20 years old, Please need help guys, Help me.

[Churpiguy]

Hello guys, this is my first time posting here. I am 20 years old and have peyronies, downward curvature. I exactly don't know when i got it may be 3 4 years ago, but this whole time i had been in denial. I knew i had a problem with my penis but i hurt me too much when i tried to confront it. So, i just pushed it back into my psyche. But how long can you hide from it, its a part of me and i don't know if i will ever overcome it and get cured. What hurts me the most even more than the curvature is that i can't get a solid erection. My erections are always weak and even when i'm erect, my penis is facing down. Its never perpendicular to my stomach. I fear i might have venous leak. What adds to the guilt and pain is that i had a weird, abnormal masturbating habit as a teen, i didn't know much. And i am pretty sure that caused my peyronies. I was always kind of a quiet kid. I wasn't painfully shy, i could hold on a conversation easy, but i wasn't the life of the party to say the least. But now as i have confronted my pyeronies and acknowledged it, my psychological state is bad. I am depressed and have developed anxiety, mainly social.

I am in the US currently as an international student, and my school is not going well. My parents can't afford to pay for my education, so i am working 5 days a week and go to school 2 days. This further adds to the stress. My self esteem and confidence is all gone and it painful. My parents are back in my country, i don't have any close friends and feel so alone. The baggage, and stress i'm carrying just seems unbearable. Currently i am living with my roommates(friends i have know from back in my country) and they sense that i have changed. I am always anxious and nervous around them, i don't feel comfortable. On top of that i always have to hide my pain and put on a mask, a happy mask. And sometimes its too much. I don't think i can go on like this. I have tried very hard to work on my anxiety and depression. I have read books, gone through many articles, even tried meditation, and they work for a bit but in the end, reality hits. I still have this disease and it just seems too big of a mountain. The chances of getting cured are low, and the financial burden is huge, I am depressed, I feel anxious around my roommates, which is a daily battle in itself, I work everyday and feel like life has f'^+'ed me very hard, early. I don't feel like a man. I see guy my age be so care free and have fun and sometimes i envy them. They don't have this huge mountain and baggage to carry. I have lost all my motivation. Nothing seems and feels the same. My mind is always foggy. I don't even like to have fun these days. I avoid social events and hang outs with the boys because i get anxious and self conscious and i dont even enjoy it so what's the point?  I feel like my life is ruined. Help me guys, please i really need some help, a pep talk.
Thanks.

[TonySa]

Hello Churpiguy.  It might help your understandable anxiety and depression to start some form of treatment.  Is there any possibility of buying a VED or traction device?  There is a traction device my doctor recommended that's $35.  Does your school have a medical plan where you could hopefully see a doctor and maybe at least get started on pentox and low dose cialis (or viagra which might be cheaper)?  You've taken a good first step reaching out here for support!  Please keep in touch.  Tony

[Churpiguy]

I don't think i will be able to use traction or VED as i live with roommates. So yeah, that's gonna be hard. Anyway what is the name of the traction that our doctor recommended? Currently i'm going to a community college so there's no medical plan here unfortunately. Well, can you guide me no how to take the first steps to treatment. Where do i start? And thanks for replying man, i really appreciate it.  

[DN]

I know exactly what you're going through. I'm 27, have peyronies and ED because of it. How bad is your curvature, it might not be that bad. If it's bad you need to see a peyronie's specialist. You are in the US so you're in the best place to do that.

So you can get good erections go to the website: safe generic pharmacy dot com... and search tadalafil (generic cialis). From there you should get the 10 mg, it will arrive in a discrete packaging from india. Take 5 mg daily for a few days then take 10-20 mg to see how it affects you. Order a lot, it's cheap and it works. You'll be having strong erections in no time.

Pursue treatment, your goals are to have a dick straight enough for intercourse and erections hard enough and maintained long enough for sex.

Overall the last stage of ED and peyronie's is a penile implant. Many men are very satisfied with their implants and really feel like they get their lives back. Here's a young man who got an implant:

Don't live your life with ED, curvature, and depression. Pursue treatment until you feel good again.

[LWillisjr]

You actually listed several issues (education, finances, parents, etc.) leading to depression in your post. So I can understand how any concerns about your penis can add to that. But downward curvature is not unusual. It depends on the severity, erection angle, etc. You also need to sort out if you condition is congenital or not. I am not sure why, but often downward curves are congenital for some reason.

I would suggest you measure yourself, and then maybe we can help with some recommendations.
https://www.peyroniesforum.net/index.php/topic,4760.0.html

PM me if you have questions.

[TonySa]

The $35 traction device is esl40, just google.