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Back to acute. Fnck.
« on: July 08, 2017, 11:53:29 PM »

Hi everyone,

I have no impulse control. I got drunk the other night and went to pick up a prostitute. She was not wet at all, rode me hard on top, and we didn't have any lubricant.

This was a very very awful decision. I am not experiencing a lot of pain again, and I have definitely reinjured myself. My first significant injury was in November. It took about 3 months to heal, but ever since, I always have mild pain after sex or masturbation. Now the pain is back constant. I am really scared of how severe my curvature will be after it finally heals again this time.

I have a girlfriend (who I cheated on with the prostitute), and am now having to make excuses as to why I suddenly have pain again. I also feel pressure to continue pleasuring her. But I know I shouldn't have sex for a while, right?? I need to wait until the everyday/constant pain is gone again, right? This is such a nightmare. I am only 28 years old, and I want to have sex like a normal guy. It used to be such a joy. Now I am just depressed everyday.

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

I have a significant downward curve, as well as a significant leftward curve. My dick is f'^+'ed up. I think about suicide sometimes. Being so young, I still hope to find a wife, a career, build a family. But I feel like my peyronies is going to negatively effect my chances at all of these things.

I'm currently on tylenol, pentox (400 mg x 3), L-carnitine (500 mg x 1), and CoQ10 (30 mg x 1). A urologist here in Bangkok perscribed me Colchicine (.6 mg x 2), but I read it is no better than placebo. Should I take it as well? I also have Vitamin E (400 mg x 1) that I am taking. What else can I be doing to promote healing and improvement? Should I stop all sex and masturbation until the pain stops again? Any helpful encouragement or advice is really appreciated. I am kind of losing it...
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2017, 02:29:41 AM »

Hey,

You're right, stop sexual activity until the pain and inflammation subsides. Try heat treatment and daily Cialis of 2.5mg additionally to your supplements.

Now a personal side note. Stop drinking alcohol.
It seems to tamper with your self control to the point you went cheating and not caring for your injury. Loss of impulse control is normal for alcohol, but some people seem to be more affected. Also it is bad for inflammation.
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2017, 04:08:27 AM »

Agree with Tychy, stop the (heavy) alcohol consumption, that along with pain killers (tylenol) is going to do your liver absolutely no good.
Are you lonely for long periods of time and don't have close relative family support, that is not good.

You have said 'I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name', can you do something about that?, you need some distraction from your current state of mind and hope you find something.

Try and stop the masturbation and prostitute use, and as previously mentioned the excessive alcohol.
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« Reply #3 on: July 09, 2017, 08:51:24 PM »

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

I have a significant downward curve, as well as a significant leftward curve. My dick is f'^+'ed up. I think about suicide sometimes. Being so young, I still hope to find a wife, a career, build a family. But I feel like my peyronies is going to negatively effect my chances at all of these things.

It sounds like you are dealing with issues that go beyond your Peyronies Disease specifically... although I/we can certainly understand how the condition can seem depressing, but you have several other support systems and emotional issues that are making the Peyronies Disease seems so much worse.

I'm no therapist, but eventually you will need to be honest with your girlfriend if you (1) care about her, and (2) want her to be a part of your life long-term.  Of course she will not be happy to hear the news (and I'm not saying NOW is the right time... I don't really know) but living that lie will tear you up inside, and will make her feel worse when she DOES find out and realizes you were lying all that time.

Alcohol consumption is part of the problem as others mentioned, and perhaps you should examine why that is how you spend your time.  Concentrating on finding work, and working once you have the chance, should help to direct your energy elsewhere.

In the holistic sense, your Peyronies Disease is not likely to improve while you are so stressed out on so many levels.  Working to get yourself "right" emotionally, relationally (if that's a word), and financially will help ease your mind and THEN you can concentrate more on Peyronies Disease and some options to deal with it.  Until then, it will just be one more stressor and unlikely to get better.

My Peyronies Disease does not affect my career, wife, and family in any negative way.  In fact my wife is very supportive and that helps me/us figure out how we're going to deal with it.  That makes me feel hopeful about the future (even if my symptoms don't get better) rather than overly depressed.
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« Reply #4 on: July 09, 2017, 11:23:50 PM »

Switch the tylenol to aspirin.

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« Reply #5 on: July 23, 2017, 04:13:20 PM »

Or Ibuprofen if Aspirin is too weak. Aspirin overdose is not fun. Watch for heartburn anyways when taking NSAIDs.
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« Reply #6 on: July 24, 2017, 10:34:42 PM »

Sully had great input.  You have a lot of soul searching to do and none of it is found at the bottom of a glass/bottle.  Not many people and rarely for long does anyone have the cat by the tail in life.  It is about prioritization as much as it sucks to be rational and quit some of your temporary satisfying actions.  There is no rationalizing cheating on your GF and putting her health at risk (condom or not).  Time to step back and think what you would tell a loved one in this situation and apply such advice to yourself.  Suicide is never an answer either as every problem in whatever form is one that can be dealt with or adapted to successfully.  In order to make a difference you need to be the difference in your own life.  The Peyronies Disease setback is temporary...you do not thrive by sexual fulfillment only...you will find a way to improve your lot in life:)
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #7 on: July 26, 2017, 05:37:05 PM »

I am going to be bluntly honest right now-

I am 29 with Peyronies and it makes me feel like I am less of a man. I have taken on a personal journey to rebuild my self worth and realize that it does not start and end with my dick. Your self worth DOES NOT start or end with your penis, you must rewire your brain through sheer willpower over the course of what may be many months or years and realize that you are enough, and that the disease is not the end of your life.

That being said, you need to leave your GF like a man and rebuild your life from the ground up. If you haven't hit rock bottom yet you are on your way. I have been there and it is not fun, but realize that rock bottom is a learning experience. If you can push through rock bottom then you will be stronger for it. Masculinity is in the mind, it is shown by your actions, your strength and your honesty. You lost that and it is nothing to be ashamed up, but now you need to rebuild.

Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off and be the man you were meant to be- Bent Penis or not.

Make a list of who you want to become and work towards that everyday and yes stop having sex until you are better both physically and mentally.
Work on yourself and then come back to a relationship when you are ready to give UNCONDITIONAL love.



I have a girlfriend (who I cheated on with the prostitute), and am now having to make excuses as to why I suddenly have pain again. I also feel pressure to continue pleasuring her. But I know I shouldn't have sex for a while, right?? I need to wait until the everyday/constant pain is gone again, right? This is such a nightmare. I am only 28 years old, and I want to have sex like a normal guy. It used to be such a joy. Now I am just depressed everyday.

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

Should I stop all sex and masturbation until the pain stops again? Any helpful encouragement or advice is really appreciated. I am kind of losing it...
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #8 on: July 26, 2017, 06:32:51 PM »

Well said, Swiss.
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #9 on: July 27, 2017, 02:34:52 AM »

Swiss, totally agree with your post, good luck  :)
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« Reply #10 on: July 27, 2017, 04:28:57 PM »

Swiss, can totally agree. Thanks for sharing.
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« Reply #11 on: July 27, 2017, 10:58:57 PM »

Good job swiss
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