Thanks for listening...

[samsung]

I post a lot here and I am sure everyone is sick of me and my "negativity." I put that in quotes because I do not view it that way. What I am about to write, I am writing for myself mostly. And I don't want psychological feedback or any pollyanna feedback such as "if your dick is curved upward, you can stimulate your partner's erogenous zones." That is not helpful to me. That sort of thinking is a foreign country. If you have practical advice, fire away. But psychology I don't need or want.

O.K. Here goes. I feel singled out and boxed in.

When I was first diagnosed, I did nothing. Because I was going through acute withdrawal from a powerful drug and had no ability to deal with this. And I didn't think it was serious and didn't even really know what it was. Plus, my father said I would be fine, that it was easily curable. This has made my hate my father. Fun times.

About a year went by. The plaque grew. The deformity grew. By the time I had an ultrasound the plaque had calcified. I can't even be certain whether or not it calcified right away.

But I feel it calcified quicker than anyone on this forum. I have never read of anyone whose plaque hardened more quickly than mine did. This makes me feel unique and doomed.

I started doing traction with penimaster for about 6 months probably @4 hours per day. I got zero results. This made me feel singled out. Like I was chosen.

So I tried VED. I got no results because I could never get it to operate properly. My dick never filled out the way it was described to me. So I gave up. This made me feel singled out. As others get seemingly miraculous results. But I don't.

So I tried xiaflex. 4 rounds. Zero results. Again, singled out. Chosen.

So I go back and try restorex. 4 months now. Zero results. 2 hours per day. Nothing.

I try DMSO. Nothing.

I don't have the mental wherewithal to go back and do traction 9 hours a day and apply DMSO all da long and do VED and eat keto. Kind of hard to do that when you are suicidal. Plus, I have eaten keto and fasted too. Zero results. Chosen. Singled out.

It's kind of hard to do massive inconvenient terrible therapy when you know in advance it won't work. Why would it work?

But that isn't the worst part.

There is the solution of implant. The thing that is supposed to be the savior of everyone here. But not me. Because I've been singled out.

My curvature is too distal. Even according to Dr. Eid, a world expert, my curvature is too close to my glans for the implant to straighten it. Unlike every other member of this forum. I am not allowed by God to have a straight penis. Something I need in order to not die.

But I should get surgery you say? Surgery does not work. Curvature recurs. Stitches fail. Impotence and numbness ensue. And in every single case, you lose length. No thanks. I don't even know why they perform plication or grafting. It makes no sense.

None of this makes sense to me. I feel like I am in the matrix. There is a solution for every one of you. But not me.

I cannot live with this disease. 2 years along with this. I should be zen like and love having peyronie's and be all accepting of my body and blah, blah.

But I'm not. All I really want is to kill people. For every degree that my dick is curved I want to rule over 10 souls in hell for eternity. I want recompense. I demand recompense.

I've been to therapy. I am in therapy. Everyone benefits from therapy. Except me.

I've heard it all. I've seen it all. It is all bushit.

Give me a straight dick. Give me my dick. Give me the dick I was born with. Or take a bullet. When I die, I will destroy God. I will team up with Satan and I will rape and eat him after I've made him watch me rape and eat the Virgin Mary. Then I will undo the universe and make it go back in time to the point where it never existed. And I will stamp out the ashes with my glorious penis.

Thanks for listening if anyone got this far. Have a nice day.

[TonySa]

Hi guy, I tried to send you a PM but your inbox is full.  Tony  

[samsung]

Should be good now. Thanks Tony.

[Mr man]

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I'v tried DMSO, vacuum, traction. Wek... Traction seems to have worked slightly. O who am I kidding. My hourglass has gone, I think it's 3 degrees better, but still can't have sex.
Your not singles out. It's just not working for you. Btw: surgery does work. I'm going to have it anyway, because traction alone is unlikely to resolve the problem.
Just take a chill pill man. All this anger can't be good for you.