My personality changed since my penis fibrosis, what about yours?

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Bud luck

Since I got my fibrosis I changed, the way  I see life, the way I interact with other people, priorities......
Before I got the fibrosis due to a painful erection induced by a Trimix injection, I was a big time womanizer, I was always flirting with women, always in a great mood and very funny, I was a happy man. Now two years after the biggest mistake of my life ( getting the Trimix injection and not taking Sudafed when the erection was painful) I became an "old man", I stopped flirt with women, I'm kind a serious and down, sometimes I cry because of my situation, always thinking about my "injured" dick. I'm really aging fast because of this "curse", I'm not getting nocturnal erections anymore since the P-shot ( another mistake again)that created more fibrosis, is destiny. When really is depressing ne is that my erections are getting worse despite taking Cialis, L-Citrilline, Pentofixiline, Vitamins.......
How this "curse" change your personality?
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

Hawk

It was not clear from your post. Are you asking for ideas on things you can work on to make a difference?
Prostatectomy 2004, radiation 2009, currently 70 yrs old
After pills, injections, VED - Dr Eid, Titan 22cm implant 8/7/18
Hawk - Updated 10/27/18 - Peyronies Society Forums

Bud luck

Hawk, I was just curious on how penis fibrosis changed the life in general for other forum members. But actually your question is better on how to cope with our "condition"
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

Hawk

Budluck,

The entire purpose of this forum and specifically this board is not just to share complaints.  It is to find out what WE can do to improve things.  Life is not perfect for anyone.  The question is how can WE make OUR lives better?

Have you extended ANY effort with the resources at the top of this board?
Have you done other things to improve your psychological state?

If so, exactly what have you done and what was the result?

If not, why not?  Do you understand that for things to change, you have to change something?
Prostatectomy 2004, radiation 2009, currently 70 yrs old
After pills, injections, VED - Dr Eid, Titan 22cm implant 8/7/18
Hawk - Updated 10/27/18 - Peyronies Society Forums

Bud luck

Hawk you are absolutely right, I'm trying my best to cope with my "condition", is hard but I have to accept what I have,I have way too many things to worry about than just obsessing about my penis, thank you again Hawk for providing a positive outlook of our situation  
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

Hawk

Budluck,  I still don't think you are getting my point.  I asked some very specific questions.  I asked them because they are important.  There were NOT rhetorical for effect.  Yet, you ignored them.  

"trying my best to cope with my "condition"..... have to accept what I have."  Is NOT a plan for changing things.  


These are the questions that we all have to ask and answer.  That is our responsibility in this battle.  

What are the very specific things you are doing?
Why haven't you tried any resources?  There has to be a reason.
Prostatectomy 2004, radiation 2009, currently 70 yrs old
After pills, injections, VED - Dr Eid, Titan 22cm implant 8/7/18
Hawk - Updated 10/27/18 - Peyronies Society Forums

Bud luck

I'm not doing anything specifically, but I'm trying to figure out, thank you Hawk  
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

Hawk

You are not going to just figure it out.  If so there would be no point in the last two decades of managing this forum.


Do you think you come to the forum to learn or to just talk about your problems? (real question)  I would like to understand.

If it is to learn?  Ask yourself why you have not ever clicked on the resources above.  Give a real answer, not an excuse.

Is it possible you want the responsibility to be on the medical community, researchers, etc to fix you rather than taking any responsibility to fix yourself?

In my view, these are the kind of hard questions and talks we have to have with ourselves to make life meaningful whether we have Peyronies Disease or not.
Prostatectomy 2004, radiation 2009, currently 70 yrs old
After pills, injections, VED - Dr Eid, Titan 22cm implant 8/7/18
Hawk - Updated 10/27/18 - Peyronies Society Forums

Bud luck

What is hard for me is not being able to be in a relationship anymore, I'm only 46 years old and because I got penis fibrosis I'm going to lose my girlfriend that I deeply loved, a functional penis is crucial in order to have a romantic relationship with my girlfriend, she is very sexual and loves penetration, my heart is broken. I know some women love their partners and Peyronie's don't break their relationships, but unfortunately is not my case, I'm devastated not because of fibrosis but because I'm about to lose the love of my live
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

chrisaaa7

Hey Bad luck, I am new to posting to This forum so I apologize if you have mentioned this in other posts , but have you thought about getting a penis implant?
M 21 Los Angeles

Saw Urologist at USC who handles Peyronies alot and he does not believe I have it. Symptoms: soreness in flaccid state, glands do not engorge, 2 very small. indents, slight girth loss( last 2 might be mental),ED for 2.5 years

Bud luck

I did, but due to my fibrosis I don't know if is possible to install an implant without risks
My first symptoms started early in 2019
I tried Traction device, Pentofixiline, Q10, TRT, L-Argenine, cialis
I have narrowing/dent/hinge on the left side of my shaft
My ED is getting worse
Had a PRP shot Aug 2021
I have a girlfriend
Age 46

Hawk

Discussions about fibrosis and implants are great but not on this board.  Guessing that you have too much fibrosis for an implant without seeing a skilled high-volume surgeon or at least doing a video consultation is nonsense to be discussed on the implant board.

Everyone needs to read the post at the top of this board.  Using the resources of this forum is NOT rocket science.  This is for those asking for help with psychological/emotional issues caused by Peyronies Disease.

Now, Bud,  You have wasted your 6 posts and my 3 posts trying to help you.  You wasted them by NEVER answering my questions.  You have no idea how much I care about your dilemma but you are doing everything you can to waste your time and the time of other posters and readers instead of participating in the work that CAN help you.  if you won't read and answer my questions then there is no point in posting.  

Please make sure you answer all my questions in your next post !
Prostatectomy 2004, radiation 2009, currently 70 yrs old
After pills, injections, VED - Dr Eid, Titan 22cm implant 8/7/18
Hawk - Updated 10/27/18 - Peyronies Society Forums

chrisaaa7

Here is a quote from someone on FT that should give you hope.

"All I can tell you is my experience. I had severe Peyronie's and a resulting plaque mass covering 2/3 of the dorsal side of my dick, with a better than 60 degree curve. I got my implant 14 months ago and it was 100% successful. Granted my surgeon had to do a lot of extra work to break up the plaque, but he did it well. I am ramrod straight with a steel hard boner that's there for as long as I want. So, in the hands of a good surgeon, yes, you can get an implant, and a great sex life."
M 21 Los Angeles

Saw Urologist at USC who handles Peyronies alot and he does not believe I have it. Symptoms: soreness in flaccid state, glands do not engorge, 2 very small. indents, slight girth loss( last 2 might be mental),ED for 2.5 years

Curvekiller94

Great post Chrisaaaa very positive that's the right attitude to have.
My personal has changed since getting peyronie which makes sense  I've gotten older. My personality has changed,  although not for the worse. My gf says I'm more caring and compassionate now, she also said I have matured a lot and I seem like a real man not just the kid I was when I met her.  
28 y/o
sex injury - gradually got worse
Hard flaccid, Indentation bottom left close to my body,  mild twist left
28° up 28° Left
official diagnosed @26 peyronies w/pain
Pentox, cialis, NSAID, tramadol(as needed)
Sciatic  pain radiates penis to foo

Cehaleddin

I suppose the question was how has my personality changed. I want to answer this without going in to anything else. My spiritual beliefs dictated celibacy. I was loosely going by that guideline. I viewed sex as an ego boost. I was tremendously proud of my big penis. I would go on calcsd (a penis size calculator that shows you your percentage ranking by penis size), i would have days of obssesive measuring. This led to masturbation and isolation. I was very much in to penis enlargement and i believe the missuse of those techniques led to my fibrosis
After the fibrosis for a while erections were extremely painful. That went away after a few months. Morning wood was a blessing. My penis was somewhat smaller. Yet i felt horrible about it. Despite knowing that i could be much worse off in need of an implant, extremely bent, hourglassed or whatever. I wont go in to what i lost because i refuse to feed the obsession. Knowing this would cause distress i refused to think about it. Its been a year now. I am much more mature. I am pursuing martial arts seriously, meditation, lucid dreaming, literature and friendships. I was in a relationship with an ex after the fibrosis. I can say for sure that the sex was better despite my change. I learned much more about rythm, angles, connection, dirty talking, foreplay. Because it is difficult for me to get erect immediately i have to do a lot of foreplay and this has made me a more attentive lover. I use my hands so much more than before, i experiment. I recently had sex with someone i used to sleep with. She did not notive the change. The sex from her perspective was the best she had. My perspectivr has also changed every sexual encounter i have is a blessing. They are all unique and none can ever be repeated.
What has changed in my personality. I am a grateful person. I am grateful of my back that sometimes gives me trouble. I am grateful that i have a loving parent, for great friends despite their flaws, for human kindness. And to be alive. Things are better than before. This might sound dark, in the end we are our scars. And some scars are hard to heal. The hell with it. We live, love and perceive and i personally will not let anything get beetween me and my birthright. My fullfillment from my fully functional "big divk" is not what defines me. It might have been much worse and it isnt. In the end, i'm still kicking. No reason to complain ever.
27
Narrowing below the glans, a bit of shortening
Not sure if Peyronie's disease or fibrosis
Symptoms have currently stabilised