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Re: Planeando el suicidio esta semana
« Reply #50 on: October 10, 2020, 11:36:41 PM »

peter123,
I recommend that you help animals, dogs, they are the best antidepressants. they really suffer life more than anyone else, and you can change the destiny of many.
You can choose a prostitute in the short term, until things improve.
I'm going bald too, buy an electric razor, it looks better, and also a nice cap.
I think about suicide every day, but I understand that it is a symptom of depression (I had it before hurting my penis). the symptom goes away after a while. writing it in a forum and reading comments like this will not help you, avoid them.
And finally, spread this disease, look for people who are studying it on the internet and motivate them, send emails to celebrities or newspapers. this will distract you and help you fight this,
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #51 on: October 11, 2020, 12:55:08 AM »

Wonderful post Toby!
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #52 on: October 11, 2020, 04:58:46 AM »

i dont think its a wonderful post
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onset of symptoms in February 2020 initial pain when flaccid only which has since improved. 20deg left curvature, loss of girth indent
started oral treatment in march, currently on Potaba 12mg 1200mg Pentox, 2.5mg Taladafil and L-arginin
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #53 on: October 11, 2020, 05:25:02 AM »

Peter,

Have you thought of becoming a priest? If you devote your life to God, you don't need to think about girls or your dick, or bald head. That's something to think about.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #54 on: October 11, 2020, 08:13:00 AM »

Olive,

That’s the most ridiculous post I’ve ever read.  You’re the guy that thinks overdosing on ridiculous Vitamin and mineral supplements will cure Peyroines and grow your dick longer. That is the most absurd thing I’ve ever heard. And you were recommending in particular magnesium awhile back?  What was that out of, some book you bought off Amazon? I just got out of the hospital, out of ICU for a subdural hematoma I got from hitting my head last week, and they checked my magnesium and it was normal. I had all I need, yet I still got Peyroines. So much for that theory.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #55 on: October 11, 2020, 08:31:15 AM »

Dear Jan, I never said you can cure Peyronie's with vitamin d, k2 and magnesium. Go back and read my posts again if you don't believe me. Some forum member asked if anyone knows how to get rid of calcifications and I answered that yes you can get rid of calcifications. At any point there was no mention on Peyronie's.

You should know that your blood always contains 1% magnesium and your body very tightly regulates it in the same level in your blood even if you were severely magnesium depleted. So takin serum magnesium test is useless.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #56 on: October 11, 2020, 11:40:05 AM »

Olive,

So you know better than the doctors about serum magnesium? Why the test then? Where’d you go to medical school? Or is your medical knowledge limited to what you got off Dr Google?

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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #57 on: October 11, 2020, 11:46:58 AM »

You need to see a psychiatrist and get on anti depressants immediately !!!!!!!!!
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #58 on: October 11, 2020, 11:54:36 AM »

Olive,

So you know better than the doctors about serum magnesium? Why the test then? Where’d you go to medical school? Or is your medical knowledge limited to what you got off Dr Google?

What is wrong with you Jan, why are you demanding me answers to all of these questions and when I give you answer you just give the same angry response all the time. Doctors don't know anything about nutrition, why don't you do a little research by yourself before you attack me.

There really is no point for me to answer to you, you're just trapped in your own beliefs that doctors are these all mighty beings that know everything.

Have a nice life with your Peyronie's Jan and why don't you amuse me and educate yourself a little. Or not, who cares.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #59 on: October 11, 2020, 03:30:27 PM »

Peter,

Have you thought of becoming a priest? If you devote your life to God, you don't need to think about girls or your dick, or bald head. That's something to think about.


if ill be this funny in my thirties I hope ill be dead truly
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #60 on: October 11, 2020, 04:07:22 PM »

Olive, I don’t venerate doctors. On the contrary I’m very critical of them. However, I like Dr Lue and think he’s the best for Peyroines treatment and guarantee you he would never push the quack studies you did (on some other thread I can’t find) about various vitamins and magnesium supplements supposedly improving Peyroines (because they DON’T). I wish I had saved that quote of yours because it was a true gem, expressing incredible ignorance. You said something about not knowing why you tried helping people with your pearls of knowledge about the benefits of vitamins and magnesium as they pertain to  Peyroines (I recall it sounded like you were claiming this quackery cured it. But you did said something about taking outrageously huge quantities of vitamins and magnesium and how it would „grow your penis longer.“) Oh, come on. You know that it nonsense. Just admit it.And then telling Peter to become a priest? Is that a joke? That’s the goofiest thing I’ve ever read.
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« Reply #61 on: October 11, 2020, 04:14:22 PM »

And then, Olive, you said something about god probably giving me Peyroines to teach me a lesson because I was so annoying? Ha. I’m sure god gave you Amazon to order books written by your cure-all nutritional experts ready to sell you vitamins and magnesium for anything and everything that ails you. And you fall for it. Hilarious.
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« Reply #62 on: October 11, 2020, 05:16:26 PM »

All this does nothing for Pete, who is claiming publicly that he wants to kill himself.  Like I’ve said prior I have dealt with depression for over 30 years.  I know many short bald men that have no problem getting a girl because they have a personality that women like.  You won’t realize it now at your age but trust me when you, if you, live to my age these issues are not a priority for women.  They want a dedicated partner who loves them.  Simple as that
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #63 on: October 12, 2020, 12:15:42 AM »

Peter has gotten tons of support here for getting treatment for his depression, unfortunately if he chooses not to - there isn’t anything one can do for him.
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« Reply #64 on: October 12, 2020, 01:36:41 AM »

In my experience there are more women who actually prefer bald men than men with good hair. My hair started thinning when I was about 17 years old and since that day I started to shave my head and I have had more women than any of my good hair genetic friends. And when I was younger I wasn't even good with women, I was shy around women but still got a lot of attention from women and insane amount of p~$$%. Even the hottest girl in this one school came to me and said "I know you're with some other girl right now, but do you think it could be possible that you and me could be a couple?" and all my friends were "what the hell!! That is the hottest girl in this city, why the hell is she into you!". LOL, they were so mad at me, damn, those were the good times.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #65 on: October 12, 2020, 03:52:31 AM »

yeah with balding tis all about whether it suits one or not. head shape and stature. being masculine. im none of these things, I dont have a jawline, I dont even have a jaw at all seriously. I have no cheek bones, my face is the most non masculine you could put together, combine that with a weak 5'5 child like stature and balding is a death sentence in terms of attraction. I once shaved my head and got nothing but negative feedback even from my grandmother who said I DISFIGURED MYSELF  and whether I joined the Neo nazis. yeah thats great for a 20 year old to hear.
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #66 on: October 12, 2020, 02:30:33 PM »

I do understand how you feel Peter, you got dealt a bad hand in life. Just have to take it a day at a time and hope that somehow there's better times coming. I truly hope that everyone in here gets a happy ending, I really do.
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Re: Planeando el suicidio esta semana
« Reply #67 on: October 12, 2020, 11:39:54 PM »

okay. I'm going to tell you this:

1) the opinion of a grandmother does not count, they are not cool, my grandmother told me to grow my hair when my long hair was horrible, and I like to have it short.
2) You care a lot about the opinion of the rest because you have to work on your self-esteem, when you stop giving importance to the rest you will be happier, there are thousands of celebrities with image problems and unhappiness, more than you imagine.
3) a psychologist once told me. "Did you try playing with the perception of the other? You feel ugly, but some girl is going to like you, you just have to go outside.
4) search for "body dysmorphia" on the internet.
and it also looks for a way to lower anxiety and panic.
5) see a female psychologist.
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« Reply #68 on: October 13, 2020, 07:02:35 AM »

How is it helpfull for Peter to tell himself it is all inside of his own head when it is not the case? He doesn't have to hate himself all the time, but you can't expect someone to delude himself. How is that helpfull?? Let's say I delude myself into thinking my penis is perfectly fine and as a result I am gonna pick up hot women for one night stands and then painfully get reminded again that it sinply will not physically work in thst sort of a situation. Is it "negatve" for me to not get into a ONS at all as a result even if deep down I may want to. I don't think it is.. I thi k it is self protection for the most part. I think what many of you do not understand is that it will NOT help to say to Peter it's all in his head cause it's not. It's not fair to diagnose people who are truly ugly with BDD while a victoria secret model that is a 9/10 can literally whine ovdr not being a 10/10 and yoy people will categorize it as the same MENTAL problem and that is so wrong and probably not hwlpfull ay all. Yes it could work..but only if Peter is an extremely impressionable, naive and unintelligent guy and he clearly isn't and knows.better than that. There is no way we can convince Peter with sugar coating. The only thing that would help is to be real with him. Don't dismiss his OBVIOUS struggles. If he looked like Brad Pitt he would likely get laid.. I mean.. duh?? Better would be to try and make Peter realize that there is a lot more to spend your life doing than having sex, many many many peopls do not have sex as much as you would think. More people then would like to admit are still virgin these days. There are many less convebtionally attractive girls that dont even WANT a "hot" male cause these men will only pump and dump them so they will likely still go for someone that makes them feel good even when the guy isn't necessarily good looking. These kinds of relationsships are more meaningfull and you likely won't find that on Tindee and have to go outside and be social for it to haplen. But it shouldn't be a priority and it may not even happen to be fair. But just know that the chance of it happening will be low when you do everything right, but even lower if you let your depressio  get the best of you. I too ruined a lot of years and development cause my mental state got the best of me. It is a shame and can haunt you for life.
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« Reply #69 on: October 13, 2020, 08:07:59 AM »

Thanks for understanding. However in will say that id rather stay alone than bei with a women in dort find attractive, i dont need someone to make me feel good, irs fine not being in a relationship, if good sex with attractive mates is not an Option then id rather not. Conventionally unattraktive people settling for other unattraczive people must be the sadest thing ever my Penis gets limp just thinking about that, takes all tge excitement out of dating. Inb4 oh BuT ThEn YoU Are A HyPoCtiTe no im not in also woudknt want to be with a woman that doesnt find me hot and sexually appealing either. Then no relationship is the answer

But mcchicken94 gets it, mabye because he isnt Liter ally 70years old and in dont mean that in an insukting way
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onset of symptoms in February 2020 initial pain when flaccid only which has since improved. 20deg left curvature, loss of girth indent
started oral treatment in march, currently on Potaba 12mg 1200mg Pentox, 2.5mg Taladafil and L-arginin
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« Reply #70 on: October 13, 2020, 08:11:06 AM »

Is disagree however that these relationships are more meaninful, i think they are sad and miss the purpose of why i want to date. Id also mich rather have casual Sex than find tge woman for marriage at F^@$!ng 22 but thats also something a 55 year old dont understanding. Half of you all are oder than my father and he sometimes talks like that too. Because he never got to act out and exoeirnce bis Sexuality either
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onset of symptoms in February 2020 initial pain when flaccid only which has since improved. 20deg left curvature, loss of girth indent
started oral treatment in march, currently on Potaba 12mg 1200mg Pentox, 2.5mg Taladafil and L-arginin
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« Reply #71 on: October 13, 2020, 12:21:46 PM »

Peter , I’m 20 years old. At 18 I experienced probably the rest year of my life after a penis injury. I’ve gone through all of that you’re thinking right now and I’m out of depression and finally getting over my anxiety entirely. First you need to address the depression. You’ve been depressed even before this whole penis issue . Your body cannot heal if you’re depressed. The flight or fight chemicals literally surpress your immune system. Your brain is also primed for chronic and amplified pain in this state you’re in. You can do it. Then at the same time go see a Peyronies specialist mentioned on this forum.
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« Reply #72 on: October 13, 2020, 04:31:09 PM »

I agree with "amehardpatriot", you are in the denial stage, I have already passed it and we know what we are talking about, nobody says that you do not have a physical problem, like everyone else.
Reading about how you describe the jaw, it reminds me of when I complained about my fingers and ankles, and if I had had a hair implant it would have been a disaster, luckily the salesperson didn't convince me.
even if you could fix your penis, you'd still be sick complaining about something else.
Read about body dysmorphia, there you will find your past, present and future.
stop wasting time and start changing what you can change, then the rest will come.
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« Reply #73 on: October 13, 2020, 06:41:47 PM »

i dont have body dysmorphia i am 5'5 short im going bald badly like i look like crap, i have numerous other issues too. and now im impotent witgihr drugs and i have peyrinies disease which is completely insans at my age. its so depressing snd i dont get any help from therapists etc everyone is overbooked etc
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started oral treatment in march, currently on Potaba 12mg 1200mg Pentox, 2.5mg Taladafil and L-arginin
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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #74 on: October 14, 2020, 08:06:59 AM »

So Peter, what do you want from the people here? Do you want to be helped at all, or do you just want them to feel sorry for you?

I can understand your mental state, but I can also tell you from experience that people feeling sorry for me while I was seriously depressed didn't help much. It does help if you can find someone who has the humanity and maturity to understand how you feel, while at the same time not treating you like some helpless pathetic victim. Somebody who is very real, like McChicken94.

If it is respect you want as a human being (and don't we all), there is little that people respect more than someone who took life by the balls despite being dealt a really crappy  hand. One of my personal heroes is Bushwick Bill who by the way was much shorter than you. No idea about his penis though.
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« Reply #75 on: November 17, 2020, 03:11:19 PM »

I actually wish you would just shut the [email protected]< up playing the sympathy case. You literally come onto this forum to lash out at strangers and then when they reassure you After you lash out at them, you act all apologetic and crap. Only for you to lash out again, if you are going to let peyronies ruin your life then that’s your choice but stop being such a loser coming onto this forum crying about how you are going to kill yourself but don’t actually do it. Pathetic. This is coming from a guy who has developed peyronies this week in the most severe manner possible. My penis ultra inflamed, I can’t even retract my foreskin because it’s too painful and I’ve a huge as plaque on the front of dick. I know this will never be a fix for me but I will never resort to being a sobbing loser over the internet
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« Reply #76 on: November 18, 2020, 07:03:04 AM »

I've had Erectile Dysfunction all my life man. Taking f***ing gas station Erectile Dysfunction pills (americans know) at the f***ing age of 23. And now those no longer work for me.
Get some credit cards and go get an implant. Get it twice if it fails. Then at that point come back here and ask for help. But until then, you're going to lose that last fabric of society that understand and emphasizes with you.

I have f***ing hair on my c*ck. I bet my situation is far worse than yours. I haven't gotten an erection in 9 months. It's terrible lol.  But this forum should show you that you have a place in life no matter what, just dig deeper and exhaust ALL OPTIONS before public self-pity and pessimism.

Even though your young, you're not a teen. Dr. Eid told me about a kid who had cancer that had to be operated on when he was 3. Grew up his whole life not being able to achieve, never once had an erection. Yes, he got an implant at 18, but imagine going through adolescent etc. with this disability? Does it sound like you? Sure  yes it does. He survived and continues to survive, so will you my man. So will you.
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« Reply #77 on: November 18, 2020, 07:07:27 AM »

^Peter there's a lot of people on here trying to give you solace. I get it man, I'm 30, no job, single, and haven't gotten hard in a year. I understand how you feel so much, and I read every single one of your posts.

You can't give up until you've literally tried it all. If you need to get mad and get angry, message me privately, because I could use someone to get mad and angry with as well :)

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Re: Planning suicide this week
« Reply #78 on: November 18, 2020, 08:13:33 PM »

Peter won’t reply as he’s off the forum.
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« Reply #79 on: November 18, 2020, 10:48:14 PM »

Yes, Tony, Peter unfortunately was muted and you guys ran him off, because he was one of the few to challenge unproven and unscientific claims.   I think it’s a shame he’s gone. Maybe we’ll be lucky and he’ll return because he really researched Peyroines well.
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« Reply #80 on: November 19, 2020, 03:05:54 PM »

You're soon to be on the list Jan. I guess you and Peter can be buddies soon?

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« Reply #81 on: November 20, 2020, 12:14:21 PM »

Pfract, I’ll be on what list soon? And Peter is a very nice guy and very well researched on Peyroines.
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