Help!!!

[Mikerey]

So what I'm dealing with is Ed and lacerations in the tunica albuginea. I've been suffering for 19 years plus. Imo faith moves mountains, can I ask for a prayer request if possible?

It started at 22 years old. I damaged myself from jelquing (penis enlargement exercise) plus death grip syndrome masturbation for excessively long time.

My symptoms right now are numbness in the front of my right thigh. Sometimes I have to "shift" or reposition my penis to alleviate the compression from the swelling. As I took a look in the mirror I could literally see a scratch/ scar right through my glans visibly. I am fearing a little bit.

I feel like I don't have what it takes to live with this disability much longer, which probably means I can still tough it out. For 19 years I've been afraid of lifting weights because the strain goes right to the penis. I've been afraid to sit, as the weight of the body sits on the penis.

Yes I am on disability. Only 2 urologists gave me a time frame: dr b. Said he didn't think I did permanent damage to my penis. Dr m. He said it should take 3 months to heal. Well, it's taking longer... I get pain in the penis. My life has been deeply impacted by this because of the phobias of staying injured and the psychological trauma which it caused in me.

I may as well state my goals: I want to nip this in the bud and shovel snow this winter. I cannot imagine another winter like this. So tons of abstinence. I will try going to the Centennial gym with an old buddy and ignore the weights, just stick to walking.

It's funny, my buddy was my proctor about 5 or 6 years ago as I was going through some mental problems with the penis on the mind mostly stands out. Nowadays he has retired. I can't work so I may as well go back to the gym with him. What can I say? Forging a routine is hard. My heart is hurting over this but I brought it on myself.

Only got laid once since the accident. She gave me an oral sex out of mercy, as I had severe Ed. I have worked with 7, 8 urologists but other than the diagnosis, there hasn't been much help.

What I've tried: pelvic floor therapy, SA sex anonymous, allowing me a venue to vent about my injured penis. And yeah, the pf therapy didn't do it.

I used to think if I won the lottery I would open the world's first center for penile fractures but that's just a dream. At this point what's important is for myself to get the victory!

History: when I was 12 I was smashed in the genitals to the point where it left me with stunted growth down there. Plus a lifetime of issues and problems since then. Penile health is very delicate. I wish I was shielded from all of this but it's more like jump Street, all from day one. Please keep trying to keep trying on with penile health concerns, and Ty for reading this. May you have a good day and respond if you feel you may!

[Mikel7]

Welcome to the forum Mikerey and thank you for filling out your signature line. It sounds like you have definitely been through a lot and I am sorry. Penile injuries and peyronies affects each man differently. The one thing we all share is the mental/worrying that accompanies this disease. The other thing that we share is this community that offers support and comfort and information.

I don't understand how the medical field operates where you live so I don't know just how many qualified Dr's you can choose from. If it were me I would still try to see another Dr until I got some correct answers. Have you have looked into traction and VED
therapy? I don't know if it would help you or hurt you though from what you have described. I can say adopting a healthy lifestyle with proper diet and exercise will help you in the long run. Even just walking is a good start.

Have any of your Dr's suggested Cialis or similar drugs for erections and healing? Heat therapy also works wonders for eliminating penile pain. Study the forum and get a grip on your worrying. Just being here can be a big mental boost!  

Mikel7