My dear friends.
Soon, probably I will try to ask a surgery in order to improve my current condition. I agree to do a surgery, even though my case is mild. As you already know, I don't have curvature nor pain. I have only disgusting constant discomfort under my skin. I know there is no surgery options for my case. I know, there is no magic pill. I'm sceptical. But, I will try to ask it anyway. And If surgery will help me a bit and condition will get close to my prior state at least. I will be celebrating my new life. At last, I will relax in New York's Starbucks caffe, enjoying "New York" music in my earphones and feel myself as free haha. I will always be grateful to doctors. I will be happy and I will try to study in university again, will find a great job and finally will try to marry lady similar Jennifer Esposito/Marisa Tomei type and create a happy family.
If surgery will not help me or get worse. No doubt, I immediately will cut ties with my friends and my family. Therefore, I will move on some forgotten island or mountain deep forest and will live there alone in constant emotional pain for the rest of my life. Or better, I will gladly ask some psychiatric clinic to lock me up there forever. Scenario and Plot reminds the Butterfly Effect Movie, isn't it!?
Seriously, I would lost my house, I would lost my hairs or I would let to have scar on my face like Sub-Zero, but having scar inside my member is so disgusting to realize. I have weight of everything during 8 years and feel trapped/stuck in my own body. I tried to be positive and pretend to be a regular among people, but it was hard inside and fake. Life is cruel and unfair. I'm ready for different outcomes. So, soon I will try to test and check, how surgery helpful is.
(Thanks for reading and Apologize for poor english)
"All that really matters is that
the people you love happy
and healthy. Everything else
is like sprinkles on the sundae"
(c) Paul Walker
But what will you ACTUALLY do if and likely when nothing helps? I am not saying this to upset you or to cause controversy.
What mental thing will you do? What process will occur? Living in the woods is an option, but not a practical one.
I am asking this because what you said in your 2nd paragraph is exactly how I feel and how many people here feel whether they want to admit it or not.
Surgery will not bring your dick back to the "way it was."
Treatments on this forum, by and large, do not work. And they definitely don't work to a 100% degree. Despite what anyone here will tell you. Anyone here who had a treatment that worked 100% is a spontaneous healer and is falsely attributing it to a treatment.
So, my question for you is what will you do when you are not allowed by any living creature or device or surgery to ever have the dick you were born with back? Because that is exactly what is happening to you and to me and to everyone here.
Everyone here is facing this same decision whether they are aware of it or not. And I am interested in the reasoning.
Sorry if this seems dramatic. Trying to make a simpler point. Sorry for jacking your post. Feel free to ignore.
You say you have no curvature and your case is mild. I assume yoiu do not have ED, right?
If you have a functioning dick and you can have normal sex, why risk everything with a surgery? Does not make sense to me at all.
Yeah, that too. I left that part out ;)
Thank you guys for your replying. You are really kind people. Probably, I still can't cope with mental health issue. It stupid condition caused by an injury event, which I could have avoided. Since then, I suffer current condition and my current emotional pain. What I know is regret, every day and every minute of my life - I regret about that injury event. My young mind still has not healed since. After an injury, I faced with dismissive doctors, who had been rude with me and prescribed me conservative therapy, which did not help me at all. Probably, I need to travel and find good specialist in this field or I need to heal my mind. I believe, one day - I will mentally overcome it at least.
Yeah the whole tone that vibes through your post is depressed, negative, melancholic.
But kind of nicely put into words by you incl. a movie reference ;)
That mental state will mess with your erections too. An erection needs certain chemicals which the body wont produce in certain states.
In such a depressed state it's hard to make the right decisions, which then makes things worse and so on.. lol devils circle.
You should visit a therapeute, psychatrist, religion/meditation or someone you can openly speak with in person.
At best you also do something you enjoy or takes up your mind that also helps your body(movement).
A lot of small positive steps might lead you out of that hole.
melting, Thank you for your advice. Really, I need to find someone to talk about my problem. I hope that one day I will forget about it and finally overcome it. I believe, I will have happy life.
HEy man,
A Lot of of us have been in the same position as you.. When I first had my injury I gave up on life.. However, just like you my condition was mild (mostly a semi-erect curve and could have sex when fully erect).. I also had ED....
I was in denial and depressed for a long time and looking back this is what I regret most!!. I'm now seeing improvement from a combination of therapies and looking back I should have started all of this earlier. Had I started therapy and treatment earlier I may have been healed by now (2 years later).
Please note - there have been many cases where surgery left people worse than when they went in. So be aware of the risks. If your condition is mild there is a good chance you may improve slowly over time.
See if you can book in to see a psychologist for your mental health and then see a specialist for your peyronies. With the right treatment you could start to make improvement and keep this in mind - some people here improved so much they ended up with a greater penis than before their peyronies... So there is a chance you could come out better than before.
Have a look at the forums on VED, Traction and IMPROVEMENT forum - they will give you hope.
J
jj21, Thank you for your words of encouragement. You really kind. Big thanks for support.
Almost impossible to forget.. you can change your view on it, your position on it. Put it into a different context.