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unknown28

Hi guys just introducing myself I'm 28 years old from the UK. Although I haven't been diagnosed with Peyronies yet I'm pretty sure that I have it due to a penis injury I thought I had that has lasted since last year in November.

I have a lump on the bottom of my penis shaft (corpus spongonosium?) that is causing me flaccid shrinkage, loss of erect size, numbness and loss of sensation and I've basically lost that throbbing feeling I used to get and only get weak erections now...

I am so worried about this, I am waiting on my second urology appointment which will be in September but I seriously don't know if I can make it till then to find out if I have this as I'm pretty convinced I do already.

Sex used to be so exciting and I would already be semi-hard when I was on the way to see my girlfriend but now even after popping 100mg viagra I'm still getting weak erections at best and she has to stimulate me a lot before we have sex.

Basically, I used to satisfy her before and now I can't, it's the worst feeling in the world to know that the girl that I love will eventually leave me for someone else who doesn't have these problems.

Is there any actual hope and can I ever get those raging hard ons back and regain my sensitivity?

I don't know if I can live like this much longer.

Paolo

Hi unknown28, Yeh, I am sure every member here has experienced some of the symptoms you currently have and are going through, anyhow welcome indeed.

Tell me, something in your post intrigued me, you are waiting for your second urology appointment, what happened during the first one?

Please, if you don't mind, give us some indication of the injury to your penis, I also remember the days with fondness of having a semi-hard on before sex, I was much younger then  :)

You asked if there is any hope, well yes surely but you need that confirmation you have Peyronie's, keep posting please, by posting you have turned one negative into a positive.

Any guests reading this post, take a moment to register and get posting (a positive action), a problem shared is (not quite) a problem halved  :)
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unknown28

Quote from: Paolo on July 17, 2017, 03:11:18 PM
Hi unknown28, Yeh, I am sure every member here has experienced some of the symptoms you currently have and are going through, anyhow welcome indeed.

Tell me, something in your post intrigued me, you are waiting for your second urology appointment, what happened during the first one?

Please, if you don't mind, give us some indication of the injury to your penis, I also remember the days with fondness of having a semi-hard on before sex, I was much younger then  :)

You asked if there is any hope, well yes surely but you need that confirmation you have Peyronie's, keep posting please.

The first appointment was basically me telling him everything I've just told you in my post above. He felt my penis although couldn't feel what I could feel (it's pretty deep and I have to pinch hard to feel it but it's there, I know, I can feel it and that's where the pain is)

All I keep reading is try this, try that. Now I have to wait another two and a half months like this, it's cruel, it really is.

The hardest part is people thinking that I'm going crazy (my family) telling me it's all in my head and there's nothing wrong with me. I've told this to three psychiatrists who've all said the same thing. I mean, a psychiatrist trying to tell me my dick is fine is kind of like Elton John playing football.

I've basically been reading online for things which might help me since November and I'm pretty close to giving up already. The psychological impact this is having on me is making everyone around me hate me and I'm doing things I never would have done, I was happy.

I don't know how exactly this injury happened but I remember waking up one morning with a pain that I could feel immediately, I noticed my flaccid penis was basically shrivelled and cold and it has remained in this shrunken state since then. It used to feel plump like there was always blood in it and I was always ready for sex but now I have severe ED and I can't even contemplate sex without Viagra, which even then, brings me hardly any enjoyment.

I'm constantly feeling my dick and anxious about how small it is, I was never like that before I actually didn't have too bad of a size (4.5 inches / 6.5 inches erect) but now I have 3-3.5 inches flaccid and barely 6 inches erect with less girth, I can also bend my dick when it's erect, it's never rock solid like it used to be no matter how hard I try or how aroused I am.

Does this sound like Peyronies to you?

Paolo

You do indeed have obvious depression, did none of the psychiatrists pick this up?

Sounds like blood flow circulation issue (shrivelled and cold), possibly due to the injury, do you do any exercise, even if it is body weight squats that may benefit you.

Are you taking any supplements at all?, coenzyme Q10 and acetyl-L-carnitine will help with pain but also help lift your mental state.

You asked 'Does this sound like Peyronies to you', unsure.

Let me think more on this tomorrow, don't bend an erect penis, nor pinch it.
Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect.

unknown28

It's not cold anymore, it was in November last year...

Since then I've needed Viagra to even get a weak erection and I feel like a disappointment now when I have sex with my girlfriend because I never reach my former size...

I am convinced that the hard thing I can feel on the shaft of my penis may be scar tissue but it is rock solid and doesn't feel like it's going away any time soon. I just want that sex drive and libido that I had before this and the ability to get raging hard ons like before.

It's not happened since November... I just walk around with a lifeless dick.

Tychy

I feel you, this takes a lot of everyone of us. Change psychs until you find the right one. It takes some time. I had luck with the first one (actually a woman).

And be sure to get a Doppler ultrasound for penile blood flow. Or an angiogram. Persist!

I can speak from experience that the beat up state in which our dicks appear can instantly kill all excitement. The only way to counter that is to accept the current state and work from there on to improvement through physical therapy and supplements. If you constantly are sad about the current situation it won't help. I know, I know, easier said than done...

unknown28

All I want to know, I guess, is if my dick can ever return to a shadow of its former self...

Does this sound like it definitely could be Peyronies? My erections are very weak length and girth wise but there is no obvious curve.

I just can't find any other penis injuries that could last for the length of time this has without clearing up...

All I want is to be able to get solid erections again, is this possible? Or will I have these weak and numb erections now until the end of time and have to take Viagra to get them?


QuackAttack

Unknown, you need to go to an andrologist. You need an ultrasound to see if you have any plaque. You could have an ED problem, which could be a testosterone problem. Without going to a specialist, you are just guessing. If you are having erection issues, I would avoid sex till you get that solved because unless you have a good firm erection, you are more likely to injure your package. So, if you don't have peyronies, you don't want to develop it. The long and short of it is GO GET CHECKED OUT by a competent professional!!!!!

unknown28

I just seem to be waiting around for appointments while things seemingly get worse and worse. It's been the best part of a year I've been like this and every day I wonder if something will magically start coming back to me but it's not going to...

Feels like my life is on hold and I'm living for no reason. The longer this goes on the more size I will lose and I wasn't big to begin with.

Tychy

Yah, waiting and uncertainty sucks. Quack is right about testosterone. I would also recommend to think about Vitamin D3 and Vitamin K supplementation. It may somewhat stabilize your mood, unless the weather changed and you're getting plenty of sun in the U.K. Also you may prevent further calcification.

I also had idiot docs at the beginning and went months without treatment, because "there is nothing one can do". Keep pressuring appointments. I know the NHS waiting times are not nice...

I'm currently doing ESWT therapy for ED. I also hope this will lead to something. Had troublesome erections since my youth.

Please seek help for the depression. Even if your penis is fixed, your brain may still be in a downward spiral and then lead to psychological ED. Both need to be worked on.

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