Third injury and struggling

[Sam1992]

Hello. I've posted on this forum in the past. Very helpful advice so thanks for your help, past and future. I'm 27 now and have suffered three penis tissue injuries in the past 5 years. All three from excessive masterbation. Looking back on this I'm not excessive usually, for example once a day, however these times have been linked to stress relief during traumatic events in my life at the time, along with alcohol. Each time an injury has happened I have lost some degree of Erectile function and lost some degree of size. In the past I have suffered extreme depression as a result. Felt suicidal and taken antidepressants and councilling. After the first injury I developed a curve and loss of sensation but not ED. Second time I lost a bit more size and suffered with ED. I used viagra with my partner for 8 months before managing to come off it. This time has been really bad, as soon as I injured myself the depression returned and I didn't sleep for days. In the end stupidly I masterbated a few times to test it out and get some relief. Dumb thinking but those go hand in hand with depression and anxiety. After that I lost all feeling in my dick and struggle to get any sort of Erection capable of masterbating. I did take some viagra a few times and have been able to have sex with my partner but it feels different and the lack of size is obvious. The depression has gotten worse and I'm drinking more. Yesterday I ended up on a bender and remember having angry self destructive thoughts. I did try to masterbate at the time but couldn't get any sort of erection. Woke up with pain and a frighteningly short and thin penis. Like I genuinely don't even think there is enough there to form a proper erection! So here I am. I'm aware of the mistakes I've made and the physiological issues that have arisen. I just wondered if anyone has any advice? Any ideas on how to go about living if I have managed to make myself impotent. How to try and save my relationship? My partner has been supportive but is struggling with my depression and downward spiral. We've been apart for most of the time this has been going on over the last few weeks. It hurts when we are together because I feel sad that I can't have sex with her anymore. I try to be upbeat and enjoy being together but it's hard. I also fear that if things are permanently ruined physically then she surely would eventually look elsewhere. She did say she'd stay with me even if it fell off but I think that's just a throwaway response. I've not seen a specialist recently since this third injury because of corona virus and no one being free. Thanks, it's been therapeutic to write.

[jj21]

Sam,

Remember its not the end of the world. Many people here have healed their injuries and cured their ED. Also, an implant is a option for you.. Look up the implant forum on here many people have resumed an even better sex life than before with a good implant.

Have you seen a doctor? Being prescribed Cialis daily plus pentox and adding 100mg viagra before sex helped me to have a somewhat normal sex life. It's also helped me regain some girth.

I think you may have a lot of psychological issues and it's time you see a psychologist or go to a centre for drug and alcohol rehabilitation perhaps? That excessive masturbation is not good, try and discipline yourself.

Keep us updated and please go see a urologist about your condition and a psych.

Stay positive man, end of the day an implant can fix all your problems and also give you some extra girth!

JJ