Hi Kirai,
I appreciate you reaching out to me, however I definitely agree to disagree. I never came to the forum requesting any psychiatric treatment. I solely use this forum as a medical board and just that. I agree that putting the word "suicidal" in my bio is counterintuitive to idea and thus, it has been removed.
It is important to realize that many that are "suicidal" have exasperated all those options. Ive sat on the suicide hotline, Ive been seeing a psychologist, even communicate how I am feeling to my closest loved one- friends, family, and girlfirend. While I am not emberassed by the disease, I am saddened by it for the simple fact that it brings me physical pain and discomofrt 24/7 and the inability to engage in one of the actions I love-sex. At the age of 20, I certainly feel robbed of the sex I should be having and have turned down mcuh already in the 1.5 years that I have had this. For others, sex may not be a dealbreaker, but for myself it most certainly is.
Thats why I came to this forum to ask for hourglassing. SO that I can get my penis healthy again in order to have sex. I came to the forum to get MEDICAL advice that will lead to me helping the symptoms that bring me Psychological pain.. It is a death sentence.. if you are someone who is ambitious and wants the best for themself... then it is a death sentence if you try as hard as you can to make things right and still there are no results... what other option do you have? To make peace with peyronies at 20 and never have sex again. live with a constant buckling
flaccid hourglass and nerve impingement and discomfort like a dog in a pound?
I dont mean to be coming at you but I think indeed that this disease is very different at different stages of life. I am in college and yet- the world has robbed me of this pleasure of sex and the sensations and euphoria that come along with it at such a damned young age, and I am supposed to take it on the chin and forget about it? No, I must do everything in my power to get better- which includes coming to this forum and asking questions about VEDs and implants like the forum was intended to do. This forum IS my therapy.
I take solace in the action of trying to better my situation- not just make peace with it.I know for a fact peyronikirai that if you were me, you would feel the same- and you probably do. I just think that for someone who is 20- what good does a life live you filled with
chronic pain and lack of sexual euphoria that you so desperately desire.
Well, I know what comes next. You will try to navigate around that ugly truth and explain to me the great spoils of life outside your penis. Bit pause for one second, and do truly pause here:
I didnt ask for this condition, and neither did you, so why were we the ones bestowed upon it? It is because it is our duty, divinely ordained, to find the answer. It is MY DUTY to solve hourglassing. It is my duty to do these things. It was not bestowed upon me to live a life of misery and make comfort with that misery. I was bestowed upon me so that future generations do not need to suffer like the way I have. And THAT is what brings me comfort: trying to fix things for not just myself, but for the millions of other 20 year old guys in my reddit inbox flipping out and looking up to ME. Yes i am a fully functioning suicidal person. But i am here on this forum to curb that craving with the food that is knowledge on healing this mess, strictly physically. Anyways, this is probably gonna get taken down by mods by I hope that somenody out there is at least inspired.
One day we will all be free