I think i've had enough.

[AphexTwin]

I damaged my penis so badly when i was younger that i don't think i can bear to live anymore.  No one deserves to be in anguish and misery 24/7.  This hell must end, i  have exhausted all options and even had the nesbit tuck surgery performed at Mayo Clinic.   I can't take this anymore guys ....the damage was too much.

[Hawk]

I damaged my penis so badly when i was younger that i don't think i can bear to live anymore.  No one deserves to be in anguish and misery 24/7.

AphexTwin,

I am sorry to hear your struggles.  When you speak of the 24/7 misery, do you mean physical or psychological?

[AphexTwin]

I guess you can say both.  Mainly the psychological component.   Not just the erection ...even when im flaccid i am tortured.  It's not soft....its shortened and somewhat hard from all the scar tissue.

[Hawk]

You are young with great potential for you and your penis.  I would slowly and methodically lay the ground work for an evaluation by a top notch surgeon specializing in penile restoration.  You seem so generally disgusted that you have not been real specific on your condition.  For instance:
Can you get erections?
What is your BPSFL?
Are you relatively straight when erect?

After we get to these basics, I would like you to think your attitude through and type out a thoughtful post in the "Psychological Aspects" board.

Best wishes
Hawk

[AphexTwin]

Thanks Hawk.  I will get back to you with all the information.  I just need to take a deep breath and relax, i'm getting to worked up about it.

[Hawk]

Please do relax.  You have everything required to work through this and come out the other side.  You have also found a group of guys that will support you through this.

Hawk

[james1947]

AphexTwin

I will second Hawk on all his posts.
After you will give the forum information regarding your problems, forum members will be able to give you some advices.

James

[Norm]

Amen, brothers! This is all sound advice. Aphex, you are new here. Give it a few minutes and breathe. There is lots of help on this forum. We are all fighting this thing together. Ok, I would rather have a dysfunctional finger than a dysfunctional dick. But you got what you got. Work with us and maybe we can help you learn how to deal with it. I am much older than you are, so I cannot say "I know just how you feel". But I do know how I feel and I understand it must be worse for a young man. Looking at the bright side, you have a lot more time to conquer your problem than I have. Study this forum. Make it your best friend. And lastly, hang in there.  

[guyincog]

Hey man, I know what you're going through.  This is a really difficult thing to have to deal with.

From my own experience it's not something I can handle on my own.  I had to seek help - I went to a crisis clinic at a hospital that set me up with a social worker who is helping me get through it.  Before that I talked with a psycologist but he was an idiot.  Getting the right person to talk with made a big difference.

Also, I had a pretty terrible experience this year - for whatever reason my pain was there for almost the last 14 months and it was so severe I couldn't even sleep at night.  It was an awful, awful experience and on top of that the psychological trauma of having a deformity and not being able to have sex or feeling like the damage was just getting worse and worse.

Just take it day by day.  Just get to the next day, and the next one and keep pushing forward.  Reach out to friends if you have any you can talk to. Post on this board if you need help or just need to vent.  We don't know exactly what you're going through but you're not alone in this.