Hello! Just introducing myself!

[KoffeeKup]

About 7 years ago I did some very stupid things. Things I regret to this very day. They have cost me my health, my well being and my sanity. I was 16 when the symptoms started. I am now 24.

But I feel like they have finally given my life the penultimate to an ultimatum.

I want to go into the field of regenerative medicine and I am going to help cure this thing!

I may not have a complete lack of function, but it is debilitating enough to the point where I honestly can't feel sex or experience the level of satisfaction I once did. All to a little tear and inflammation!

I find this unacceptable for myself and others. I have decided in this moment with great conviction that I am going to do everything I possible can to see this through to the end. If there is a will, there is a way. I intend to make this my life's goal, to heal what was previously cemented in permanence.

Back in the day the idea of vaccination was ludicrous. The prospect of electricity being used for the benefit of mankind unbridled, and the heavens were little more than a glass ceiling from which God looked down on all mankind.

Well I might be a fool. I might be stupid. But there is a LOT of science and progress that arose from humanity and its endless self experimentation and folly.

For example, I present Braille.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Braille
https://brailleworks.com/braille-resources/history-of-braille/
The "childhood accident" mentioned involved a young Braille at age 3 stabbing himself in the eye with an awl in his father leather-working shop.

A tragic turn of events, that eventually inspired him at age 11 to create a newer version of Charles Beibier's night writing code. At age 12 he enrolled in the National Institute of the Blind in Paris and over the next 9 years developed this code.

Now I know I'm no expert, and defiantly no doctor but I feel inspired as much as I am filled with grief. Not just for myself but for all of you. I realize as well, we are not the only ones suffering from broken and functioning parts. Ours just happen to be our junk.

My great grandfather had penile cancer. My grandfather had polio that took his vocal cords and leg muscles. My dad had stage four cancer, survived but had his body irradiated and poisoned. Chunks of his throat and tongue had to be removed and he now has nerve damage and can not taste. Now I broke my little buddy because I got a little to damn rough.   Its not life threatening but I realize it could be much worse.

Life is pretty damn hard. I want to make it easier. Not perfect, but I think I can at least help instead of wallowing about my delayed ejaculation and loss of sensitivity. I think that is the best way for my to go about this. I haven't made any moves yet, and I wanted to be sure. Maybe I'm a fool, but damn it I am foolish enough to try the impossible. I know that for many of you this situation is much worse. And for that I want to say I am truly sorry. Not out of pity. But out of compassion and sympathy.

I think I know what I want to do with my life. And I think I can go forward with a level of conviction and understanding most can't. I don't always count my blessings, and I don't always give thanks where it is due but I read some of your guys posts and lurked here on and off. You guys helped give me hope and I intend to return the favor. Seriously guys.

Hope is not a strategy though. I intend to come up with one that will get me out of the mire that brought my here and I intend to eventually take you guys with me.

I want to help you guys, the guys who have lost it completely due to accident or sickness, the millions of circumcised men and women, the blind, the chronically sick and infirm, the ones who made some minor mistake, the ones who never had a chance and the guys who gave life and limb for something big or small.

I don't think I know what I want to do anymore. I know what I want to do. And honestly that is the best thing that has come out of this. I found something to care about. Maybe it started out as a selfish delusion to fix what I broke but I think it is something more than that. I want to help free millions of people from living hell. I want to give people an outstanding quality of life and I want to make regenerative medicine available to EVERYBODY or die trying.

I guess that is the promise I am trying to make to you guys. I don't know if I can keep it but I think we live in an age of miracles and I think we might just have a chance. A better chance than most anyone has had.

Anyway I know this post is long but I think about you guys a lot and I just want to say to hang in there and live life in any way you can. There is more to life than just sex. It used to be all I ever wanted to experience. Well I did. Its not that great at this point. And it really makes my want to cry. Now I want to do something more. This is as I am now. All things change. Maybe its not too late to change them again.

Sorry for the long post. I just wanted to get it all out with out going into too much detail. I know its my own fault how I got here. Now I need to help fix it. I want to do it for all of us. Its going to be a long time. At least a decade. Most likely more. I am going to enjoy the ride the best I can. Maybe it wouldn't be how I dreamed but its going to be close.

I might not be THE guy but I will be A guy and I am going to push the limits of human science and possibility to the best of my ability one way or another. I can promise you guys that much.

I hope that you are all doing well. I feel pretty damn good about the future now. I just need to remember whats really important. Good luck to all of you.

[james1947]

Do you have Peyronies?
What are your symptoms?
Did you see an urologist?
Did you got diagnosed?

James