I'm feeling that time goes very fast meanwhile my life wasted into a toilet. It was lucky case for me to born in peace modern time with techno-computer era and beautiful people around, but suddenly the curse came to my life and I got this mysterious stuck-trapped disorder. I developed this disorder in 2012 after the injury. Since then, my happy life turned into nightmare and I could not finish the university. I remember that discomfort between my legs during classes as I could not focus on study. This disorder is not horrible by itself - the loss of sensation is the most horrible for me. Every day I think about that injury day and regret about loss of sensitivity. My daily life is only about regretting and constant struggle in my head. My young mind is filled with thoughts about that injury day and suffering this curse. Also, it's not just loneliness, but I really have a feeling like the "world against me". Soon, I will travel to a top famous specialist, but I doubt that everything will be solved, despite top-rating and professional skills of the specialist. I doubt that I will ever be almost the same in pre-injury state. I miss my prior state. I miss my old healthy life. I live with nostalgia. I'm not interested in having nice appearance, good clothes, expensive cars, big house and dream job anymore. I don't care whether I rich or not, because my life stupidly wasted into a toilet. I demand from God some compensation because of it, even though the injury was my fault. I'm not about how life is unfair nor I don't need mental help. Just sharing with my stupid story. Thanks for reading.
Hey Wilson,
We appreciate the vulnerability, man. Often, it helps just to vent all of that crap out.
I won't dump a bunch of unsolicited advise on you as that doesn't normally help all that much. But I will say try to stay engaged on here and vent whenever you need to. I can't tell you I know what you're going through at 23 years old (I didn't have problems until after 30 and married), but I will say that really sucks, man.
Silver lining; you learned early at 23 that having good clothes, expensive cars, and a big house doesn't mean crap and will never make you happy. Some people waste their entire life chasing that false dragon.
Keep us posted on how your specialist appointment goes. Until then, try not to dwell on the past or fixate on the future. Easier said than done, but dwelling on the past = depression and fixating on the future = anxiety.
I'll leave it there before I continue to fail on not giving unsolicited advise 8)
Scronan, Thanks.
Bro, i totally feel you. Keep strong.
Hope794, Thanks.
I can feel your pain I know about your regret
, because I have the same feeling you have
Regret and seeing your life destroyed in front of you is really painful , we are strong , we are heroes to live every day with this disease.
I feel that man feeling very somber lately
I'm meeting with the doctor EID to hear if he has any suggestions for me. I have been thinking about an implant and I think it might be the right decision for me we will see what he says. Maybe that will at least end this curse a little bit at least not have to worry about reinjry. Frankly it would make the pain much easier to handle if I knew things weren't getting worse.