Dealing With the Rumination

[BentYoung]

Hello All -

So after about 10 years with this condition, I am now getting very close to accepting where I am currently (if it stays this way). I think we all are doing the best we can at acceptance day to day, but my question is: how are you all handling the fear of this condition getting worse? This is the much deeper fear for me, because it can always get worse for any of us. Every day, if I bump my groin, eat something I'm mildly allergic to, or get inflammation in my joints from weight lifting etc, I fear and obsess (and check myself obsessively when I get home) that I am slowly getting worse. I know nothing is certain in life, especially something horrible like Peyronies Disease, so what are you doing to deal with this? I don't want to be consumed be obsessive checking and rumination.

[james1947]

If I will tell you that I am 100% OK (or close to that), I will lie.
I am thinking every day about the subject, but have to say less and less. Still checking my dick but only ones a week when I am measuring it to see if have change in length to get the maximum I can before implant.
Checking also if it is functioning more or less two times a week, to see how my treatment is helping. I do have small improvements and when I read people posts regarding improvements it making me more confident that have light in the end of the tunnel. This way or an other way.
Two things are making me to be more relax:
1. Making myself busy so I don't have too much time to think about my Peyronie's.
2. The decision to make an implant. I will be again as I was before the Peyronie's, and maybe more

James

[GS]

My Peyronies Disease will be 4 years old next month.  I think I'm OK with it now, but I do remember totally obsessing about it the first year or so and being terrified of it getting worse and causing ED, etc.

I'm one of the fortunate ones, as my curvature never stopped me from having intercourse; it has changed the way we do it, but we still have intercourse on a regular basis.

I take all the recommended supplements, use my VED on a regular schedule and hope someone comes up with a cure.  I am no worse and maybe even a little better than I was a year ago, so I don't really worry about getting worse anymore.  I hope I'm not kidding myself, but I don't think worrying about it will help.

All that being said, if I wasn't in a meaningful relationship with a very understanding women, I would probably still be obsessing over it like I did the first year.  It all probably depends on how much of a problem it is for each individual and where he is in his life at a given time.

GS

[BentYoung]

GS -

I think you nailed it. I personally am in my mid 20s and am not seeing anyone because of Peyronies Disease. Naturally, my rumination is out of control.  

[newguy]

I think part of the reason I remain on pentox is due to a fear of a further bout happening. There's a decent chance I'll experience another bout (compared to the general population), so I'm trying to put myself in the best position possible if/when it happens. I'm not sure how healthy it is to think this way. I do think that in some cases peyronie's can warp your attitude towards your own genitals. We have concerns that the average person would never even think about.

[james1947]

From Newguy

We have concerns that the average person would never even think about.

Concerns like:
* I will be able to penetrate?
* It will be satisfactory to my partner?
* It will be improved strength with all this Viagra, Cialis, Levitra, herbs etc'?
* I will be able not to ejaculate early?
*** The list is long.

James

[newguy]

Maybe sometimes I'm guilty of viewing my own concerns as somehow removed from others. Thanks for offering some perspective .