Desperate for any help/advice. Don't know what to do.

[hopingtoheal1day]

I already had hard flaccid and had increasing erectile dysfunction. I was having sex a little over a week ago and got flaccid during intercourse trying to last longer but pushed through it, got hard again and ejaculated inside. Made that same mistake a couple days later and now have a similar pain on the right side. Worse mistakes of my life. Since then I have really bad pain on the 2 spots of my penis while flaccid all day long. The area where it hurts very badly on the left is slightly inflamed outward, and notice a smaller one where it hurts on the right side. And my penis seems to be curving more to the left everyday only when semi-erect. I am worried it is plaque or fibrosis forming under the skin in those spots that hurt so much. I take naproxen for the pain but it does not help very much at all.

I got cialis to help with ed so I won't go flaccid again and make the same mistake, but I feel like the damage is already done and I am screwed now. I was hoping the pain would reduce as the days go by, but it hurts just as much as when it started and am worried I will be in constant pain for many months to years from this mistake, and it is killing me mentally.

Laying down to sleep at night the pain is a little less intense, and doing pelvic floor stretches and walking helps a little bit, but as soon as I stop stretching or walking the pain returns.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and am going to ask for strong painkillers to help with the constant flaccid pain, because I cannot think straight at all with the constant pain I am feeling. I will ask for a urologist referral but I know it will take a long time to see them, and even then, I know they are not much help with conditions like this.

I am crying so much everyday from this. I think of suicide all day long because of this. I have very strong feelings for the girl I was having sex with and now I feel like I ruined any chance of a great future with her. I don't want to take strong painkillers daily for a long time because I know that is very bad for my body but what other choice do I have? Will I probably be in constant pain for a long time from this injury? Do I have any options that will help with the constant pain other than painkillers?

[hopingtoheal1day]

I forgot to add. I am able to get non-painful erections with cialis. Can I continue to have sex or would it be best to avoid?

[Sonic]

I hope your suicidal thoughts are not serious. If they are just feelings I get it. I've had them myself and still do where I just feel like going to sleep and never waking up again due to very tough life but they are just feelings that come and go, actually this is something an extremely high amount of people feel like sometimes especially long term depressed people like myself but if you are actually contemplating killing yourself please seek mental help immediately.

With that said. I am very sorry that you had to end up joining this crooked penis brotherhood of ours. Most good urologists will tell you that avoiding sex completely is not a good idea at all. The best thing you can do for now is keep taking the cialis to help promote as strong erections as you can. You can have sex but you need to be careful. Don't stress too much about it, as long as the cialis is helping you get hard enough you are fine.

Other than that, sadly there ain't much you can do and I hate to break that to you but it's just the cold hard truth. If you notice you are getting too sharp of a curve you can try a traction device. You could possibly also get yourself a vacuum pump and prefferably one with a pressure gauge like an LA Pump and do the pumping protocol on here.

If you reach a point where the Erectile Dysfunction just gets too much then sadly an implant is the only real solution.

I hope you do not reach that point but until then find a routine that suits your own situation and symptoms the best and stick to it. We are always here to provide support.

PS. If you had very strong feelings for that girl you mentioned and those feelings were matched by her it should not matter what happened in the bed buddy don't worry about that, even if she ain't the one for you, you will find one that will be more understanding. There are plenty of guys on here who has had done so.

[hopingtoheal1day]

I hope your suicidal thoughts are not serious. If they are just feelings I get it. I've had them myself and still do where I just feel like going to sleep and never waking up again due to very tough life but they are just feelings that come and go, actually this is something an extremely high amount of people feel like sometimes especially long term depressed people like myself but if you are actually contemplating killing yourself please seek mental help immediately.

With that said. I am very sorry that you had to end up joining this crooked penis brotherhood of ours. Most good urologists will tell you that avoiding sex completely is not a good idea at all. The best thing you can do for now is keep taking the cialis to help promote as strong erections as you can. You can have sex but you need to be careful. Don't stress too much about it, as long as the cialis is helping you get hard enough you are fine.

Other than that, sadly there ain't much you can do and I hate to break that to you but it's just the cold hard truth. If you notice you are getting too sharp of a curve you can try a traction device. You could possibly also get yourself a vacuum pump and prefferably one with a pressure gauge like an LA Pump and do the pumping protocol on here.

If you reach a point where the Erectile Dysfunction just gets too much then sadly an implant is the only real solution.

I hope you do not reach that point but until then find a routine that suits your own situation and symptoms the best and stick to it. We are always here to provide support.

PS. If you had very strong feelings for that girl you mentioned and those feelings were matched by her it should not matter what happened in the bed buddy don't worry about that, even if she ain't the one for you, you will find one that will be more understanding. There are plenty of guys on here who has had done so.

Thank you for the reply my friend. Sadly the girl left me so I won't be having sex anymore (probably for the rest of my life). And no, I don't think I will ever go through with actually killing myself, but I do pray to God everyday that he ends my life somehow, so I don't have to deal with the pain, suffering, despair & sadness I feel everyday.

I see so many strong people on this forum, that are able to live some kind of life with this horrible condition. All of you are such strong warriors. Sadly I am not as strong. I feel utterly destroyed by the pain all day from this. The peyronie's pain only started over a week ago, but I already feel so defeated from the agonizing pain I am feeling. I don't know if my pain is any worse, or I am just too sensitive to it, but I literally cannot think straight because of it. I have never felt so truly dead inside, like I am a ghost and my body already died, but I am trapped in this soulless body. Like a fate worse than death.

When I had hard flaccid before I was able to at least try to stay positive throughout the days. But with this peyronie's pain I feel now, I cannot even be positive in any way because of how destroyed I feel. I will continue to pray to God for help, and pray for all of you to help make it through this horrible condition. Please take care and be careful. It is a very rough world out there.

[Sonic]

I feel and share your pain. I do not feel strong. I just keep on going with my life as there is no other choice. Life is like a deck of cards. Some are dealt a great hand while others are dealt the worst. If you see me as strong then so are you because you are only doing the same as me, going on with your life. It is never easy, I've dealt with so many tragedies, sorrow grief and then get this BS on top of it, it is never easy and for me it never was.

The pain stage does not last forever. Avoid sugar, avoid smoking, alcohol, anything that raises inflammation levels in the body must be avoided at all costs during this stage. You can look into water fasting on youtube, a practice where you only consume nothing but water, if you are overall healthy this can be done for an extended period even 30 days. This got rid of my pain entirely but it takes a lot of discipline and an iron will because it is very difficult to teach yourself to go without food especially if you eat many times a day.

I started by going 24 hours consuming only water. I did this every sunday. With time I learned to go more days. It rids your body near completely of inflammation. It is not easy but something you can think about, there are countless videos on it on youtube and tons of stuff online. It is crucial in the pain stage to avoid anything that raises inflammation, you need to ensure you have as clean of a diet as possible and try minimize stress/anxiety the best you can.

If you reach a dead end with your condition in the future a penile implant will always be there as a last resort option.  

[hopingtoheal1day]

I feel and share your pain. I do not feel strong. I just keep on going with my life as there is no other choice. Life is like a deck of cards. Some are dealt a great hand while others are dealt the worst. If you see me as strong then so are you because you are only doing the same as me, going on with your life. It is never easy, I've dealt with so many tragedies, sorrow grief and then get this BS on top of it, it is never easy and for me it never was.

The pain stage does not last forever. Avoid sugar, avoid smoking, alcohol, anything that raises inflammation levels in the body must be avoided at all costs during this stage. You can look into water fasting on youtube, a practice where you only consume nothing but water, if you are overall healthy this can be done for an extended period even 30 days. This got rid of my pain entirely but it takes a lot of discipline and an iron will because it is very difficult to teach yourself to go without food especially if you eat many times a day.

I started by going 24 hours consuming only water. I did this every sunday. With time I learned to go more days. It rids your body near completely of inflammation. It is not easy but something you can think about, there are countless videos on it on youtube and tons of stuff online. It is crucial in the pain stage to avoid anything that raises inflammation, you need to ensure you have as clean of a diet as possible and try minimize stress/anxiety the best you can.

If you reach a dead end with your condition in the future a penile implant will always be there as a last resort option.

I am very grateful for the helpful advice and kind words Sonic. Thank you so much. Unfortunately I am very addicted to cigarettes and drink a beer or two a day. When I've tried to quit I get extremely emotional and actually start crying uncontrollably. It really seems impossible for me to quit. I was messed up mentally even before all these penis problems started. Thankfully I do get exercise and do stretches, and go for long walks. I will maybe try the fasting sometime soon. Thanks again for the support. Stay safe friend.

[Sonic]

No problem. It seems the forum is becoming a little more inactive the past years but hopefully someone else chimes in. I am always here if you feel you need anyone  to talk to. Talked to many guys on here via PM's. This is a type of condition where really, only others who have it truly can understand what it feels like. Really hope from the bottom of my heart your situation becomes better. With Peyronies there is always hope and as I said even though it is a very complicated and dreaded procedure by many, the implant route is always there as an option if there's no other way out.

That's the only good thing about Peyronies. It's not a death sentence. There are solutions, even if most of them are incredibly bothersome.

I have personally always felt like the mental aspect is much worse than the penile deformities itself. I would say that. It's very draining on the mental health, produces a crap ton of anxiety and this high adrenaline/anxious state leads to other dreadful conditions like hard flaccid that you mentioned.

[hopingtoheal1day]

No problem. It seems the forum is becoming a little more inactive the past years but hopefully someone else chimes in. I am always here if you feel you need anyone  to talk to. Talked to many guys on here via PM's. This is a type of condition where really, only others who have it truly can understand what it feels like. Really hope from the bottom of my heart your situation becomes better. With Peyronies there is always hope and as I said even though it is a very complicated and dreaded procedure by many, the implant route is always there as an option if there's no other way out.

That's the only good thing about Peyronies. It's not a death sentence. There are solutions, even if most of them are incredibly bothersome.

I have personally always felt like the mental aspect is much worse than the penile deformities itself. I would say that. It's very draining on the mental health, produces a crap ton of anxiety and this high adrenaline/anxious state leads to other dreadful conditions like hard flaccid that you mentioned.

Yes. I agree with everything you are saying. The mental pain + physical pain combined makes it very hard to even function.

I am not sure if this means anything, but yesterday the pain was greatly reduced and I did not do anything out of the ordinary. Even my mental state was as worse as its ever been, yet all day the pain was greatly reduced. Obviously I was very happy and was hoping the reduced pain would continue. So I woke up with a positive mind today but unfortunately, the pain increased again to about its normal state. So I am not sure why yesterday the pain was reduced so much and then jumped back up today to horrible pain again today. Can this mean anything about my injury, or what I can expect going forward?

Again, thank you for all the support during this very tough time.

[hopingtoheal1day]

It will probably be months until I can see a urologist which is really depressing.

I was not expecting to, but I had sex again using cialis. I have so much reduced sensitivity in my penis now, I can barely feel sex at all. Will the reduced sensitivity be like this probably for the rest of my life?

I am not feeling too much pain right now, but I'm thinking that is because I took 20mg of cialis yesterday and if I stop taking it the pain will return. I guess I will just have to wait and see. It seems cialis helps with the pain more than naproxen. Is this common? Does this mean anything?

When penis is really shriveled up small, I don't notice much of a bend (but it does always lean to the left), or when fully erect I don't notice a bend, but when semi hard there is a big curve to the left. And it seems to be curving more and more in this semi-erect state everyday, especially after sexual activity despite making sure I have fully erect when having sex. Is this probably peyronie's, or could it be something else?

[RexRG]

Only an examination by a decent urologist will tell if it's Peyronies Disease. The pain and increasing curvature does sound like it to me. I had intense pain for a week or more whenever I had an erection in the early acute stage. Later acute stage, I had little sharp pains in various areas without an erection. But it's all stopped (for good I hope) and the curvature and deformity seem to have stopped.

My physician had no clue what mine was but could easily detect the hard plaques. So don't be too discouraged if that happens to you. The first and second urologists both confirmed it's Peyronies Disease but sadly neither one actually treat the condition. I'm waiting on a specialist now.

As to your sensitivity loss, I haven't experienced that. There are many nerves and blood vessels in the penis that could be affected by a number of things. My experience has been positive with traction, but I'd be hesitant if there was numbness.  

[hopingtoheal1day]

Thank you so much for reply.

[hopingtoheal1day]

I am only in my mid 30s, and the feeling of having to deal with such serious penis problems for the rest of my life... I just don't have words to describe the hopelessness I feel all day long.

I feel selfish because I know many people across the world have worse problems than me, yet I cannot feel any happiness in life at all anymore with the few things I do have left in my life. I feel so weak compared to so many I see on these forums who still make the most of their lives. Truly you are all kings among men to be able to still find happiness in life with serious penis conditions like numbness, hard flaccid & peyronie's.

All my hobbies I used to enjoy no longer bring me any happiness. I truly feel like I am living the worst nightmare anyone could ever live, and I am the saddest person in the world. To think 1 year ago my penis was perfectly fine the same way it was my entire life. And horrible thing after horrible thing kept happening to me that led me to this current condition. I know I can never forgive myself or stop obsessively thinking about the past and how I made so many stupid mistakes that led to this. This was all so avoidable, and I can't believe I let things get this bad.

The depression I feel is truly maddening. All day, all I ask over and over is for God to kill me to end this suffering sadness & anger I feel. I truly love every human on earth and wish nothing but happiness for everybody. And have felt that way for a long time even before this condition. I just want to be a positive person for the world. But I know I cannot be positive again for the rest of my life with these horrible conditions.

If I feel this bad all the time, what options do I have to feel better at this point? Get opiates to ease the pain of living everyday? I bet a doctor won't even prescribe them for me, and I don't even know how I would feel on them because I have never tried them before, but I just don't know what to do at this point.

[IwillbeatPD]

Dude, if it's bothering you this much why not just get an implant?