Judging deformity

[Thisismyusername]

I'm having a hard time judging the degree of my deformity.  I have a curve to the left.  When I have an erection the curve seems to be about 10 to 15 degrees, judged by trying to imagine a straight line along the center of my penis and drawing another line from the place where curvature takes place to the head of my penis.  However I noticed that when flexing my kegel muscles my penis seems to stick out to the left even at the base.  It seems unlikely that it was always this way, but I don't remember.  Its almost like my penis starts curving at the base and then continues to curve along the shaft.  This makes me worry my deformity is worse than I thought.

Sometimes when I'm getting an erection my penis widens faster at the base than at the top.  I think the scar tissue might be limiting blood flow.  I also noticed that my erections vary in deformity.  Sometimes when I'm super super erect the deformity seems very mild.  Other times it seems worse than normal and freaks me out.  The scariest part about this condition is all the variation and changes I am always experiencing.  It is practically impossible to judge if the condition is worsening or not.  

I have some older pictures where my penis looks pretty curved and some where it doesn't look very curved.  I have some newer pictures where my penis looks pretty curved and some where it doesn't look very curved.  This makes it particularly difficult to believe studies that show reduction in curvature.  

I've had congenital curvature downwards my whole life but it was different from my curve to the left from peyronie's.  I can just tell by the way it looks that my penis is not healthy.  It the curve is always noticeable at all states of erection as well as when flaccid but fluctuates as I get hard.  It typically gets worse as erection begins and then gets better once enough blood gets into my penis to put pressure to stretch out the tissue more.  

It's been 6 months so far and I can barely tell if things have worsened in the past 3 months.  I guess I should be happy with that but I'm still freaking out.  I've also had chronic pain while flaccid for 5 months.  I keep hoping it will go away but every time I think it is getting better it gets worse again.  I think it may be partially pelvic floor related, but it is for sure related to my plaque because it hurts like F^@% on one part of the left of my penis where my curve is the worst.  

If someone told me I would be able to resume having pain free sex again with a penis straight enough for comfortable penetration I would cry from happiness.  I've almost accepted celibacy at this point but I have to say that having a deformed and dysfunctional penis makes me feel like I have less value as a human being.  I'm lucky my girlfriend will accept me despite my problems but I am going through a lot and constantly giving her stress and stressing our relationship.  Sorry, I guess this post turned into a long vent, but don't have many people to talk to about my problems.  I'll stop typing now.

[jackp]

Good Morning

First let me tell you that a lot things will cause you to have different degrees of erections. Things like wether, humidity, heat, cold, frequent ejaculation, and state of arousal and your attitude, just to name a few.

With peyronies the base of your penis will become firm up to the plaque first. Then the rest of your penis will become erect.  

At 6 months you are still in the active phase, that last from 12-18 months in most of us.  During that time the best thing you can do for your penis is the daily VED exercise. I have posted the single cylinder one I used in the VED section.  

You are lucky that you have a girlfriend by your side. DO NOT stop having sex, that is one of the worst things you can do. There are ways to make love to her you will just have to experiment some. When experimenting make a game of it with her. Try putting a pillow under her butt for intercourse that changes the angle and allows for better penetration and movement.

Yes you will be able to have pain free sex again. Find a good Male Sexual Function Specialist. And listen to your girlfriend, she is your number 1 focus.

Anytime you want to chat send me a PM or email. There is hope and help. Remember Never - Ever give up.

Jackp
http://jackp-penileimplant.blogspot.com