Hey guys, I'm again and I need advice.

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Inkognito

First of all I want to apologize for my bad English. If you are more interested you can read my history. I will thray to make this short. I have above average leginth ( shortest side like 18.2-9 cm depends how I measure and longest 19
- 20 cm... Up shortest down longest with upward/left curvature. Left curve about 24-28 , upward 45-55 degrees. Avarage to little above grith with bigger head then shaft. I am 22 years old. Problem started 8 months ago with chord like structure comming from my body on top left side of my penis. It is like 5-6 cm long and 3 mm wide. Yes it have shape of blood vessel but it is stone hard and I have curve .... Before one month  dent appeared on up side of penis. But dent a on right up side before glans... It is like 3 mm wide 3 mm deep but it is long. ( It goes like circumcision vains in penis if you know what I'm talking about but only on top right side. I also don't have one big band I have multiple bands with twistings that make my penis  more like banana shaped rather then one big curve. I was using like 20 different fills ( from suppliments all possible mentioned to antidepressants and pentox). Witch did notink so I stopped. Same goes with traction I did it like for 1,5 months and stoped because dent appears and I have pain now. Not olways and not too big pain but you know ... It is on fuckingg dick and it destroys me. Im in long time relationship too. I give up on doctors becaus of multiple reasons. First of all I did 20+ appointments in past 8 months with 11 different urologists. I did 4 times ultrasound ( one time in erection ) one time color Doppler and a lot of palpations. Answer is always same IT IS HELTHY PENIS OR YOU MAYBI HAWE Peyronies Disease BUT ULTRASOUND SHOW 100 % HELTHY PENIS AND WE CANT HELP YOU. Well  Im taking antidepressants and helex on regular basis and go to psychiatrist. They sometimes make "fake happynes " and let's say help but all in all I feel like it is the and of my happy life and im fillng Like crap every day of my life. Without them it is even worser. Only time when i was truly happy was when I took some serious illegal drug. But it will destroy my health and it is expensive. And now the WORST PART. like I can see a lot of "rich guys" or guys that have money on this site have hard time with this also... But in the and they got implant or operation from country or from pocket. In my country you can't get implant or operation for free and it it expenaive. Let's say that avarage sallery is 3500 - 4000 kn but implant costs like 60000 kn. So yes I'm poor and I can't get operation for free and I even can't get proper doctor for real diagnosis. Now I can write for hours how father left me when I was younger like garbage and never called again and how 90 % of my family died in fast 4 years. But I feel like it will be too long post and it is not time and place for my destroyed life with things that I can't effect even 0.1% and I'm powerless. So antidepressants do not help , psychiatrists do not help and I'm steel feeling like crap 24 hours a day. Considering that my simptoms did not improve and that I can't do crap about it to help even 0.1 % is sad. And I expect more deformities and lost of leginth grit due to new paint full dent. Situation seems like inrevirsibile witch means it can onely stay same or more likely get worse. And on top of ALL THAT I was born with congenital curvature ( inborn curve) so you know life did not just crap on me ... Life throw truck loaded of shits on me. So I think this is my last post because there is no help. But i have just one last question. How to live life like this at age of 22 when all around me have happy life and sex and I am destroyed ? Don't tell me I'm not because living youth like this is worse then death. I would kill myself already but my mom and girlfriend keeps me alive because a don't want to hurt them. So just one last simple question. How to live life with constant feeling of: less worthles, shame , anger , fear , yeleusly, .... And probably 100 more bad feelings and this crap of faith that I'm soo deformed and in pain with 22 years old and whole life is "in front of me". Thanks for reading I hoped no-one will have my destiny I don't want that to my worst enemy. Even God can't help me :).
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popopo

It takes time and even then you may still feel this way. What helped me is learning to enjoy life without sex and making the best of it. To put it simple; don't put the p~$$% on a pedastal and fu#k everything and everybody that brings you down. It took me a while, but I'm 25 and haven't had sex in years and I honestly grew kinda numb to it. I don't care anymore. I don't have to deal with all the drama that women and relationsships bring anymore. I accept being alone and every guy that thinks I'm less of a man because of it I'll gladly show them otherwise. I can probably still kick many guys ass, so who says I'm no man? People that will tell you that or make you feel that way are toxicand you should eliminate them from your life immediatly. Most of these dudes are probably lying and bragging anyway. I'm over the "my peepee is much bigger than yours" high school crap. We're all adults and bad things happen to all of us, no need to shame another human being just because he doesn't get his d#ck wet. My sexlife is nobody's business anyway.
Age: 25
Date of onset: 17
Symptoms: sharp pains, numbness, change in shape/size, hourglassing and discolaration from jelqing/VED usage as a teen. Diagnosed with a venous leak and possible scarring.
Treatments tried: cialis, pentox and VED didnt help