22, I am stuck in a nightmare

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JackyJacky

Hey guys,

I'm 22, from Germany, and diagnosed since last year january. I am doing VED and 5mg cialis/d.
It's getting worse, my dick got smaller (16cm -> 14cm), i have a huge indentation at the left side in the middle of the shaft, also a slight bend upwards and to the left. The girth suffered a lot to.

I can not handle it anymore. I hoped it would stop at some time or get better again, but it is the opposite.

I had never a girlfriend, only a few girls for sex, and now there is no hope that i can find a woman ever for life/family/kids, because i dont feel as a functioning sexual beeing anymore. All self-confidence is lost. I know I have depression because of it, but i dont go to a psychiatrist.

I am not suicidal, but when I'm riding my motocycle, i hope that some car fails to see me and i get into coma for some weeks. Only my thoughts about my smaller siblings are keeping me alive. It feels as I am stuck in a nightmare.
Now should be the time of living the youth, to experience life, to feel alive. But you know yourself how devastating this condition strikes us.
The most depressing is the fact that it seems as I am someone with a good life: I am studying medicine, everything seems possible for me. But actually i am internal crippled and have to force myself daily to function.

I'd rather lose my leg or an arm. I really dont have hope to become an old man. I am to young for this crap.

You probably know this feeling very well. Please tell me what helped you to see light again. At the moment, my whole future seems like a hideous pit i feel deeper and deeper into. I try to distract myself with sport, hobbys, friends, but it does not work enough. Everytime i see my dick in this disgusting way it looks i could cry.

Please, let me wake up..
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this_day

Do not lose hope - there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Sometimes we are put in positions that we cannot understand; but later on it will all make sense.  Hang in there and KNOW that your situation can change and get better.
Age 37

Bubba dawg

If you have plaque then you need Xiaflex injections asap. The situation is not hopeless. You may not get back to normal ever but you can get close to that point
5 Rounds of Xiaflex. Good results.

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NeoV

Traction and supplements is the way to go in my opinion, plus an extremely anti-diabetic diet (low glucose).

VED is great, but missing out on traction is not worth it.

Tony52

JackyJacky,

I understand how hopeless it can feel, but there is hope and you can see a lot of improvement by following what others on the Forum have suggested that you do. It's important to start addressing it as soon as you can.  You have youth on your side.  Hang in there!  Tony52

Christopher1

You have come to the right place.

There is hope! Keep reading!
Snake Diet + 5-day fasts + pentox + NeoV's stretching routine + Mito Red Light. Curvature 99% gone.

I also used Todd Capistrant's "Fascial Distortion Model" to help my curvature. Start slowly.

TonySa

Def see a peyronies specialist ASAP!  Also, start by reading the survival guide here.  Peyronies Survival Guide - Information for New Members - Peyronies Society Forums
PxD 2 yrs 9/16.  Failed all treatment. 9/11/18: excision, grafting & implant Dr Karpman MtnView Ca, AMS CX 18cm + 3-1cm RTEs.
Pump failed.  2/11/20 Dr Karpman installed Titan 22cm +1cm RTE.

YoungGuy97

Hey Jacky,

I got Peyronies Disease at the age of 20 y/o, so you are not alone. I am 21 now.
Feel free to PM me anytime!

Try to read about the disease, but don't overdo it; it can be psychologically hard to do so.
If you are still in the active phase, I would recommend finding a good uro, and treatment as non-invasive as possible.
Injections for example, are perhaps not a good idea in the active phase as it can cause more scarring.
Medication, supplements and hyperthermia are basis, traction and VED must be done with caution.

Psychologically, go see a therapist. It won't make your Peyronies Disease go away, but it helps to go through everyday life.

Good luck.

YG
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