Hey everyone - here is my introduction
I am 29 and experiencing symptoms of Peyronies Disease. After several years of denial, I've decided to see a urologist. I'm scheduled for Jan 5th 2023. It's a uro at a local clinic, so my expectations are low... but I'm starting somewhere.
Here's how it all went down 9 years ago...
I was 20 and in college and had a friend with benefits. One night we were both pretty drunk and having sex (missionary, ironically). My penis exited her and I thrusted into her pelvis. I felt incredible pain and immediately lost my erection.
I had no sex for several months after that but noticed the base of my penis is significantly less stable when erect. There is no major bend in my penis, but my erection does not tilt slightly upward like it used to many years ago. I get 60-70% hard without stimulation or constriction. I usually lose the erection within a minute if I don't stimulate it.
When flaccid, I notice hourglassing and a dent on the bottom of the base of my shaft. It seems to fill out mostly when I get erect, but the lack of stability at the base and ED symptoms are frustrating.
I've only had sex 12 times since that event.
1/12 - full satisfaction from vaginal intercourse
5/12 - finished via oral sex
6/12 - me and her both not satisfied
The worst part of this story - the impact on my mental health. Guys in my fraternity heard of this incident and called me "Reek" (the guy from Game of Thrones who loses his member). It's kind of funny now, but at the time it was awful.
After a string of unsuccessful sexual encounters I developed an inferiority complex and fell into a severe depression. I went onto antidepressants for 3 years and turned to hardcore pornography. The porn habit developed into a fetish where I would watch men share their wives with strangers. I felt broken and unworthy of love / satisfaction.
The antidepressants and porn only made my dysfunction worse. Thankfully, I never engaged in any sexual acts that resembled my porn interests.
I am proud to say that I'm coming up on 3 months without any hardcore porn relapses. This is the longest stretch of time without porn since I started watching as a youth. I still occasionally look at bikini / lingerie pics, but I am working on discontinuing that too.
I also am on day 30 of "No Nut November." For the first time in years, I get erections in my sleep sometimes. I even had a couple wet dreams. I got an erection yesterday that lasted several minutes and was around 80% strength!!
The past couple months I feel like I am on a path to improvement. I know I'll never get back to the functionality prior to my accident, but I'm finally accepting and loving myself. I am fortunate not to have severe bends or pain. I am gaining confidence slowly but surely.
Here is my game plan:
- see urologist(s) and get proper ultrasound / diagnosis
- refrain from orgasm via masturbation (30 days strong)
- continue to avoid hardcore porn (nearly 3 months!)
- look into medicine or a ring to help keep erections firm and lasting
- support my fellow brothers on this forum
Don't lose hope guys!
Hi mate, sorry to hear you've had it so rough the last few years but it really sounds like you've turned a corner.
Seeing a doctor is vital, I would suggest from what you're describing that you could equally have some sort of hard flaccid issues, but again, I'm not a doctor and you should deffo get the opinion of someone qualified.
It seems like you've got yourself a solid game plan so keep us posted and good luck 👍
You have my full support, I know very well how it feels to have a 'injured dick', I'm glad that you are recovering your erections.
Had first urologist appointment on Jan 5th
Not much happened... Doppler ultrasound scheduled for Feb 7th.
I'm terrified, but it's one step closer to getting answers
I feel your pain OP, hope you find a better place soon.
I've abstained from masterbating, as I hate seeing my dick hard now.
I've lost length and girth, but, oddly, my last encounter told me it looks cute...?
Legacy, just FYI bro I think not getting your dick hard at all will lead to atrophy. If you are not getting NTE's then light masterbation, VED, or traction would be advisable if you don't want to lose size.
Got my preliminary diagnosis today
Veins are shot... blood flows to my penis but quickly leaves
My options:
- ring / constriction band
- vein repair surgery
- implant