Hello everybody,
I will start by saying I am 27 years old and single, and am hoping to have an appointment with Dr. Levine at the end of this month. I am currently trying to figure out my insurance situation, but have spoken with his office already. I have not yet been diagnosed, but am hesistant to go to a general physician or urologist in the meantime.
I have a large crater-like indentation in the left and slightly under-side of my penis, perhaps described kind of like two dime-sized ovals overlapping (think peanut or venn diagram shape maybe?). It runs lenthwise along the shaft, is at least 2-3 cm or more in length, and about 1 cm or so at the widest, although narrower for most of it. It feels kind of like a ridge that is deepest in the middle, although with distinct edges. It is visible most of the time, painful to the touch, and also can be felt when penis is
flaccid, erect or semi-erect. I guess I have had it for quite some time, and my penis has often felt very sore in that area for as long as I can remember, but unfortunately I had never heard of Peyronie's or scar tissue in the penis until a week or so ago. I never have been aware this might even be problem, even though it has probably been developing for years.
I will also say I have had literally EVERY bad habit you could think of, although I cant recall ever suffering one traumatic injury. But for 15 years or so I have masturbated prone, LOTS of friction from clothing - I have never used lube, dry-humped with girlfriends in jeans for HOURS, etc. I also have masturbated at least once every day, but sometimes as many as 5 or more times a day. I had never really been warned about any negative effects of this, only that it was "healthy, normal and can help relieve stress!" After extended periods of overuse, I have noticed that area becomes extremely inflammed and sore. This has been occuring for quite some time, but I was only able to identify the exact location and cause recently. I had just been assuming any soreness or pain I was experiencing was totally normal, as it tended to refer and radiate around my entire genital area, I assumed it was simply from overuse or something. At least until I recently located the exact spot where it was coming from, and learned that permanent tissue damage was a possiblility. Now I can tell that pain is actually coming from only one area, as it hurts only when I touch right there and nowhere else.
I have not yet noticed any curvature or shortening. I usually wake up with at least 75% erections. I can get a solid erection, and maintain it for as long as needed but only with continued physical stimulation. I don't believe the internet boards posting about about "death grip" or "porn-induced
Erectile Dysfunction" describe my symptoms well at all, as I have never had any problems performing during actual intercourse or any noticeable loss of feeling or sensation. (although I haven't had consistent sex for at least a year, so I may be in for a surprise.) I do however notice significant hourglassing or similar effects while my penis is in the semi-erect state. But it straightens out during full erection. There is no significant pain caused by an erection itself, unless I accidently touch the indented area, which is ALWAYS very tender and sore. Even brushing up against my boxers on that one spot can cause a jolt of pain.
I have since stopped these harmful masturbation habits, but have still been doing it VERY gently with lotion once every other day or so, I suppose just to relieve stress because I have been so anxious. (and remind myself that it still works, for now at least

...) Even this still seems to increase
inflammation and pain, so I am considering stopping altogether until I can meet with a good Dr. I just don't want to make things worse somehow by going from full speed to a screeching halt too fast.
I guess I am not looking so much for treatment advice in terms of oral supplements, as I have read a lot about these and will consult with a Dr. about whether or not I should start
Pentox ASAP. I guess I am mostly hoping to see if anybody who has been actually been diagnosed or had a long battle with this condition can offer me some hope or better perspective on my situation from a psychological standpoint? I have been feeling pretty hopeless and scared while waiting around to see a specialist, basically imagining every worst-case scenario. It may sound paranoid, but I'm also somewhat concerned that since I have been keeping this area in a constant state of
inflammation for so many years, if I stop masturbating or having sex for even a month or so it will develop into more hardened
plaque. Has anybody else found themselves in a similar predicament, or do you guys think I should just try to stop thinking about it altogether until I can see a specialist? Does my situation sound serious enough that it may cause me major problems at some point down the line, regardless of how I treat it now? I've read a lot about small "bb sized" plaques but not so much about large crater-like ones. This indentation takes up a concerningly large percentage of one side of my
flaccid penis, and I am extremely worried that it will cause some serious deformation in the future.
Any responses are very much appreciated, I know there are tons of new posts sounding exactly like this, but few possible answers to offer...

I have also tried discussing this with at least two other people in my life including an ex-gf I am still very close with, but despite trying to be helpful and supportive, I feel as though me taking out my fears on her only makes things worse for everybody. She is convinced that this is some rare disease, and I shouldn't worry about it since I don't have
Erectile Dysfunction or a diagnosis yet. I don't think that is the case at all. I'm hoping maybe this will be a more constructive place to discuss my concerns and how to handle them?
By the way, after reading this forum heavily the past week, I will definitely try to remain active and provide updates regarding a diagnosis or progression. I absolutely cannot believe the lack of information in both the general public and the medical community regarding this condition. I wish I had been warned about it in health class, although I'm sure there isn't one person on this forum who cannot say the same. For me at least, most of the sexual awareness lessons were on preventing STDs or pregnancy. I have to admit, I always thought masturbation was a perfectly safe alternative to sex! I have the utmost respect for the forum members and everybody who posts about their situation, because the only way we can try to learn more about it is by sharing information. This is quite a hand to be dealt no matter how old you are, and I truly admire the way many of this forum's members talk about and handle their respective hardships. I hope to continue to use this forum as a resource to learn how to better handle mine in a similar manner.
Thanks for reading!