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[agranderson2019]

Hey guys. I have been a member here for a year or so, and haven't been active in awhile. Everything has been going well in life but lately I've been having this strange thing happening.

It usually only happens when I wake up and go to take a pee. Usually when I wake up my penis is flaccid and soft. This only happens when it's hanging real loose and soft, not hard or full really. What happens is my anxiety kicks in, and I can literally watch my flaccid penis shrink up and bend to the left, it feels like a muscle cramp, and then after about 30 seconds it goes back to normal.

I think it's important to mention that this doesn't happen every time, sometimes I go to pee with a long soft penis and it's hanging perfectly straight and fine. But if it starts to do the bending thing I get super nervous and it only makes it worse. It literally seems directly related to my anxiety. This has been happening on and off for a year or so but the past week it happened like 3 different times. It's really starting to scare the crap out of me and is disturbing to look at.

It seems to happen every time I get too nervous to look down. All the sudden, BAM. Starts shrinking and bending to the left, more than 45 degrees. It doesn't hurt or anything. Again, this doesn't happen when I'm getting hard. My erection is straight and painless.

I used to have PFD pretty bad but it's not really noticeable anymore. My only thought is maybe my pelvic floor muscles are imbalanced and when the blood goes to leave my CCs when anxious, due to excessive vascular construction, it leaves the smaller CC (left) faster than the other CC (right) causing a temporary bend until it settles down.

The weird thing is it happens sometimes but not others. Could this be a precursor to peyronies? I had it ruled out by a specialist in June and tried to forget about it, but it's really bothering me and making me anxious again.

I'm baffled that nobody else has experienced this, I've scoured the whole internet, and even the Dr had never heard of such a thing. Once it starts to deflate and bend to the left it feels tight like a cramp. Then it goes away and my flaccid penis is straight.

I don't understand why sometimes this happens and sometimes it doesn't? I hope it's not the beginning of Peyronies and some kind of plaque causing one side to deflate extra fast or something. At this point all I can imagine is the worst....

How can it be hanging all loose and nice in my pants, perfectly straight with no curve at all sometimes but not others?  

I think it's important to say that it doesn't do it after sex or masturbation at all, just when I wake up to pee and it's hanging loose. If it's not hanging loose and soft it doesn't happen. Please help. I need some advice guys. Thanks for your time and I look forward to hearing from you.

[LWillisjr]

Your anxiety is easily triggering a reflex that is causing this. Not much different than when you get in cold water "Remember the famous Seinfeld episode.....  It shrinks?"

I do not think this is a precursor to Peyronies Disease, and I wouldn't worry about it.

[agranderson2019]

Thank you for reaching out. I too was hoping it's my anxiety. But don't you think it's strange that it bends to one side? I'm talking bending pretty significantly. Typically I would expect it to deflate evenly like it would when I was younger. This bending to the left thing has only been around for the past year or so on and off. I guess the only saving grace, I hope, is that it's doing this as it gets smaller, not more erect. I was worried maybe some scar tissue is forming and causes one side to collapse faster by pulling the tissue together faster when blood leaves the CC.

Willis, I want you to know I'm very grateful that you responded. I've been having a real bad day because of this. Anytime I've been on here the past year you've been active and positive. Even though it's just a forum and I don't know you, I'm grateful for you.  

[TonySa]

I agree with Willis, sounds like anxiety and NOT Peyronies.

[agranderson2019]

Tony thanks for the response. I appreciate your input greatly. I really do. Thanks for reaching out. Every time I'm on here with questions you're always quick to answer. Makes me feel better. Have a good day.

[agranderson2019]

Hey guys. I'm back because it keeps happening. Intermittently. Sometimes it happens when I'm hanging long and loose after waking up, and sometimes it doesn't at all. If it was a precursor to Peyronies, would intermittent symptoms even be possible? It seems like it should be happening all the time if it was a scar tissue problem, but I'm not doctor.

Are there any theories on why this would happen? For instance, when I wake up to pee and I have a nice normal flaccid while lying down, then when I stand up and feel that it's full and dangly, it will start to curve for 20 seconds and then it will deflate and go away. If I watch my penis get erect without any stimulation, there is no curvature or anything. It only happens when my penis is flaccid and hanging nice and loose and long. The texture is different than having a half Chubb. When semi erect it's full and thick and tight, and it won't bend. But when the penis is in the more relaxed chubbed state it happens from time to time. Specifically once I start to worry and I'm assuming my smooth muscles fibers are reacting to the anxious state of my brain.

I'm trying to figure out why this is happening? I am so scared that it's the precursor to a curve that will come soon. I'm terrified. And I'm in a constant state of anxiety and it's a loop that I can't get out of.

My best guess is that when it's in that state, I get anxious, and the blood is leaving my penis unevenly. It would make sense that it's bending to the left because my left cavernosum is the shorter of the two. Maybe the sudden change in vascular tone from the fight or flight response is causing it to do this? I hope?? The more it happens the more I get scared and it's a loop I can't get out of. Sometimes it won't happen for days or weeks at a time. All the sudden it's happened three days in the last week and It keeps feeding that loop.

I hope it's not a precursor to Peyronies. I need some advice and reassurance as I have nowhere else to turn to except you guys. Thanks for anyone who replies.

Edit:

I think it's important to note that I have pelvic floor dysfunction. For the last year, when having sex or just being erect, there is a palpable knot between the left asscheek and perenium area kind of to the bottom left side of my balls. It's very hard when having sex and then it becomes softer and goes away after I lose my erection. But I've always been tight on the left side and that lump is near the IC muscle of the pelvic floor. I subconsciously clench my ass all day long and catch myself doing it all the time. Especially my left butt cheek. I've been slacking on the stretches I'm supposed to do and I need to get back on it. It's important also to note that I don't have any curvature when erect, just a little tilted to the left from what I think is congenital penile torsion. So when this happens it curves my penis halfway down the shaft. I'm trying to find the correlation between the pelvic floor and how it could curve my penis halfway down the shaft sometimes and not others. Hopefully it's just the pelvic floor and anxiety, not early Peyronies. I really look forward to hearing from someone as this is the best resource in the world. God bless.