Tomorrow w/ Dr Levine - MN71's Implant Journal

[Mikel7]

Awesome!  Keep posting!

[MN1971]

Post-op  Day 13

I am real uncomfortable between the base of the penis and the scrotum.  Mostly when I am standing; some relief when I sit. Most relief when I sit and feet are raised... I told my wife jokingly must be gravity.  Still taking pain meds and advil which provide minimal relief.  

Other than that things are status quo... except my amorous moods have definitely returned.  Another month before I see the PA.  Sadly, it's going to be a LONG month!  I keep hounding my wife and she beats me off with a broom!!! Hahahahah

That's it gentleman!    Have a great day!  

M

[Hawk]

So MN refresh my memory.  Did we establish that you had the subcoronal approach and the only incision you have is just behind your glans?

[MN1971]

That is correct Hawk... just under the glans... no other.  

One other thing I am finding is circular "lumps" @ the base of the penis in both sides.   I am guessing it's new hardware under the skin of some sort.   I am sure it will get answered as we meet in month.  
M  

[MN1971]

Post-op  Day 14



Again- continuing to improve.  Started messing around with the pump... checking out the device.  Type, what's what...   it is a little uncomfortable when I would squeeze gently on it... seems it's a pretty hard device to squeeze.  

I have no cycling instruction or anything.   Just to leave it and let things heal so I might be getting ahead of myself... boredom is not good.  

Seems all my stitches have fallen out.. and my incision per my nurse (wife) looks really good.  Even the incision isn't much raised.  I credit the neosporin for how well it has healed.  

Suggestions?  Anyone else ever have to sit in a holding pattern like this??

Thanks for the support

[Hawk]

Many men are not cycling for weeks or even months after an implant which would go against my personality type.  Dr. Eid has patients cycling after 3 days.

Concerning the circles on each side of the base of the penis.  You are only dealing with a cylinder in each cavernosum, a pump in the scrotum, a reservoir about as high as your pubic hair but on either the right or left.  You have a single tube from the reservoir to the pump then two tubes from the pump, one to each cylinder.  The tube from the pump to the cylinders is connected a short distance from the base of the cylinders since the very base of the cylinder is not inflatable,  Those tubes are usually buried next to the base of the penis in the fat pad. I can feel them by deeply pressing where the penis enters the body.  They can be felt easier if you have a very lean, ripped, body mass or if you have RTE's.  RTE's move the junction of the tubing to the cylinders further out from the body making it a little harder to hide.

The tube routing varies slightly between penoscrotal and retro-pubic.  I am not sure about Coronal approach.

Here is a link that clearly shows the layout. in the body and on the table so you see how RTE's move the junction forward.  Some surgeons are more skilled at hiding the tubes.
https://www.google.com/search?q=titan+implant+diagram&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS949US949&sxsrf=ALeKk00sqYQklDQjW84097xHGdGh14hWYw:1619557938350&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjSye68q5_wAhWwGVkFHVZGA20Q_AUoAXoECAEQAw&biw=1920&bih=912#imgrc=hA4kP2mTSHyA3M&imgdii=3tTBTHWgKHZDTM

[MN1971]

16 days POST OP

Just a quick update:

Feeling pretty good. Still dealing with  minor uncomfort. Regardlessi guess I have to wait until  5/17.  We'll- unless I take it into my own hands literally.
Probably not a good idea.  

So I sit... I guess there is a method to this madness.  I will read some others journals.  

Best to all
M

[Hawk]

If you tolerated Peyronies Disease & ED all these years I am sure you can manage until 5/17.  

Having said that I am pretty certain I would be feeling around and tempted to give a pump or two then deflate.

[MN1971]

Yeah Hawk I have explored. But other than watching you tube videos and reading here I have no further education... not sure I have the guts to actually pump a little & deflate

Here is something- is anyone using ED MEDS post implant to help with the glans?   Interested in knowing  

[GaussRifle]

Why, are you having less glans engorgement after implant ?

[MN1971]

No... just wondering...   if. I was taking ED pills before to increase blood flow and that included the glans...  and implant only effects the shaft and length of the penis...  what if the glans doesn't become engaged??  

I haven't used my device at all yet.    

[TDix]

I can still get a chubby with no pumps if aroused.  Not firm enough for intercourse but it is an erection

[Hawk]

Why, are you having less glans engorgement after implant ?

No one has less glans engorgement after an implant unless it is a couple of years after and their ED progressed.

[MN1971]

POST 15

eah I am ready to mess with this thing and tear a piece off.  

[MN1971]

After all the reading I have done the multiple videos... I am brave enough to try to inflate and after some "fun" deflate... I am brave enough; cannot say I am confident though... I will say I am comforted I can turn here for help if needed.  

Jeez what a turn around from last week where I felt I was on my death bed and totally lost
A little info from the research brings a plethora of thought

Stay tuned!  

[Mikel7]

Patience is the key.  You are going to be fully functioning and all of this is going to be behind you!

[MN1971]

Ok... my experiment is complete; keep in mind I am a pessimist...  

NOTES:

About 8-10 pumps and I was as full as I was gonna get...
I actually had no problem pumping up.  

I actually had some penetrating activity with my wife... was definitely uncomfortable for me... lotta pressure on the entire penis. Wife said it felt pretty normal... not sure if she is telling me that as to keep my spirits up.   I told her she has to be BRUTALLY HONEST as I need her help to work thru this.

My penis looks deformed.
-Glans ol pointing one direction
- soft in the middle where I used to have my curve start
- was seemingly still bent, not nearly as before but was definitely bent
- you could see knobular type endings at the base of the shaft on left and on right almost .25 up...
- could feel the sharp pointed tips of the implants on the head of the penis.
- didn't notice an extra length or thickness... I was actually kinda disappointed...

While I had already mentioned I had no problem pumping up- deflating is seemingly impossible!  Took forever and have NO IDEA how I will ever be able to do squeeze the penis and hold the one touch release button!  Practice make perfect- but what if you practice incorrectly!

Lots of pressure urinating about an hour after... to the point of painful.

Sitting here now I am feeling some pain behind the glans... actually gonna take some Advil and a pain med.

Not sure if this was a pleasurable experience... but it's done and I got some more insight to things.  

F&@$ this thing hurts!!!!

[Hawk]

You forget to start all your posts with post op days but I think you are only 14 days post-op.  The earliest post-op intercourse by any doctor on the planet is Dr. Eid at 21 days.  He does start cycling at 3 days however.  You are NOT ready for intercourse.  Do not cause yourself problems after all you have done to get here.

Were you able to deflate?  If not I will talk you through it over the phone if necessary.

[MN1971]

Day 16 post
Thanks Hawk for the gentle reminder of my heading and the gentle chastisement not o create other issues for nyself.  There are times I want to expedite things... esp when I read others journey are different than mine.   I need to slow down and trust the process

Yeah. Able to deflate and then re-inflate to where I was before my experiment
Definitely swore this AM.  Feels as if I stretched skin.   My concerns about the glans expanding from arousal was warranted.  Looks like I will still need some ED pills.  Still early though.   Gotta keep in mind this is a marathon of life not a sprint like a prom night

My concerns are warranted:
- disfigured penis... Wierd I felt I was twisted and turned all over.
- defin. Softness where plaque was on the penis.  Smack dab in the middle of the shaft.   Surely the implant will assist in that not becoming problematic
- the stabbing pain of the sharp points of the implant on the glans is REAL.  
- struggle with deflation; it will take time

My wonderment and overt admiration for all those on the YouTube videos that can grab their stuff and deflate!   Someday!!!

Everyone have a great Sunday!   Weather is gorgeous is Chicagoland!  

M

[Roddy]

Hi MN

I have lots of advice for you if that's ok?

You are ONLY on Post Surgery Day 16. Yesterday your impatience caused you to take an extremely unnecessary risk by engaging in sex with your wife. I vividly remember making the same error myself but mine was at just approaching a month post surgery. At almost 4 weeks I had been cycling twice daily and I felt 'ready' even tho I hadn't had the go ahead from my surgeon. When cycling one night, I was overcome with excitement and asked my wife to see what it felt like inside her. Before I knew it I was very gently having sex. As soon as I'd finished I was racked full of worry about how I could have potentially blown all the progress I'd made after all that pain of healing. I messaged Hawk, who reassured me that, at almost 4 weeks, there was no harm done but best to wait til seeing my surgeon the following week before doing that again. I was so relieved when I was given the go ahead. So I completely empathise with your lack of patience.

I've just read your recent posts over the past few days and recognise a number of your worries from my first couple of weeks too.

- You say that you are shocked at the shape of your penis after 10 pumps. Depending upon the size of your implant, it'll take AT LEAST double that number to fully inflate. When you start cycling every day, your penis tissue will stretch as the implant grows inside you. This will be sore - from what I've read of your healing so far I think this will be sore. This is a good sign but you will perhaps be so consumed by the physical pain and mental doubt that you'll dwell on the negative and not appreciate the long term progress yet. This was certainly my experience and I remember it very well.

- I remember being SO disappointed at the shape of my penis after the first inflation. I'd go so far as to say I'm sure I cried. All of that pain and suffering, for weeks, and when I pumped up, my dick still had a downward bend. I was distraught. The guys on here told me to hang in there and gave me the same advice I am now giving you. Only daily cycling to the Max, for at least 30 mins, will change your shape. To be honest, once I started cycling, it happened quite quickly.

- The length of your penis will increase over time. My surgeon told me this (very confidently) and the guys on here told me too. There comes a point in time when you are inflating that your tubes begin to 'bulge' as you become rock hard and that's when the increase in length/girth happens. So I'm not surprised you're disappointed so far - all of that length and girth increase will only happen with cycling.

- I think the soft spot in the middle will also become hard when you do what I've already discussed. Why would there be a soft spot? It's not logical. The fluid from your reservoir will make your penis rock hard from one end of the cylinder to the other end. How can there be a blockage? This will change when you fully inflate.

- I also remember the utter agony of trying to squeeze the deflate button. The small plastic block with the edges on it - man my scrotum and balls hated that button at the beginning. Again, you will have to trust me that this just becomes normal behaviour for you - you pump, you have sex, you deflate. It's incredibly simple. However, it was NOT simple at the start for me. In my journal, I describe how I deflate, and to be honest, I still deflated this morning after sex like I did the first few weeks 2 years ago. I am right handed. I put my right thumb behind the rubber inflation ball. Next I put my left thumb behind the plastic block that has the deflate button to give my left forefinger a basis to push force against as I push the deflate button with my left forefinger. I then use my right hand to squeeze all the fluid back into the reservoir while I'm pressing the deflate button with my left fore finger. This works for me every time.

- Again, all of this pain goes away in the short term (months) week by week without you knowing it until you suddenly forget that you had pain at all.

- I went from 5.5 inches after the excision and grafting surgery back to 6.5 inches that I am now. I'm not sure you cannot regain size and girth if you are cycling daily in the first year. I gave up after 9 months as I'd gained back one full inch. So, be confident this should also apply to you.

By the sounds of your last post you are suffering from doubt here. You must try and be positive because in the long term you'll wonder, like I did, why it took you so damn long to do this in the first place. You'll have a totally hard penis, that never fails, and a wife who cannot believe how lucky you both are to have this opportunity.

Take care,

Roddy.

[MN1971]

Roddy-

Best advice and reassurance thus far.  Thank you!!!

I am going to save that!

M

[Hawk]

Roddy is great and comes through once again!  I agree with everything he said and salute the way he said it.

To echo, your implant cylinders canNOT possibly have a soft spot even if it is an LGX700 and much less a Titan.

You cannot possibly know the shape of your dick until you have pumped enough that you are sweating bullets waiting for the stopwatch to hit 30 minutes so you can hit that blessed deflate button.  You have yet to experience your implant.

[MN1971]

Hawk-
Really!  Pump it up until I am sweating bullets?   Like it's going to be a skin ripping erection!   Wow lot to look forward too!  YIKES!!  

Hawk I might have to take you up on that phone call stuff eventually.

Good night all.  

M

[Roddy]

Hi MN

I adjusted my information on how I deflate in my post above. I confused my right forefinger with
my left. Just to be clear:

I put my right thumb behind the rubber inflation ball. Next I put my left thumb behind the plastic block that has the deflate button on it to give my left forefinger a basis to push force against as I find and then push the deflate button with my left forefinger. I then use my right hand to squeeze all the fluid back into the reservoir while I'm pressing the deflate button with my left fore finger. This works for me every time.

[Mikel7]

Roddy is great and comes through once again!  I agree with everything he said and salute the way he said it.

You cannot put a price tag on the experience here!  

[MN1971]

Post op 20

Thanks again Rooddy for all the info.  

Any advice how to stop the Damn thing from slipping out of my hand or the "tender/sore" feeling?  
Also- not sure what they are- cords maybe... how to avoid squeezing them??

And yes- info here is priceless

So today is same as yesterday.  Still a dull ache.
Biggest issue and this sounds silly- my wife says I am dripping urine all over and not finishing totally

Now I am having a lot of pressure trying to urinate dealing with half an erection & I am on Tamilosin to help me urinate anyway because of a pain in the ass prostate!  
Again- you all can tell from my journal-  I am a little dramatic & inpatient.  So leaving the "show" early might be true... I feel totally empty and been focusing on staying longer... still having some slight stains in the Cotten underwear.  

Maybe I should get a pair of huggies or pampers!

Thank you all for being here!

M

[Hawk]

The swelling combined with the stiffness of the cylinders can cause a semi-erect-looking penis.  If a man has not mastered totally deflating, that complicates that further.  All three of those things improve.

Additionally, every man's Titan cylinders will bend, fold, or crinkle uniquely in the beginning. If your implant folds when deflated in a way that puts pressure on the urethra, it can reduce the size/volume of your stream, but that too is temporary.  Just be a little more careful for now.

Sweating Bullets- if you read my journal, you will read my descriptions of laying in a tub of hot water.  I had ice water in a glass and a playlist of my favorite music.  I would try to go for one more song, but I would literally get to the point of holding my hand on the deflate button while watching the second hand on the clock, just waiting for it to hit the 12.  When it hit 12, I would hit the button.  Now, if you are not interested in sie increase, you can be less aggressive.  Possibly you could do less over a period of more months and get slower gains. I am not sure, but I was not that patient, and discomfort when inflated clearly equals gains.

[MN1971]

Hawk- as always I appreciate the insight

No bathtub here to work with.  Bed, hot shower, that's about it... understand... deal with pain and gain!!!  Who is not interested in more size!!!!    I am all in on that one

Here is a question... no problem stabilizing pump to inflate!!! How about DEFLATION... damn thing slips out of my hand no matter how I hold it....  I think I have fully deflated... got the empty water bottle sound...  progress???

The deflation is suuuuuuch a pain in the ass!

M

[Hawk]

Determining if you fully deflate is not determined by any sound that I know of unless you mean a crinkly sound/feel of empty cylinders when they are brand new.  The cylinders should feel UNMISTAKENLY flat with a fold or bend at some point.

1. If you are pushing hard to try to get the valve to stick open then just use your other hand on the pump to keep it from shooting out.  If it works, then you can totally let go of the pump and deflate by squeezing the penis.

2. If it does not work yet on your new pump, you have to squeeze the penis WHILE pressing the deflate button.  You should still be able to do that while bracing the pump with your penis hand enough to keep it from slipping out.

EVERYTHING is a pain in the ass (dick/scrotum) in the first few weeks.  When you consider they literally skinned your dick alive, pushed the skin to the base, and cut an opening into the cavernosa to stuff in cylinders and another to stuff a reservoir into your abdominal cavity and a pump down with your balls, I am amazed it is going this well.  

[MN1971]

Your post means a lot... "amazed it's going this well".   Yeah they did peal me down as you described.  

Here's the thing.  I asked for a model pump so I could see what I was dealing with rather than just YouTube...  wanted to feel the device...

I actually do not know how the mechanism works... I thought I had to hold the release valve the entire time... I guess when I go in on the 17th Things will make more sense.

What about small ball like features on the bottom .25 of the shaft... they are soft and. I can push them in... sounds plastic like...  

I guess I am board messing with it.

I can get 15 full pumps no problem; got 20 and felt like the tip of my penis was gonna rip out...
one thing definitely noticeable is the glans is slightly pointing right. Glans has not been aroused or engorged with blood either.  So not sure what. Full erection  will look like.  I was hoping I would be done with viagra/levitra... but doesn't look like it if I want that nice swollen glans.

Deflated and re-inflated to probably 1/2 which is where I am supposed to be until I go into Dr.

Thanks again everyone for the help.    

[Hawk]

What about small ball like features on the bottom .25 of the shaft... they are soft and. I can push them in... sounds plastic like...  

Glans has not been aroused or engorged with blood either.  So not sure what. Full erection  will look like.  I was hoping I would be done with viagra/levitra... but doesn't look like it if I want that nice swollen glans.

There might be no point that has been so often or so emphatically driven home on this forum than this ——-> The glans will NOT be changed positively or negatively by proper implant surgery. It will react after surgery exactly as it did before surgery.  Ask yourself: Did I have total Erectile Dysfunction? Did I engorge but only with Viagra? Did I have strong, reliable erections? Did I get erect but lose it without constant stimulation?  Whatever the answer, it will remain the same.

[MN1971]

Hawk-

Yeah... in my post. I addressed that:

" Glans has not been aroused or engorged with blood either.  So not sure what. Full erection  will look like.  I was hoping I would be done with viagra/levitra... but doesn't look like it if I want that nice swollen glans."

Thank you for the reminder though.

Tell Hawk... your a big proponent of the HOT BATH....  not wanting to assume is it to relax the scrotum??  

[Hawk]

It is Dr. Eid who is a big proponent of the hot bath and any of his patients who do it agree.  Remember, his patients begin to cycle on day three.

It is essential to relax the scrotum, reduce swelling, block discomfort while inflated.  It might even make the pump slightly less hard but that is speculation.  

It will serve little purpose 1-month post-op.  

[MN1971]

Hawk- forgot to tell ya... idea from your journal I picked up... baby socks.  Having a little one I used a sock to cover and helped immensly with pain or rubbing against my underwear!!
Absolutely GREAT advice.

Reading your journal about where you were coinciding with my date... no wonder I am feeling bored!  Eid has you guys rockin and rollin!  

Levine is incredibly well respected in his field... I am sure he has his reasons his approach is different.

Will see what they say in 2 weeks... but in the mean time... I am pretty sure I'll be experimenting!  

[Hawk]

I recommend the infant socks with the little bow on them and writing that says "I'm a little angel".  Feel free to attach a photo.  


PS: keep in mind you had a totally different approach (coronal vs scrotal).  That plus different surgeons vary greatly in the post-op protocol.  

[MN1971]

Post OP Day 20

This is something I have f seen shared so I figured  I would in case someone else ever has to deal with it.
Doctor Levine sent me home 1/2 inflated.  Was told to leave it that way until I came in for my 2nd post op 5 weeks out... (I go in to see the PA 5/17).

Having prostate issues and taking rapaflo and flomax to help with that-  I gotta go more than usual... but having half a boner i have a weak stream abs it is rather uncontrollable!   I think I am done and I am dripping all over!!! I can even stroke out some urine!  
Not only does it gross me out- but my poor wife!  
Half a sleep I guess I sprinkled a little on the floor and got BLASTED by my Angel of a wife!
Of course being a man- I yelled back!  

I have tried sitting and it grossed me out as hit the water before going... I end up sitting on my hip as to not touch the water in the toilet bowl...

So here is my solution-   I have to deflate and re-inflate to empty my bladder and stop the battle under my roof...

Positives:
- practice inflating and deflating to 1/2 size
- emptying my bladder with no mess
- keeping peace under the roof

Negatives:
- I am (my scrotum specifically)already sore as hell from messing with this God awe-fully designed pump!   Well the inflate portion is ok...but the deflate is just ridiculous.
-  I better be proactive when I gotta go... suffering to deflate when I gotta pee is going to raise the anxiety!
- going against doctors orders as to leave it 1/2 way. Inflated.  

That's it for now.   Please share thoughts, ideas, experiences!
Have a great day and thanks for being here!
-M

[Mikel7]

Hawk will definitely have to respond to this.  I know for myself that peeing with 1/2 an erection is almost impossible.  As far as sitting and going and hitting  the water I can relate to this!   I could recommend you buying some depends.....let's just not go there.  LOL    Mike

[Hawk]

First off urine in a healthy human is free of bacteria and viruses so it is NOT "dirty".  Messy yes, a nuisance yes, dirty NO!

Turn on the shower, stand outside of it and relieve yourself there at any angle.  If your wife asks what you are doing tell her you are nurturing her favorite possession.    

[MN1971]

Hawk- I busted out laughing @ your reply.  My wife asked why and I said a joke someone made...she asked if she could see; stupidly I closed the screen... she wouldn't appreciate my jovial laugh!

I think I need some extra attention and  get pissing in the shower!

[MN1971]

Gentleman-

What are "Dogears" in relation to the Titan?

[Hawk]

Get a plastic straw.  Bend it double.  The sharp points (corners) where the straw bends are like when a dog's ear bends in the middle
--->  https://www.google.com/search?q=jack+russell+terrier&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS949US949&sxsrf=ALeKk03TlFasdJwkIRh8-8_zdsNQ9dJlXA:1620156830781&tbm=isch&source=iu&ictx=1&fir=yrLK9DrZqX2S4M%252ClRKL6loI1CyR3M%252C_&vet=1&usg=AI4_-kRvS-yMT8ZKRF7z7QILznkQEi1xAw&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjupoPD4rDwAhWDEVkFHUPCA2kQ_h16BAgIEAE&biw=1920&bih=912#imgrc=yrLK9DrZqX2S4M

In the beginning, if you do NOT feel dog ears, then you are either NOT totally deflated, or you were undersized with the implant.

Since Titans do not contract lengthwise when deflated, the penis retracting against the empty cylinders makes them fold into a flattened "Z" shape.  Once the cylinders become rubber feeling, it is not an issue.

[MN1971]

Something else to ask about on the 17th!  

Bend the penis all the way forward if I can??  

Again.  I will wait until the 17th to feel what completely deflated looks and feels like.  Anything else is conjecture.  

M

[MN1971]

So of course I gotta go see if I can go totally empty.
I bend kinda forward and I can feel the dog ears...  I am not sure if it's fluid or the empty water bottle effect I am experiencing too

I gotta stop.   I am gonna drive myself crazy aren't I?

A little info can be good; a little info can also be REALLY bad for someone like me.  
M

[Hawk]

Something else to ask about on the 17th!   Bend the penis all the way forward if I can??  

I do not understand this post unless you misunderstood my post.  Dogears have NOTHING to do with bending the penis.  When cylinders of a 6" erect penis with a Titan are deflated, the penis contracts half an inch.  That forces the cylinders inside the penis to bend like if you try to shorten a straw by compressing the length. The straw buckles and folds inside the straight penis.  This forms corners commonly called dogears.  

[MN1971]

Post op 21

3 weeks today I became "Bionic". Steve Majors if you will...  really a great show back in the 70's.  
I look forward to continuing to remain teachable if you will... though I am not the brightest candle burning.

Sore today.  Scrotum Is somewhat swollen around the mechanism.   I am guessing it's from the squeezing and messing with it.  Someday that will all go away and I will join the numbers of men that never regret having made the decision to join the bionic class.... right now I struggle day by day....

Simply-,how did all of you please bionic brothers get where you are??? Easy- One day at a time!

Enjoy your day!  I am sure I will be back later!

M

[Stepone]

MN,
Thanks for sharing.
It really is a month by month progression.
You will get to a point where you will say, wow this bionic penis is amazing. And if you can keep increasing your pumps to maximum, you will get thicker and longer.
My spouse loves my increased girth.
It stays rock hard after I cum and I can continue staying rock hard until she finishes.
Stay strong, the pain will eventually leave.
StepOne  

[MN1971]

Post op Day 22

Thank you StepOne.   I appreciate the encouragement.  

I emailed the PA 8 days ago thru the "my chart app" and still haven't heard back.  That sort of thing is upsetting.  For the most part phone calls are a pain... email is simpler and doesn't get on your nerves... unless your the sender and don't receive a response.   Today I call.

I want to get some "ok" to start doing more activity.  I am doing daily walks with the dog a couple times a day; I would like to start getting on my exercise bike and doing some light weight lifting.

Nothing new to report per my bionic implant.  Still sore and attempting to practice patience until my appointment on the 17th.

Everyone have a good day!  
M

[MN1971]

post op 22

Well I took Hawks advice...  wow.   Hot Bath worked wonders

I THINK I was fully inflated.  Couldn't pump anymore if I tried.  Stoop up showed the wife and she was pretty impressed!!! "WOOOE HONEY!"

That's nice but what I loved was the pain!  Or lack there of!    Earlier in my experimental stage last week I thought the thing was gonna rip outa tip of my penis!   I was near tears!  It was GOD AWEFUL! And-  I got no where near the inflation I did this time...

Tub was nice and hot; I sat only 21 minutes... and I THINK I deflated totally.  
One thing- my deflate mechanism feels nothing like what I see in Videos.  There is no flag circle with a release valve.   It's shaped like a jolly rancher and I just squeeze the middle of that to deflate...not the circular ends with a release valve like I have seen.

Thoughts about that???

Took a nice shower after dried off and applied a little baby oil on my penis to keep it nice and soft.
Yeah yeah.  That might have been too much

I know there is going to be peaks and valley's... but it's exciting to actually have something positive to feel about.  

That's it.  Wanted to share.

M

[Mikel7]

Time is a great healer!  Congrats.

[Hawk]

That was a great post to read. My 2nd bit of good news from forum members in one day.

I can casually reach down (I just did) and feel what feels-like a little raised button on one side and a slight concave dip on the opposite side.  My trained hand can find that in 1/2 of a second.

How was any old deformity/ your size while inflated?