I think BDD induced anxiety about penis size caused my Peyronie’s

[Graggaxy]

I remember how I couldn't get hard the first weeks (or even first two months) when I got a girlfriend two years ago. I was a virgin back then and so scared that my penis wouldn't be big enough for her etc. I think this caused my inability to get hard. We tried nonetheless and often had to stop because I just wouldn't get hard. This resulted in me thrusting her with a semi-erect a lot of times.

I can almost say for sure that this has caused my Peyronie's.

What a sick joke to be honest. First you are scared that your penis size isn't good enough, which causes ED, which ultimately leads to buildup of scar tissue and now I'm left with an ACTUAL shorter/smaller penis.

This makes me so depressed. I am so disappointed by myself for being so anxious about my penis size which lead to ED which in turn lead to my peyronies.

If I had been a carefree guy, I'm sure I wouldn't have had ED issues and I wouldn't have gotten Peyronie's.

They have to find a cure.. I want my pre-Peyronie's dick back. It's literally all I want  

[peter123]

This is completely ridiculous. First you made this post on how vitamin d caused your peyronies, now this? Next is "my birth lead me to get peyroies"  

[NeoV]

You need to stop searching for ways to blame yourself. There's no way you could have been carefree without practice, different brain chemistry, and upbringing. We could all blame ourselves but the past has nothing to do with you and the reality of where you're at.

To be honest, I went through a similar stage. But at the end of the day, it's not our fault that nobody educates us on penis health and best practices. It's a society-wide tragedy. Also, some guys beat their dicks up bad and never seem to get the disease.

[Graggaxy]

I can only blame myself. I was so dumb for having this anxiety. Anxiety has brought nothing but crap into my life. I'm convinced that I would have had way better erectile function without my anxiety issues and thus could have escaped this disease ... I only ask myself how other guys manage this. My penis wasn't small before. Size was good but I read of so many guys on Internet forums having 8 inches etc which brought my confidence down. So pathetic.
Is there any hope for a cure? Maybe in 10 years?

[jan.schaller1958]

You didn't cause your Peyroines because of anxiety and a soft erection. Like Peter said, at first it was vitamin D, now it's something else? The true cause of Peyroines is unknown. I think it's likely genetics (it's got some connection) and possibly trauma, but there's no clear answer.

Just keep looking for ways to improve it.  

[jan.schaller1958]

Just to tell you my own experience, I was married back in the 90s to this kooky woman, and she used to wake me up in the night or early morning hours, like 4:00, or 5:00, and start messy around with me to get an erection while I was half-awake. Then she'd just climb on top, again while I was half awake, and start going at it until she had her 4 orgasms or something, and then just roll off and go back to sleep. Then I'd have to finish off my business myself. I'm sure I was only partially erect now and then when she got started or was doing it (after all I was half asleep as it was)  and I never got Peyroines from that. And I was like 36 then, roughly ? I never got Peyroines until I was 56. I can't explain that. Then when she got pregnant with my sons (twins), who are now 26, it stretched out her stomach so much that after they were born, her stomach shrunk back and she had all this loose skin on it and looked all stretched out. Then she blamed me for giving her twins and ruining her stomach! Then she had a cosmetic operation, a tummy tuck. What a loony. So, long story short, I ended up divorcing her and now she won't even talk to me. What a crazy woman.

But, that ,,soft erection" stuff sure never gave me Peyroines. Even with her.  

[Graggaxy]

Thank you man but I'm really convinced that my anxiety induced erectile dysfunction was the cause of my Peyronie's. I even used viagra a few times and it didn't help, I really was THAT nervous. It only makes sense that Peyronie's develops under these circumstances. And now I'm an eunuch. Now I have a reason to worry about my size, before all of this crap I didn't  

[jan.schaller1958]

Anxiety has no relation to the cause of Peyroines. Absolutely none. No more than taking vitamins will eliminate plaque or calcification and restore length. All BS, written by scam artists to steal your money. That's the most bizarre and untrue statement I ever read.

Your connection of the anxiety with Peyroines seems to be that the anxiety led to soft erections which in turn caused Peyroines. Like I said, the cause of Peyroines is unknown and there in no cure for it. Just various treatment.

Find a good Peyroines expert, not just any urologist, get a diagnosis and go from there.  

[Graggaxy]

Yeah that's my point to be honest. My anxiety caused soft erections which in turn caused peyronies. I could blow my head off because of this. I shouldn't have engaged in any sexual activity because I obviously wasn't ready, I should have addressed my deep mental issues beforehand. I can't believe I was so dumb and tried having sex with a soft erection multiple times.

Internet and social media f'~c<+d me. I shouldn't have had this anxiety. I had zero reason for my anxiety. I am in deep depression. I shouldn't be writing on this forum, I should live a careless life like all my other male friends.

You don't get any micro trauma when your dick is 100% erect hard like a rock, which is what my dick could have been, if I didnt have had any mental issues like extreme anxiety  

[NeoV]

Anxiety is not rational, even if you wanted to overcome it, it would take many failures performing in front of women. You can't be "ready." The same thing happened to me actually. I used to have anxiety so bad my heart would pound and I couldn't stay hard, which is what made me start clenching and damaging my penis through trying to get hard. Now that I've gotten over my anxiety, I can say there was really no avoiding that. Now I can perform in group sex situations, on camera, and with the most attractive girls but it took me a lot of effort to reach this point. To think that I could have simply NOT had anxiety in my early twenties is absurd. It's simply too hard to have enough reference experiences then and NOBODY teaches this stuff. The situation is tragic though, I agree. But blame sex education, not yourself. And no you should not live a "careless life." Naturals and carefree guys never achieve top level results, or if they do, it was mostly random and not repeatable if it fell apart.

[Anton36]

I can only blame myself. I was so dumb for having this anxiety. Anxiety has brought nothing but crap into my life. I'm convinced that I would have had way better erectile function without my anxiety issues and thus could have escaped this disease ... I only ask myself how other guys manage this. My penis wasn't small before. Size was good but I read of so many guys on Internet forums having 8 inches etc which brought my confidence down. So pathetic.
Is there any hope for a cure? Maybe in 10 years?
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I have 5.5 inch, I can F~@< everything

[peter123]

I have 5.5 inch, I can F~@< everything

what is this, bone pressed length?

[Graggaxy]

Anxiety is not rational, even if you wanted to overcome it, it would take many failures performing in front of women. You can't be "ready." The same thing happened to me actually. I used to have anxiety so bad my heart would pound and I couldn't stay hard, which is what made me start clenching and damaging my penis through trying to get hard. Now that I've gotten over my anxiety, I can say there was really no avoiding that. Now I can perform in group sex situations, on camera, and with the most attractive girls but it took me a lot of effort to reach this point. To think that I could have simply NOT had anxiety in my early twenties is absurd. It's simply too hard to have enough reference experiences then and NOBODY teaches this stuff. The situation is tragic though, I agree. But blame sex education, not yourself. And no you should not live a "careless life." Naturals and carefree guys never achieve top level results, or if they do, it was mostly random and not repeatable if it fell apart.

Man thank you for understanding.. I still feel so dumb for not realizing my anxiety was actually crippling me. I know it's easy to say this in hindsight but seriously I could have chilled more just a little bit. I have such a dramatizing anxiety disorder. Why didn't I just switch off these thoughts and instead enjoyed the moment? Enjoyed that I'm finally having sex with this wonderful girl?  I didn't have to be that anxious and I feel so dumb for having been so anxious.

On top of all that, I took accutane once at 16 and another time at 19. this drug is known to have similar effects like finasteride and it also decreases IGF-1 levels.. really not desireable for a guy. All together it was all predetermined that I would suffer from Peyronie's at some point.
Im just not normal. I should have addressed my anxiety issues earlier, I shouldn't have taken accutane. And now I feel so diseased and unworthy. Everyday is such a struggle and I'm so close to ending it all, my parents are literally the only reason I'm still here  

[peter123]

same, the day my parents die ill kill myself

[TonySa]

Peter, Grag is talking about addressing his anxiety...not giving into it as you're indicating.  Please try to be supportive when commenting on others threads.

[Anton36]

what is this, bone pressed length?

да

[Graggaxy]

I hope everyone who's responsible for giving inexperienced young guys like me a false view on average dick sizes goes to hell. I had no reason for having this anxiety. It truly caused my Peyronie's, 100% none of the guys I know have as much performance anxiety as me  

[Graggaxy]

Or actually I think accutane caused my peyronies lol. I did some research and apparently accutane lowers androgens and many guys developed hypogonadism and persistent sexual dysfunction after accutane. I myself had T levels of 560 ng/dL a few weeks ago at age 23. Way too low for a 23 year old. Most likely caused by accutane. What do you think?

[peter123]

i think that this is completely ridiculous

[diehardpatriot]

Anxiety is not rational, even if you wanted to overcome it, it would take many failures performing in front of women. You can't be "ready." The same thing happened to me actually. I used to have anxiety so bad my heart would pound and I couldn't stay hard, which is what made me start clenching and damaging my penis through trying to get hard. Now that I've gotten over my anxiety, I can say there was really no avoiding that. Now I can perform in group sex situations, on camera, and with the most attractive girls but it took me a lot of effort to reach this point. To think that I could have simply NOT had anxiety in my early twenties is absurd. It's simply too hard to have enough reference experiences then and NOBODY teaches this stuff. The situation is tragic though, I agree. But blame sex education, not yourself. And no you should not live a "careless life." Naturals and carefree guys never achieve top level results, or if they do, it was mostly random and not repeatable if it fell apart.

Dude, I used to say the same thing "I wish I'd just be carefree" but Neo you hit it out of the ballpark. It is our greatest gift to be thinkers and give a damn. Learn how to control it and it'll be your best servant. As for OP, now you are aware and educated on this stuff and you can take action to improve. It is natural to Blame yourself and I think every person on this forum has blamed themselves at one point or another. It is none of our faults.