maybe some other update, I have not seen any changes to the
erectile dysfunction.
unfortunately I have not been able to get a doctors appointment and my next one will be in mid February however after being kind of shy and not too upfront I will make sure to make that one count because waiting for them is hell.
right now my penis is in the worst state ever. the
Erectile Dysfunction is significant but what's more bothersome is the extremely strange kind of deformity I have. I do not have a curve per se but as explained earlier directly under the glans there is a circumferential cord, I can feel it even in flacid but best in half erect state. it is a cord like thin structure that wraps around the penis under the glans circumferentially. it is unnatural to the touch and I have not had it before. upon erection is marks the middle point of the maximum indentation there. so clearly this tissue is giving me the indentation. my dick is significantly thinner in that area and feel extremely uncomfortable to the touch. 15 months now, no clue, seen 2 andrgologists, one said probably some mild septal
plaque and cant do anything about it like injections etc or surgery(honestly ill get an implant if I cant treat it because my dick is absolutely useless and Im done with it all) and the second said he thinks its a "frenulum breve", a short frenulum that I have acquired instead of born with.
as often you ask some people and everyone has some different idea. I dont think thats how it should be. in any case I dont think its the frenulum because I have not seen any changes there and I can feel this hard thick band which would be a major coincidence. also I dont think a frenulum issue can cause such a defect as hour glassing.
it also seems to be extending. its like my dick is
wasting away week by week, it gets overall thinner and in particular, the erection gets more and more painful. its like someone remove the tunica and removed the entire left side of the penis with a thick
plaque preventing it from proper expansion.
when I google my symptoms I come up with corporeal
fibrosis and that fits the symptoms quite well however my doctor did ultrasound and said there is no evidence of it. however I have seen worsening since the last visit so not sure.
i dont care about sex that much, I realize that while some of it is due to the innate need for companionship and intimacy, a lot of it is also due to self approval which I groan for due to having low self esteem all my life. I guess having pain upon erection helps keep anything sexual at bay because who wants to engage with pain?
so yeah not many solutions, kind of sad that these are my twenties rn. not sure if there's even a solution especially if the problem cant even be pinned down itself. so im depressed about the lack of progress and insight on that front