Arthur's Mental Journal!

[Arthur]

Hey, brothers!

This is my journal and here I will post everything I face mentally because of my condition.

[Arthur]

Right now, I'm feeling a bit negative but I'm sure I will get better.

[Arthur]

I started watching porn again 2 days ago after more than 200 days of strict NoFap, not because I was craving porn, but because my libido and erections were absolutely zero and I wanted to check if my condition has improved... What I noticed is that watching porn increases my libido but I still have weak erections.

[Arthur]

I'm feeling quite positive... I know that my organ is now less than half of what it was 12 years ago, but I will work with what I have rather than thinking about suicide over what I don't have now...

And what is more important than having a big penis is feeling loved by your partner and being able to satisfy their needs which I'm sure I will be capable of achieving... 🥰

Stay positive, dear brothers!
💪😃👍

[Sonic]

I'm feeling quite positive... I know that my organ is now less than half of what it was 12 years ago,

Sorry Arthur but I gotta ask.. Your signature say you have lost more than 6 inches, so you are saying before disease it was 12 inches??

6 inches is the most size loss I've ever heard someone with Peyronies get.

[Arthur]

Sorry Arthur but I gotta ask.. Your signature say you have lost more than 6 inches, so you are saying before disease it was 12 inches??

6 inches is the most size loss I've ever heard someone with Peyronies get.

Yes, my penis was more than 12 inches more than a decade ago, but I didn't had Peyronies Disease that caused shortening and narrowing, I had fractures (all untreated) that messed me up.

[Arthur]

I'm feeling quite tired because I didn't sleep last night but happy because I'm finally getting some erections, although painful. Hopefully giving it some rest will help calm down the pain.

[Arthur]

Just trimmed my pubes, feeling so fresh... LOL!

I wanna play with my "best friend" so badly... No homo... 😂

[Arthur]

I'm feeling positive and motivated to find a girlfriend... Fingers crossed! 🤞🤞

[Arthur]

Life has thrown many f'~c<+d up obstacles my way and tried to break me but I will not quit!

My Lord, the real Lord that indeed cares about me is with me and he is helping me become the best version of myself!

Dear Lord, my divine friend, thank you for everything! I can't explain in words how much I appreciate your help. You are a true friend, a true Lord! Please never leave me like others and always guide me, thank you! I love you! ❤️

[Arthur]

I will do whatever it takes to get out of this shitpool I'm in!

I will not let my enemies, the people who mock me, attack me, insult me, and ridicule me see me fail and fall on my knees! F~@< those F^@$!ng bastards and the negativity they try to bring in my life.

Dear Lord, if I have ever worshipped you with pure heart then please help me in this tough time. Maybe you want to make me stronger but I'm tired of suffering. I don't want to become "stronger" if that requires me to endure so much suffering and pain, I don't want to face the constant crap that life throws at my face at every opportunity it gets. I just want to live a normal, healthy and happy life. I want to feel loved. I want to be free from shame and constant physical and mental anguish that I face so often. Many times I feel that my life is not worth living and I should just quit but then you grab my hand and tell me to keep walking, but what is the point of all this? Why do you keep me away from quitting but still let me suffer so much? Why don't you just give me pancreatic cancer and kill me quickly and let me take a breath of relief? I don't know how much longer I can endure all of this, and even if I can, I just don't want to endure all this so please do something positive in my life that I actually want, I beg you to help me! Thank you!

[Arthur]

Some advice from ChatGPT to men who feel insecure about the size of their penises!

"I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and I want to emphasize that your worth as a person—and as a man—is not determined by the size of your penis. Masculinity and manhood are defined by far more meaningful qualities than physical characteristics. Here's how to reframe your thinking and build confidence in yourself:

1. Redefine What It Means to Be a Man

Being a man is about character, values, and actions. Traits like kindness, courage, responsibility, empathy, and respect define masculinity far more than physical attributes.

Think about the men you admire most—are they defined by their bodies, or by the way they treat others, their achievements, and their character?


2. Challenge Negative Thoughts

Your feelings are valid, but they stem from societal pressures and stereotypes that aren't rooted in reality.

Remind yourself that many people care about who you are as a person, not physical traits. True relationships, whether friendships or romantic, are built on emotional and intellectual connections.


3. Seek Therapy for Self-Acceptance

A therapist can help you explore why you feel this way and help you develop healthier thought patterns about your body and masculinity.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) is particularly effective for addressing body image issues and feelings of inadequacy.


4. Focus on Building Inner Confidence

Develop skills, hobbies, and passions that bring you joy and fulfillment. Achieving personal growth in areas like fitness, learning, or creativity can boost your confidence.

Celebrate your strengths and what makes you unique. Everyone has qualities that make them special.


5. Learn About the Reality of Penis Size

Many men worry unnecessarily about size due to unrealistic portrayals in media and societal myths. The truth is, penis size has little to no impact on sexual satisfaction for most partners.

Remember that sexual intimacy is about connection, communication, and mutual pleasure—not just physical attributes.


6. Reach Out for Support

Sharing your feelings with trusted friends, family, or a support group can help you feel less alone.

You are not the only one who has felt this way, and talking to others with similar experiences can be incredibly validating.



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You Are Enough

Your value as a man and as a person is not dependent on a single aspect of your body. Embrace who you are, seek support, and remember that you are deserving of love, respect, and happiness. If these feelings continue to overwhelm you, please don't hesitate to reach out to a professional who can help guide you through this."

[Arthur]

Arthur, you can't quit now! Stay strong for your own sake!

Why did you fought for so long, just to quit? No! You are stronger than that! Even if your life is crap, don't take any wrong steps that will ruin your afterlife also!

Please do something for yourself to get out of this shithole!

[Hawk]

Arthur,

You should not worry about penis size.  At 6", you are very regular and average.  The world's longest documented penis is 13".  If you were over 12", you must have had the 2nd longest penis on the entire earth, and it must have been very unpleasant for most women.  Concerning penis size, you are much more normal now than you were then.

[Arthur]

Hey, Hawk!

Thanks for your kind words, but it's not just about penis size, I know that I'm more than just the size of my penis but my dick is messed up in many other areas as well, my erections are not stable, I can't stay erect for a satisfactory time, it's extremely uncomfortable while standing during an erection due to pain, especially in the base of my penis. On top of it I have premature ejaculation which I never had before getting this condition. Although, I am yet to try Dapoxetine or other meds for that, so there's some hope in this department.

My ED got infinitely worse after getting COVID 3 times, even though my case was never severe enough to be admitted to the hospital.

Other than that, I have PSSD-like symptoms because I took an ayurvedic crappy  supplement called "Gymnema Sylvestre" a few years ago and it caused my penis to go numb, I have regained like 2-4% sensation on my glans (and this is after using a ton of lube, if I don't use lube then I don't get any sensations on my glans at all, and I should also mention that I'm uncircumcised), and the shaft has 0% sensation no matter how much lube I use.

And after following the f'~c<+d up idea of nofap and brahmacharya, I completely stopped watching porn more than 3 years ago, and although it was really amazing for my mental health but not for my penis. I rarely got any erections during my time in Nofap, I'm talking about like half a dozen erections in that entire time period (3-4 years). Which I think is what caused my penis to shrink like a damn grape into a raisin. I got to the point of 3.5 inches of length in erect state after following Nofap from which I'm trying to recover from.

Do you think I can benefit from traction therapy? I really wanna try it because it shows promising results but many years ago I injured myself during manual traction and caused the both sides of the area right under my glans to get dented. I get painful flair-ups even if I wash that area a little hard during a bath so I'm a little conflicted if it is going to work for me or not.

Ultimately I know that an implant can literally solve all of my problems but that route is not cheap. I'm a broke master's student and had to leave even my previous low paying work in order to pursue a regular college. My mom is funding my college and I'm trying to work hard to get out of this hellhole but it will take time. But it's better late than never!

Have a great day, Hawk! You are a kind soul!

[Arthur]

I have completed 11 years of this terrible condition and at the recent 11th anniversary of this crap I was out there enjoying with friends!

Friends make everything so bearable! 😄

Just stay strong and fight back your inner enemies!

Have a great day!

[Arthur]

Keep your head high, brother!
You are a valuable person with an unstoppable spirit!

You are a man! And you have fought and won bigger battles than this!

I trust you! You will win this, Arthur!

[Arthur]

To every young man on this forum:

Dear brother, please do something meaningful with your life. Do everything you can to achieve success in this material world. Being pitiful over your condition will not be helpful to you in any way...

Believe me, if they find a miraculous cure to this crap in the near future (and there's always a possibility for that) then you may realize that your penis can be fine and fully functioning but your life is f'~c<+d now!

I'm not saying that you shouldn't do something about your condition. By all means try to get the best doctors and the best treatment possible out there but don't make your penis your life's "only" goal.

Study hard, work hard, earn money, get in great shape, make friends and enjoy life as much as you can!

Take care and keep your head high!

[Arthur]

I thought life couldn't get any worse, but my phone just fell on my erect penis. I'm getting tired of this crap.

[Arthur]

Your life can become unimaginably beautiful (even with this condition) but you will have to work hard for it. Trust me!

Just an implant can turn your penis into "Penis Ultra Pro Max" than can last for literally as long as you want it to. You could stay hard even after ejaculating a dozen times and it can potentially save you from so many complications associated with this disease.

Just focus on what you have control over now! You can't change the past, nobody can! But you can work in the present for a great future ahead!