at them for being uptight cunts, don't abuse your member, go to a doctor in case of injury & swelling

[kuaka]

It is unfortunate that our "society" still has a great deal of its prudish origins (Puritans, Quakers etc...) influencing us.  While excessive use of porn and masturbation will indeed have consequences, these should NOT be in the workplace or society in general.  

My story is long, and I don't have a "single" injury to point to exactly.  My penis was injured severely, along with most of my right side, in an accident over 30 years ago.  I have always been aware of a scar around my penis just 1/2 inch or so from head, near but apparently not associated with circumcision (it wasn't there before the big accident as I can recall, but memory from before then is not the best), and my urethra has internal scarring which makes my urinary stream a bit of a spray...which I know for a fact was not the case before said accident.  

I was always fairly heavy into masturbation for emotional pain (long story...not for this forum), but recently (a few years ago) escalated use as physical pain relief.  All of my old injuries have come back to haunt me decades later, and readily available pain medications have little to no effect with me.  I turned from the "casual" use of still pictures in magazines to the modern stream of short videos via the net.

The modern availability of high speed presentation of "new" mating material in the form of Internet porn does indeed introduce a new element to the whole "man" thing.  It is a trap, and if we were less prudish as a society, it would not be a very effective one.

Yours is a case where you have a single point of significant injury on which to pin the cause.  This needs to be one category of Peyronies Disease as far as knowledge of the whole condition is concerned.  

Good luck.