Suffering from the loss of what could have been

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ThePerfectMelody

Hi all,

Those of you who developed problems before adulthood,like myself maybe can relate- I am, and have been depressed for a long time because I missed out/am missing out on being with a lot of women sexually and therefore feel sad and unsuccessful, like I'm missing out getting fulfilled in life.

When I first realized I had a problem in my teens, I was ashamed and afraid of ridicule and being outed as the "guy with the bent dick". But I wanted nothing more than to have sexual flings with as many girls as possible like most guys. A deep depression set in. Even having a girlfriend then didn't satisfy me- I needed to know that I had been with more than one woman in my life to be happy.  I am 31 now, have had about 4 girlfriends and a few sexual flings, but still feel about the same- really depressed.

I am depressed that having a damaged penis stripped away my confidence- which is really the thing that stops me from being sexually successful with a lot of women- not my penis itself. My personality-which had the potential to be confident and successful- feels forever damaged- I am a depressed and anxious person for life it seems. The grief from losing my sexual confidence is so great, that even having an, attractive caring girlfriend isn't enough to heal the deep sense of loss of my sexually successful fantasy.

I guess I should learn to accept that it could be worse and that having a monogamous life is infinitely better than being alone. But I don't know if I'll ever feel like a whole, happy, fulfilled person.


popopo

I'm 21 and I knoe that feeling all too well. I actually gave up trying. I recently got in the best shape of my life and could go further but I lost motivation after all the conpliments and stikk having a ruined dick. It feels like nothing else matter anymore and even tho I shrank to skinny size and I feel ugly overall, it's my penis that stops me from caring about the rest. Last time I succesfully had sex was with my first girlfriend at 16/17 years old. I could get a woman in bed but I don't even to slip my little finger in and out like it's nothing. That kind of sex feels almost lesbian to me and I don't dig it  and neither do women. I hope in your case your size hasnt been affected as much, but even a little damage can crush your world l, because of course you care about your dick. I can only advice you to hang in there and keep going because it seems you still have some hope even if it is witg one woman. (Something that's more vanuable in the long run anyway). Even if you ever grt cured and decide to bang lots of chicks after dumping her, i'd say go for it because you deserve it after all this time of pulling trough, but maybe you will find true love now and findthat you don't need that ego boost anymore.
Age: 25
Date of onset: 17
Symptoms: sharp pains, numbness, change in shape/size, hourglassing and discolaration from jelqing/VED usage as a teen. Diagnosed with a venous leak and possible scarring.
Treatments tried: cialis, pentox and VED didnt help

ThePerfectMelody

Popopo,

Thank you for the encouragement. I appreciate it so much. You are right that although being with a lot of women is awesome, finding true love beats it all and I thank you for telling me that. I am so sorry that you are dealing with difficult facts of life right . Please don't give up. You're so young, and take it from me: things can get better. When I was your age I had a hard time penetrating during sex because my penis had an extreme bend. Luckily, I had access to good insurance and found a top urologist and after surgery, I have been able to have sex without a problem, even though I'm still curved. I hope you can take my advice and see a urologist so you can find a treatment for you, even if it's the last option of surgery. It changed my life.

Peace to you my brother

Dros

So, you had 4 girlfriends, some additional flings, and you are in a relationship? I am sorry to hear that you have a bent dick (like the rest of us), but this is nonetheless a little ridiculous. I know loads of guys with straight dicks who had less sex than you (at your age). Everyone wants to have more sex, and with more women, this has very little to do with Peyronie's though. Many on this board have had much less sex or none at all, due to their condition (especially guys who developed Peyronie's in their teens)...