Hi, New member from NJ

[briot83]

hi, my name is Brandon. i am a 32 year old white male. I am 6 ft 2 inches tall, I weigh 280 pounds currently (and around) for the past 7-8 years.  I am a size 44 waist. Normally should weight around 200 pounds i believe and should be a size 36-38 waist.  I am diagnosed with psychiatric disorder ocd/schizoeffective (depression) disorder, erectile dysfunction (stable), peyronies disease (stable). and obstructive sleep apnea.  I have also had learning disability throughout school in math in english (special ed classes for both math/english).  I take antidepressants: Depakote 500mg, Luvox 200mg, and an injection of Invega Sustenna 156mg once a month. I take metformin 500mg for sugar level.  I smoke a pack of cigarette's every day and a half or so. I do not eat fairly healthy enough.  I would say I have had ed and peyronies all my life, at least since puberty.  I have never had a very good orgasm of best orgasm ever type.  I masturbate in a way where I touch myself mildly softly that i would compare it to how a woman masturbates with herself. I do not stroke my penis very hard because it mildly hurts my penis. my symptoms: physical and psychological. my erection pain is mild, 50% of the time able to reach a decent but not great orgasm (rating 4 to 6 always), other 50% of time have too soft and shrunken penis and try excessively at times to masturbate without orgasm or erection. Unable to ejaculate regularly with force every time because of mild pain, stiffness, no pleasure in the vibration/movement of penis. I have unsexual related erections anywhere from 0 to 2-3 times a month if lucky.  These last for only five to ten minutes with only mild pain ranging to a 7 out of 10 when extremely hard.  I have never had successful sex with a partner. I tried with my friend twice , but I did not even get close to hard when engaged with her in intercourse.   anyone know of support group in New Jersey for ED or peyronies? thanks for taking time to read... My ed and peyronies has emasculated me so much that I get off to things like watching men in baseball and football uniforms when I don't think or view myself as 100% gay.  It would be ok with me if thats what I am attracted to, but I do not really get turned on by nudity of any kind...  My hero in life has been heroine's (heroine drug metaphor, must be something wrong chemically!..) Xena: Warrior Princess, and She-ra: Princess Of Power both growing up in the 80's and then as a teen in the 90's with Xena.

[NeoV]

Thanks for the intro and openness. You have to quit smoking if you ever want your penis health to improve. Excercise as well. Health is a slippery slope, and improving ones health requires a full on assault from all angles to see change. It's unfortunate but it's the truth. You must attack the disease and ED. Also, do you use porn? if you do, consider taking a long break to improve your arousal levels.