My history

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Good afternoon everyone. I'm 39 years old. I spent three terrible years strugglin again my erectile disfunctyion (loss of erection with postural changes, without manual stimulation, weak nocturnal erections, etc, days with no erections at all.), I decided to have a couple of Doppler ultrasounds to see if the cause of my dysfunction was psychological (I have suffered throughout my life from severe depression, severe anxiety disorder and obsessive-compulsive symptoms). The first urologist said that although the values were venous leak, my clinical history indicated that the cause could be psychogenic. The second said I had a venous leak. Even so, and for a while, with Cialis I could have partially good erections, until it progressively stopped working. After a few days, due to frustration, I had a series of unsuccessful attempts at masturbation, after which I began to feel pain. I waited 3 weeks, but the pain did not subside, so I decided to go to a general urologist in my city, who indicated with palpation that I had Peyronie's. He only prescribed me a topical corticosteroid cream and 5 mg of Cialis daily. He was very rude. When I told him my story, he said, "You've given yourself Peyronie's." The guilt was terrible when I left the appointment. Imagine three years of erectile dysfunction, a completely debilitating depression, and, to top it all off, this, coupled with the intense pain I feel in my penis.
So far, I haven't noticed any curvature, but after the pain, I don't have erections. I've noticed a weak erection on occasion, but I haven't even dared to look. I don't feel any plaque and no deformity at the moment, but I'm confused about what steps I should take from now on. My situation is very bad because I have a terrifying deoresis, taking a lot of medication, and having difficulty getting out of bed. I have strange thoughts, as if I were seeing my entire previous life from above, as if I were already dead and everything were a memory. I know I have to act quickly to try to minimize the progression of the disease as much as possible and seek out a urologist who is an expert in the field, but I don't have enough strength right now. I also don't have the financial resources to pay the expensive rates offered by specialized centers here in Spain.

Sorry for my poor English, but in my country I haven't found any forums, any help pages, anything about people with these kinds of problems. It's like a black hole.

I'm grateful for the existence of this forum, and for anyone who dared to read my story. I just wanted to let it all out.