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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #50 on: August 12, 2019, 06:31:14 AM »

Hello again, I am writing on this topic mainly because I think it turned into a journal of my injury or so called "healing proccess" which people can follow easily. A week later I have my regular uro control. Yesterday I had pain whole day. Hard flaccid was horrible, also I had pain in my pelvic area, even my anus had contractions and pain. My night time erections seem to get weaker and weaker. Today I woke up with a half erection. It was very hard though, mainly because of the hard flaccid. This thing makes you rock hard but you can tell its not a full erection. No visible increase in congenital curvature. Urinating can be a little bit painful sometimes,especcialy if my urine is toxic, dark yellow. I have no idea what is going on under my penis skin and it scares me. Nothing to do but waiting and observing. My shaft looks bumpy, veins look more visible too. It has been 2 and a half months since the initial injury. It got better after 45 days but later pain came back, probably I did something wrong during my sleep.

Well, it's not getting better for now, but no obvious signs for worsening either. Just wanted to update. I keep taking colchicine, vitamin e and a painkiller/tissue healar called melox forte.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #51 on: August 25, 2019, 08:50:48 AM »

Update:

Last week I had my regular control. Uro felt the scar, but he said it got much better in the last 25 days. Also, I felt almost no pain during hand examination. He said "hard part is over,you may relax,it will completely heal with mininim complications. Colchicine and vitamin e should prevent any plaque development,only problem could be curvature."

After doctor's explanation, I really relaxed. Masturbation and sex is still forbidden. But, after the appointment, my erections came back! Like nothing happened down there. I got boners during the day, woke with morning woods every morning etc. Also, curve was still the same. My congenital curve which measures 18-20 degrees. It was really hard not to masturbate. I am on nofap for a month, but last night I finally had a wet dream. During my sleep,I could actualy felt a slight pain furing ejeculation, it was not really comfrtable.

Hard flaccid is occasional now. Sometimes I feel very normal and sometimes it comes back. After my wet dream, it came back. Hopefuly I didn't cause any damege in my sleep. I am not in pain anymore, at least it is minimal. I guess things are getting better. But it still needs time. I asked my uro if there is anything I could do to stop  fibrosis. He said medications should be enough. Another thing, I had like 10 hand examinations from 3 different docs so far and none of them felt any plaque or fibrosis. I guess that clears I had no Peyronies Disease so far. Hopefuly it will not start after some time. I read an artical about penile fracture and Peyronies Disease. It was studied among penile fracture patients who had surgical treatment. None of them got Peyronies Disease after 85 months. In my case, my treatment is not surgical, but it's a minor fracture and there are some studies that actually recomend conservative treatment for minor fractures. I couldn't find any study about the outcome of non surgical fracture treatment.

Well, still waiting. Wet dream took away some tension. I was really horny in the last couple of weeks. I'll be observing for curvature and update after the next uro appointment.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #52 on: August 25, 2019, 12:42:01 PM »

This is in line with what you were told here. Keep it up!

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #53 on: August 27, 2019, 10:18:15 AM »

Glad you are abstaining man. Keep doing all you can and try to relax and enjoy life
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« Reply #54 on: August 28, 2019, 01:39:09 AM »

pfract and diehardpatriot, thank you for your replies. Unfortunetely I noticed the increase of curvature this morning. Since I don't masturbate, I didn't really see my penis fully erect in the last couple of weeks. This morning though, I decided to check my morning wood, and there it was. At least 30 degrees to the left. Weird thing is, curve  doesn't start on the fractured area, instead it starts about one and a half inch above my fracture. My morning woods caused some discomfort in the last months after the injury. Not pain, but a discomfort. Like it was not elastic anymore. Direction of my erect penis was much more stubborn. Is this considered Peyronies Disease or is it due to the healing fracture? My congenital curve was a smooth one. It was not a sudden bend.  It still looks like that but angle is is bigger now. I tried to take a photo of it in order to document and to shoe my uro but I lost my erection immediately.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #55 on: August 28, 2019, 02:12:05 PM »

It's one of the things that can happen. But keep following the plan. When it heals up properly, then you decide what to do next. Maybe traction and ved. For now, abstain and follow the plan.

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« Reply #56 on: August 31, 2019, 11:28:14 AM »

Had to visit my doctor earlier than it schedueled, because I noticed a swollen vein. Doctor wanted me to see him in order to check for thrombosis. Turned out, vein is normal. But, he felt a completely different nodule in the opposite side of my fracture. During examination I felt minimal pain, new nodule was painless too, but he didn't understand what it is. He claims it is not on the penile shaft, rather in the scrotum.

He said I still need time, fracture is almost healed. He'll give me a medication for erections one month later. I still have 6 months to see if my curve got worse. Btw, he didnt feel any plaque anywhere in my penis. What do you think? Is it a sign I won't get peyronies?
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #57 on: August 31, 2019, 12:01:55 PM »

This topic really has very little to do with the title (depression/ suicide) even in the earlier posts on the topic.  I am likely to change the title and move it.  If/when I do I will leave a link here to the new location.
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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #58 on: August 31, 2019, 01:28:13 PM »

You're right Hawk,I am sorry for this. But, I have some more bad news regarding my problem. It turned out I didn't suffer from a  small fracture. It was a regular fracture, it just so happens to miss a large vein, therefore I did,'t had any bleeding. This new information left me increadbly depressed and hopeless. I always assumed I had a minor fracture, but I literally have a big fracture left untreated. At this point, I am totally convinced I am the most unlucky guy alive. I don't expect anything from life anymore. Just letting myself go with the flow.  Some bad luck and a mistake made me a 25 year old with an increadbly dark future.

Good people of this forum. I thank you once again. I don't think I will be able to cope with this. I tried but new bad news came, I just can't  handle it, being completaly alone and hopeless, and poor...I am getting drunk tonight, so drunk that I will not even know that I am a human being. I dont care about causimg more damage, since at the end, I will probably just end it with my own hands.

Dear Hawk, if you move this topic or change the title, I hope it will still be visible to those who heard a "cracking sound" and got worried. If you hear a cracking sound, go get your surgery immediately and stop losing time.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #59 on: August 31, 2019, 06:33:15 PM »

How did he diagnose the fracture? Was it an Ultrasound?
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« Reply #60 on: September 01, 2019, 06:21:24 AM »

Hi program4004, there was no ultrasound. He simply felt the fracture with his hand. I can also feel it under my skin. A small bean sized bump, its middle is empty, sides are hard and makes a little ring shaped bump.
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« Reply #61 on: September 01, 2019, 07:54:39 AM »

Interesting. I'd still try to rule it out with a scan too if you can afford it. But I guess he doesn't feel the need to. It's weird that it didn't become an eggplant shape.
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« Reply #62 on: September 01, 2019, 08:22:40 AM »

At this point I wish it looked like an eggplant immediately after the fracture. If that was the case, I would get the surgery asap and by now I would be healed and all operational again. What are the odds,right?
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #63 on: September 14, 2019, 07:06:03 PM »

Just lost my battle against nofap and masturbated without my doctors approval...today was day 50, I ejeculated during my sleep once on day 28. 5 days later I have my regular uro visit schedueled.

I was checking whether or not I have venous leakage. Tried to maintain an erection by watching nsfw gifs on reddit. I had a very hard erection which did not look like it was going to fade away,so I began stroking my penis very gently. I immediately felt the sensation, until this point I was thinking about stopping, but there was that one gif... I simply lost control and got faster with stroking. Just in a minute I exploded. there was no pain. Only weird thing I felt was the very slight uncomfortable feeling on the fractured area.

On the plus side, I was expecting another wet dream soon and I was afraid to have it, since I wouldnt be in control and last time it was  painful. I gently emptied my testicals which was probably goinf to happen in a couple of nights while sleeping.

On the bad side, I didnt follow the instructions and did the wrong thing. Although recommened time for nofap was 4-6 weeks and I was already completed that. But I fear I might cause some more damage down there. Last time I saw my uro he told me he will give me cialis and let me masturbate, or in Turkish, do a "31". But I still have flaccid pain from time to time and hard flaccid happens occasionaly. Wish I didnt masturbate today, but I believe its better to gently relaese backed up semen rather then having a wet dream in a weird sleeping position.

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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #64 on: September 17, 2019, 09:27:39 AM »

After 110 days,I believe my fracture finally healed and as expected it resulted increased curveture. My congenital curve was around 10 degrees. Right now I curve to the left more dramaticaly and sharply. It is between 20-30 degrees. My doctor told me operation is not necessary at this point, but curve may increase. Curve is indeed increasing and it is happening fast. A month ago I only had my congenital curve. Also, my fractured area looks tinner in erect state compared to other sides if my penis.

Is this considered peyronies dissease? I don't have Erectile Dysfunction at all, also no pain or size loss during erections. I dont now if thinning can be considered hourglassing.  I want your opinions and suggestions please.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #65 on: September 17, 2019, 04:00:08 PM »

Technically a fracture with a scared repair is not Peyronies Disease.  That is what happens to any body part with normal healing.  What would make it Peyronies Disease is if the scar tissue continues to overrun healthy non-damaged tissue which may or may not happen.

It is great that you don't have Peyronies Disease.  While Erectile Dysfunction is not uncommon with Peyronies Disease it is not a necessary component of Peyronies Disease.
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« Reply #66 on: September 17, 2019, 05:24:58 PM »

Thank you Hawk. I guess if it did turned into peyronies I would experience pain during erections, but so far it looks like damaged tissue is causing the curve increase rather than fibrosed peyronie plaque or yet to be fibrosed tissue.

Also, last time you mentioned moving this topic since it is no longer about the psychological component of the dissease. It is more like "my untreated penile fracture story". I believe changing the title to something similar would make some questions clear for those who suffered the same thing. Because there is so little texts and articles about conservative treatment of penile fractures and it really worried me not to find anybody with a similar condition, except for pfract of course. So far my journey goes exactly like it is described here, mostly by pfract. After 3 and a half months pain is gone, HF became rare, turtling is no more, psychologicaly, I am much better, since I csn get fully erect within seconds and I can maintain my erection. Curve doesn't scare me too much. I'll probably dive into VED or traction once I enjoy having a working penis for a while :)

No matter what happens in the long term, I'll be around and try to answer questions as much as possible here.

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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #67 on: September 17, 2019, 08:53:04 PM »

I'm glad for that part where you mention me and what i said. Hopefully you rest assured a little bit. It's been 4.5 years for me, and my curvature hasn't worsened, save for a minor re-injury on August 2018. I gained a slight curvature to the left, but it has been like that.

Stay on top of it, and if necessary try traction and VED therapy. If you feel like it, take viagra before sex so it helps with anxiety if you are feeling it.

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Re: Penile fracture made me suicidal, i seriously need help
« Reply #68 on: September 19, 2019, 12:13:46 AM »

Nocekgari, do you have psoriasis or any type of Arthiritis in your family? Do you have colorectal or breast cancer in any of your relatives? Can you PM me about the details of your risk factors?
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« Reply #69 on: September 19, 2019, 07:16:42 AM »

I PM'd you Hontas. My father has high colesterol and my mother had a heart attack couple years back. Heart dissease is very common in my family. Nobody got cancer as far as I remember though.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #70 on: September 19, 2019, 03:58:09 PM »

I have a very full update

Just visited my uro. I have good news and several bad news

Good news is, my fracture is completely healed. I can masturbate, but should stay away from sex for a little longer. Also, he didnt prescribe me cialis. My erections are fine. Regarding my curve, he concluded that my curve is not as bad as it seems. I dont know how to describe it but my my penis looks to the left starting from the bottom, where it meets my body. I mean, its not a bend on the shaft,I have that too but its a mild one, my whole penis is leaning to the left rather than starting straight and bending to the left somewhere on the shaft. He told me this type of curve shouldn't cause any trouble for intercourse and he doesnt expect it to worsen over time

Bad news 1:  I have fibrosis. Scar tissue is hard and doc says it is permanent, he said it is not peyronies. Peyronies is a progressive dissease and it has nothing to do with a healed fracture scar. Still, I dont think I am clear from peyronies

Bad news 2: I have varicosel...that, I wasn't expecting. One month later I'll have ultrasound and probably going to have surgery. I mever noticed it but he immediately found it. He was checking for the nodule he felt in my scrotum during the last examination. Btw, it is still there too and ultrasound was planned for that im the first place. But since I have varicosele too, it'll be a weird experience for sure.

Bad news 3: I have penile cysts under my glans. I was avare of them, but doc decided to remove them. He says its a  very simple procedure.

I am waiting for your comments.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #71 on: September 19, 2019, 04:46:25 PM »

Congrats on all the good news.  Before undergoing the recommended surgery I would research the procedures and the doc very well.  As well, always a good idea to get a second independent opinion before undergoing surgery.  Good luck and keep us posted!
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« Reply #72 on: September 19, 2019, 06:18:15 PM »

Yes. I fully agree with Tony. The first urologist that ''treated'' me after my fracture said I needed to be circumcised, when I never had and still don't have problems with my penile skin. He just wanted money. If your fracture is fully healed up, you are free to resume sexual activity. If your fracture was so minor, what are you exactly waiting for? For what to heal?

Be very cautious about going for unnecessary surgery.

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« Reply #73 on: September 20, 2019, 12:32:05 AM »

TonySa and pfract, thank you for your comments. He said I may require surgery if my varicosele problem looks bad on ultrasound. I've been doing some digging and most people live with varicosele for a long time and my case looks not so bad, I can't see the hardened veins. Well, its least of my concerns right now anyways.

And my cyst promblem, they were there for at least 15 years, since my circumcision and only once thy became infected.

I agree with you both. He is determined to perform surgery on me :) I'll get more opinions for them.
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« Reply #74 on: September 28, 2019, 08:33:46 AM »

Nocegari, clear your inbox,  I can’t send you messages  :-\
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« Reply #75 on: September 28, 2019, 09:13:48 AM »

Done buddy.
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25 year old with penile fracture. Fracture happened on May 30. No surgery, only conservative treatment. Uro thinks it was not a big one. No Erectile Dysfunction, no peyronies so far. Doctor says Peyronies Disease is possible. Constant penile pain, turtling, hard flaccid.

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« Reply #76 on: September 30, 2019, 03:31:24 PM »

Hello again.  I have some questions. Today is the end of 4th month. I am feeling good. Masturbating a little bit too much maybe but they don't feel painful at all. (I masturbated almost everyday in the last 10 days, maybe skipped one or two). Curve seems the same, flaccid pain is copletely gone, HF still remains though. But...I think I lost some girth. My hand doesn't feel full as before, lenght looks OK but girth seems to be effected. Am I imagining things or not? Sometimes I don't really want to masturbate but doing it just because I can and when I masturbate without any psychological arousal, my erections are not as good. I can understand that, I was always like this. Masturbating everyday or masturbating without arousal always made my erections kinda week. Due to HF, my penis feels very hard during an erection but I can tell it's an "unwilling" erection. Can this be the reason I feel like I am loosing girth? Maybe because of the lack of elasticity on the scar area? Another thing, I get no morning woods. Only half erections, also no random erections during the day. But with stimulation, I can get hard easily. Concerns concerns.... What do you think?
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« Reply #77 on: September 30, 2019, 07:04:01 PM »

Man... You say you still have very good erectile function. Before my fracture, I never had morning wood. I used to masturbate everyday. Only when I was without masturbating for 2/3 days is that I would have morning wood.

I don't think you would loose girth in such a short time. Try to measure properly with a tape pm you have a comparison base and stay on top of it! Have you tried popping a Viagra or Cialis pill, Just to see how your erections are with the help of the pill?

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« Reply #78 on: October 03, 2019, 03:42:41 PM »

Hi everyone, I have a kind of a weird quetion. Lately I started smoking weed on a weekly basis. Once, maybe twice a week. I don't know where but somewhere I read smoking weed can be a reason for peyronies. What do you think? Should I quit it?
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« Reply #79 on: October 03, 2019, 05:35:46 PM »

Nocegari, if you’re smoking pure weed, that definitely doesn’t have the same bad affect for blood flow and arteries as cigarettes and spliffs.
I wouldn’t smoke too much weed tho, in a situation like yours anyways. Better safe than sorry
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« Reply #80 on: October 04, 2019, 02:54:02 AM »

Guys, everyone who sees this, please answer with your best knowledge regarding this;
Last night I was sleeping pretty good with a lot of L-Arginine in my system.
I woke up suddenly by sharp pain which I don’t know was in my dream or in reality..
I had a raging boner btw, my fear is that I might have fractured it while sleeping
There is no signs of it tho, but since I had the boner when the pain occurred I am terrified
I’m waiting for your answers
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« Reply #81 on: October 06, 2019, 12:31:04 AM »

Were u wearing underpants or sleeping on your side? If the pain is gone then I wouldn't worry.
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« Reply #82 on: October 06, 2019, 04:36:38 AM »

program4004 Hey man thanks for answering. Nothing swollen and just the pain I’ve had long before that. The pain is almost gone now too.
Even tho I’m stuck with a 30 degree upward curvature, saw it first today.
My congenial curvature has been 15 degrees for all my life.
I’m afraid that I’m f'~c<+d now, there’s no knowing whether or not you’re fine or not in this mess
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« Reply #83 on: October 16, 2019, 04:17:27 PM »

It has been a while since I updated this topic. Yesterday I had to visit a doctor because of an anal abscess. He drained it in the most painful way. It was intense. Anyways, I am currently resting, taking antibiotics and my ass is covered with bandages. I have to get them replaced every single day.

Unfortunately, I can't get an erection no matter how hard I try. I don't know if it has anything to do with my anal problem. Today I was home all day and got obssesed with getting an erection. It became an obsession. I've been watching porn for 3 hours at least. If I don't watch porn, I watch NSFW gifs on reddit etc. Masturabated twice, ejeculated twice but not one single good erection. Only half erections before ejeculating. Wtf is happening? I was all good 5 days ago. Had one morning wood in the last 5 days. It was not a raging boner but it was OK I guess.

Is it possible to get Erectile Dysfunction even 5 months later? I was doing just fine, very happily masturbating with my slightly bent penis. Now, my penis doesn't work. I don't know, maybe because I got obsessed with it? I was only thinking about getting an erection and nothing else during masturbation.
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« Reply #84 on: October 16, 2019, 07:01:03 PM »

Your erectile function can definitely be affected by your mental state... Let this anal issue sort itself and then focus again on your situation.

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« Reply #85 on: October 17, 2019, 02:36:22 PM »

I suspect it’s the pain.  Don’t jerk off if not hard as you could cause more trauma and worsen peyronies.  Wait until the pain subsides.
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« Reply #86 on: October 23, 2019, 03:48:23 PM »

Hello everyone

I am approaching 6th month. I am thankful for my current state. Nothing seems too wrong. Erections are good. I cant say great because I get so few morning woods. Random erections completely dissapeared from my daily life. But, I can get fully erect very easily when I want to. Las week I had to deal with a stupid butt problem that drained all my libido. But right now I am feeling great. Ejeculations feels a bit weird due to the scar tissue. It feels like there is still  something wrong but I can take it. Curve seems stabilized at 20-25 degrees to left. As I mentioned before, my penis leans left side from its root. It's not a sudden bend on the shaft. I keep taking my regular medication.

I dont know what will happen in next months but I feel like I am about to leave this all behind. It was (is) a roller coaster ride for me. Made me question so many things about myself. I got to know gay community, learnt so much about trans people. Made some friends from lgbt community. This injury changed my perspective on so many things. I was never a homophobic person, but I never tried to really understand gay people. ( in turkey lgbt movement is strong,  but idiotic public opinion and government pressure makes life so hard for gay community, this is why I always felt like I could at least try to understand these people but something kept me from trying harder. Until my sexuality got trapped in limbo. I am not going to say whole gender thing is constructed, but it is also not as simple as having a penis or a vagina to define a person's sexuality)

Maybe I am not better than my former self. My body isn't. It is worse. I lost so much weight, I have gray hair at the age of 25, I always look tired. 5 months of intense stress shows its effects. But, mentaly, I am better. I am stronger, more open minded, more mature.

I'm still around. Pm me any time.
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« Reply #87 on: October 23, 2019, 10:29:14 PM »

Glad to hear you’re going doing better!
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« Reply #88 on: November 09, 2019, 03:48:06 PM »

I had to take morphine just reading that :(

I have no questions. As a fellow man, I wish you a quick recovery.
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« Reply #89 on: November 10, 2019, 05:23:00 AM »

xskarma and TonySa, thank you both. After 5 and a half months, I can say I am much much better. Erectile function is good. HF is gone! My only problem is the weird sensation on the fractured area. Neither I nor my doc feel any hardening or plaque. My curve is slightly inreased but it seems to be stabilized at 20-25 degrees.

What a nightmare that whole thing was though.I'd give anything to not experiencing a thing like that.
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« Reply #90 on: November 10, 2019, 07:39:53 AM »

Ever thought about applying a transdermal creme to the site of the remaining issues? DMSO + something anti calcification/scar could help you there over time. Maybe your doc would be open to that too.. sounds like you have a good one.
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« Reply #91 on: November 10, 2019, 07:42:32 PM »

melting, could please give me a few examples of transdermal cremes. Like Verapamil creme? Or what exactly do you mean? Btw glad to hear you’re doing better Nocekgari
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« Reply #92 on: November 23, 2019, 11:34:36 AM »

Guys, after 6 months, pain is back and it brought HF with it. Very unplesant news. This may be my fault. I dropped my medicine for a week, drunk  litres of beer every day, masturbated like a 12 year old and now my fractured area is very sensitive to touching. Turtling is back too. Called my doctor, he told me to keep taking colchicum and vitamin e for another 2 months and only then he will decide what to do.

6 months after the fracture, I suspect peyronies may be on its way. My erections are very very hard and I can easily get one whenever I want. But whole shaft leans to left very obviously. It feels lika a stuck  piece of wood, I can easily break it if I make a sudden move or try to straighten it during an erection. I guess this is permanent, it's very uncomrftable. But with pain coming back now, I'm afraid to have Erectile Dysfunction or curve increase may be on their way as well...
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« Reply #93 on: January 05, 2020, 08:57:50 AM »

Only saw that post now. Hope you're back on track after your bad spell..?
 
With peyronies we have to make continuous right decisions to get some improvement. Feeling bad when we mess up we can only do for a short time and then readjust to keep going ;)
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« Reply #94 on: January 06, 2020, 03:43:21 PM »

Thank you melting. Wish I could readjust. At 8th month, my condition is a bit confusing. I am now dealing with an anal fistula. An inflamatory condition that effects whole pelvic area. Since it has begun I am experiencing Erectile Dysfunction. I don't know if it is because of the fistula or the fracture. I am so depressed and sad all the time. But not freaking out anymore. I just can't believe how unlucky I am. Fracturewas bad enough but now I have to geta surgery because I have infection all the time in my buttocks, tighs and even some near the scrotum. It just drained my confidence and my libido. I can't help but pity myslef man. I am a 25 year old with a broken dick and   an ass with secret tunnels getting filled with crap and pus all the time. I  have the risk of shitting my pants after the procedure since they will cut my rectal muscles. Only god knows what it does to my penis. It's a serios joke, nobody is laughing, but it's a joke, it gotta be. I am living in a never ending nightmare for the past 8 months and struggle is only beginning.

I am obsesed. I can't get it up man, I can't sit either. My fistula is a complex one. Horseshoe fistula they call it. Little tunnels full of pus and crap, in my body, near my dick, my balls. My parts that used to give me joy. Now it's just a mess down there. I am about to quit my job, go back to my parents because I cant afford to live in Istanbul pay my rent and my hospital bills at the same time. And my mandatory military service duty is getting closer and closer. I am so F^@$!ng tired man, I am crying right now. Please just end. I hate my F^@$!ng body, I hate ehat happened to me. I can't take action either. There is constant pain in my genitals,  doctors dont care,I cant afford those who care anyway. I am a suffering soul trapped in a rotting body, watching all those ignorant, normal, healthy people getting married, having sex, flirting, working, or just, having the privledge of not thinking about their sexuality all the time like an obsessed maniac. I am getting frustrated like a F^@$!ng ape that couldn't mate. I can't do it man, I just can't. I just hope I die during that surgery.

You lose your face, you lose an arm, you lose your eye, people will support you, they will accept you, you will accept yourself. You damge your genitals and boom! You are stuck in a doomed solitude for the rest of your life. I wish I was an artist or something that could canalize this frustration and pain into art, but nope, I am a regular everyday joe who suddenly became aware of how fragile the whole identity thing is. I am lost man.  I hate seeing pus in my underwear and at the same time stroking my dick to get it up only toface the fact that it is not a dick. A very simple machine, even the stupidest man on earth has it. A rapist, a murderer, a pedophile has a working dick and not me. Sex is the time you stop thinking right? For me sex is my greatest fear now, I damaged myself mentaly on an irreversible level.

I am literally living in pus and crap and self hatred and pain. Description of hell, isn't it?

Normality is my enemy and my biggest dream now. I am stuck, helpless, trying to move but get stuck even worse. How did it come to this man? I just can't cope with what is happening to me.
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« Reply #95 on: January 06, 2020, 05:10:47 PM »

Oh wow man I’m so sorry to hear everything you’re going through.  It sure makes sense that you’re not getting sexually aroused and hard w all that pain.  Any chance your docs would give you an antidepressant medication to help you get through this?  It will get better, you just need to find a way to hang in there.
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« Reply #96 on: January 06, 2020, 07:02:38 PM »

All groin-area conditions that are seemingly unsolvable displays a nightmare.
Bro, a condition like yours is very uncommon and that’s why you’re so depressed. I mean, the same goes with Peyronies Disease... the amount of unluckiness is insane.
I don’t know what to tell you, man. All problems that don’t kill you tho, always work out in the end. And that’s on God. Hang in there, buddy.
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« Reply #97 on: January 09, 2020, 12:14:28 PM »

Oh yeah, clearly it is very bad as it is.
 
Obviously if you don't fight and do your best possible(and some more) it will get worse which then makes you more depressed and so on.. devils circle. That circle you need to break. You will miss good opportunities if you assume it can only get worse and give up. Often others around you then will do the same regarding you consciously or not especially if they don't understand.

Sounds like these are not isolated problems and you need to view all parts of yourself as a whole for the solution. Mind body healthy. Do the basics.
Try to make logicaly right decisions especially regarding your living situation and location where you are. Everything that will help you, do it. What don't, don't do it.
If you're in stress where you are it will influence your healing badly. Find the best possible(!) solution in every context.
I'm sure at the end of it you will have solved this and come out stronger in some way. I think you sure should focus all you can do not only solve the issue in your groin but also to make sure everything around is in the possibly best shape. Eat healthy and breath fully seems very basic but without it's hard to get anywhere.
Generally move your ass in some way(funny right?) No, seriously, don't rot in place!

I personally would try to to "bath" the area and the circulation there with supplements that help. Through your blood and transdermally. I would use iodine(maybe with DMSO) to get the inflammation down. What is the fistula is contained off? Understand it with logic. There must be something that calms it down. (but that is all just my ideas, I'm not a doctor)
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« Reply #98 on: January 09, 2020, 06:43:03 PM »

It must be so hard to deal with that nocekgari! Try to stay strong....

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« Reply #99 on: January 10, 2020, 12:48:25 PM »

Thank you,all of you. It is hard to live like that. This whole thing reminds me when my tinnitus started. I was 15, one day the noise began and it never stoped since then. First time my doctor called it, I couldn't believe that noise just become my life. I couldn't escape it, unless I sleep. There was/is a constant ringing in my head. Reason unknown, treatment not possible...

I cried so much, became obsesed with white noise machines, loud music. The fact that I will never enjoy quietness ever again hit me like a bullet. But do you know what happened? I got used to it. I don't even feel annoyed when I notice it in my head. I adapted it. My conciousness found a way to mask it. That wasn't me fighting back. It was something like an instinct. My body's reaction to not giving up.

I believe my sexual problems are more serious than tinnitus. It's roots goes way deeper. Each time I try to get an erection, I come across some of my most hidden fantasies,even from my childhood. Those dark and weird things that has stayed hidden all my life. I look at them, watch them, knowing I will never get them.

I am probably talking BS. I get that feeling way more often than before. There is a distance between me and those sane people all around me. There is an invisible wall that holds my words, my thoughts. They are trapped with me, in my head. With the noise, pain, anger and hopelessnes I have. I only enjoy the melancoly of my situation. Maybe that's my instinct again, trying to hold on to the missery that I call my life.
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