Noticed kink, came out of nowhere

[samanil]

Hi,

Around 3 months ago while masturbating I noticed a kink in my dick. I was perplexed but not really concerned since I had no pain. After a while I started to get a bit concerned because I could feel the plaque and I was worried it was cancer or something. So I went into the ER, where they basically said it wasn't a big deal, sometimes this happens, and that it would only be a problem if I had pain.

This disarmed me and I didn't think much of it for a few weeks. Then I had sex for the first time in about 4 years, and during intercourse I felt pain. This got me concerned again, so I started researching Peyronie's, which got me more than concerned. I did my first session of manual traction today, and have a traction device and VED in the mail, along with a bunch of supplements. I plan to start some kind of low carb diet.

The context of my disease is that, as mentioned, I didn't have sex for about 4 years. I've got some psychological issues and take breakups incredibly hard (triggers cPTSD, I believe), so I basically didn't try to get laid for those 4 years. For the last of those 4 years I didn't masturbate at all and didn't watch any porn. During that time I had one wet dream and rarely if ever had morning wood. Thus I think it's fair to conclude that I have a screwed up sex drive, which I attribute to cPTSD and it's accompanying loneliness/depression/avoidance.

At the end of my year of not watching porn or masturbating, I got laid off from my job and was isolated in my apartment for months during the nasty Seattle winter. In a state of deep depression I started watching porn and masturbating again as a form of self medication. In this context, I developed peyronie's. I am suspicious that maybe it was stress induced (suicidal depression). At that time my diet also went to crap and I started smoking cigarettes to cope with the psychological pain. So that may have been the cause as well. Or, I may have simply gotten an erection in my sleep and fractured it.

Thanks for reading.
 

[lsssr]

The world loves to kick you when you're down, huh. Already depressed then this happens.

I can relate to what you're going through. I got laid off this year and went through a breakup too, now I'm realizing I have Peyronie's on top of all that. I'm not going to tell you "chin up, buddy!" but maybe it makes you feel better to know there's someone out here just as miserable as you. I've barely been able to eat or sleep the past couple days because of the anxiety/depression.

Why is life so hard

[samanil]

I'm sorry you are having a rough time of it. A breakup too? Damn, that's a lot to go through all at once.

Yes, it is helpful to know others are out there going through similar crap as well! Good luck on your recovery and keep me posted.