I am driving my girlfriend crazy

[Thisismyusername]

I'm hoping to get some advice about how to cope with peyronie's disease.  My penis always worked flawlessly until shortly after I lost my virginity to my current girlfriend about 7 months ago.  6 months ago I noticed a slight curve and it has led to a 10 degree curve, weakening of erections, and pain all day long while flaccid for the past 5 months.  I've moved far away from my girlfriend for graduate school and we will be apart for the next 5 years.  I want to stay with her because we are in love and she is a wonderful person but peyronie's disease is putting a lot of stress on our relationship.  I am an anxious wreck and I have trouble sleeping sometimes, and coping with the pain.  I constantly stress out my girlfriend by venting about the pain and my anxieties.  I can't stop.  She is very supportive but she can only handle so much.  I feel like she isn't getting a lot of positive things from this relationship anymore.  She is really the only person who I can talk to about my condition so it means that all my worries are expressed to her.  She also feels very guilty about what happened to me.  She loves me and wants to make me happy and instead my penis has been permanently damaged from having sex with her.  

I need advice on how to cope with peyronie's disease in a way that won't drive my girlfriend away.  It's good to talk to her about my feelings and anxieties sometimes, but I am constantly drowning her.  She is extremely stressed out about everything.  I really don't know what to do and I fantasize about killing myself a lot.  Not because I want to die or because I'm really going to do it, but because it seems like the only solution.  Things are so f'^+'ed up.  I didn't want this to happen.  This is not the life that I wanted.  I can't see a light at the end of the tunnel.  

[damian]

I know exactly what you are going through. Our cases are almost the same. Trauma, prostatitis like pain, not really palpable plaque etc. The last year was the most horrible year in my life. Everyday was a horror story. I was in my bed for the most of time, googling symptoms and predicting the future. I have a supporting GF and there were times where I felt just like you now. She was the only then who knew about this and it happened by having sex with her. I thought she'd leave, because I became weak as f**k. We broke up, because I wasn't the same person like before.  I cried alot, even infront of her. I never cried since my childhood. I thought I'd never have a girlfriend again. Suicide was a sweet thought and if I were in that state for longer... no one knows what would happen. We started our relationship again and now it's better than before. Even sex is better then before, because I'm happy with every bit of it.. of her. She said sex is now better for her too. I was brainwashed by porns and thought the harder the better. That's why I ended up like this. Now we're taking it slowly and we are enjoying every moment. What I can tell you dude, everything gets better. Physiological, because this crap heals, slowly, but it heals and psychological, because people get use to everything. It just depends on how you think about it. Every time I was worried about my erection quality, I really had weak erections. Take it easy. Don't force yourself. If it doesn't work today, it will tomorrow. I went through the same.

I still have pain, but much less than before. What I am interested in, is the relation betwen penis injuries or peyronie's with our pelvic floor. Every guy on this forum have problems with it.
I'm not privileged to live in the U.S. People with pelvic floor issues go to physiotherapy, which are very effective. I wonder what the effect on peyronie's would be.

[Thisismyusername]

God, our cases are even more similar than you think because I got it from having rough sex with my girlfriend too.  We were both virgins and had watched a lot of porn and thought rough was normal.  I'm never going to be rough again.  

I would like to try physical therapy for pelvic floor inflammation but I can't find anyone that can help me with that.  I think somehow pelvic floor inflammation is exacerbating the inflammation in my penis, especially around the plaque.  

[damian]

If nothing else, it would help with the pain. I noticed, everytime my cpps is better, the pain will automatically disappear. Is there no therapist near you? I'm in contact with the user phatcat. He's on PT for hard-flaccid, he's keeping me up to date with good news of his progress.

[Thisismyusername]

I don't know if there is a therapist near me.  I don't even know how to find out.  Few urologists treat CPPS symptoms with therapy.  Most call it "prostatitis" and only prescribe antibiotics or flomax to treat it.  Do you or anyone else have any idea how to find a therapist who could help me with pelvic inflamation?

[damian]

Phatcat is going on physical therapy for cpps. He's the only one I know from this forum who's treating it. Try the hard-flaccid forum. There are a bunch of  guys which are getting PT. It's a closed forum, but there are valuable information.