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Back to acute. Fnck.
« on: July 08, 2017, 11:53:29 PM »

Hi everyone,

I have no impulse control. I got drunk the other night and went to pick up a prostitute. She was not wet at all, rode me hard on top, and we didn't have any lubricant.

This was a very very awful decision. I am not experiencing a lot of pain again, and I have definitely reinjured myself. My first significant injury was in November. It took about 3 months to heal, but ever since, I always have mild pain after sex or masturbation. Now the pain is back constant. I am really scared of how severe my curvature will be after it finally heals again this time.

I have a girlfriend (who I cheated on with the prostitute), and am now having to make excuses as to why I suddenly have pain again. I also feel pressure to continue pleasuring her. But I know I shouldn't have sex for a while, right?? I need to wait until the everyday/constant pain is gone again, right? This is such a nightmare. I am only 28 years old, and I want to have sex like a normal guy. It used to be such a joy. Now I am just depressed everyday.

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

I have a significant downward curve, as well as a significant leftward curve. My dick is f'^+'ed up. I think about suicide sometimes. Being so young, I still hope to find a wife, a career, build a family. But I feel like my peyronies is going to negatively effect my chances at all of these things.

I'm currently on tylenol, pentox (400 mg x 3), L-carnitine (500 mg x 1), and CoQ10 (30 mg x 1). A urologist here in Bangkok perscribed me Colchicine (.6 mg x 2), but I read it is no better than placebo. Should I take it as well? I also have Vitamin E (400 mg x 1) that I am taking. What else can I be doing to promote healing and improvement? Should I stop all sex and masturbation until the pain stops again? Any helpful encouragement or advice is really appreciated. I am kind of losing it...
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2017, 02:29:41 AM »

Hey,

You're right, stop sexual activity until the pain and inflammation subsides. Try heat treatment and daily Cialis of 2.5mg additionally to your supplements.

Now a personal side note. Stop drinking alcohol.
It seems to tamper with your self control to the point you went cheating and not caring for your injury. Loss of impulse control is normal for alcohol, but some people seem to be more affected. Also it is bad for inflammation.
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« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2017, 04:08:27 AM »

Agree with Tychy, stop the (heavy) alcohol consumption, that along with pain killers (tylenol) is going to do your liver absolutely no good.
Are you lonely for long periods of time and don't have close relative family support, that is not good.

You have said 'I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name', can you do something about that?, you need some distraction from your current state of mind and hope you find something.

Try and stop the masturbation and prostitute use, and as previously mentioned the excessive alcohol.
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« Reply #3 on: July 09, 2017, 08:51:24 PM »

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

I have a significant downward curve, as well as a significant leftward curve. My dick is f'^+'ed up. I think about suicide sometimes. Being so young, I still hope to find a wife, a career, build a family. But I feel like my peyronies is going to negatively effect my chances at all of these things.

It sounds like you are dealing with issues that go beyond your Peyronies Disease specifically... although I/we can certainly understand how the condition can seem depressing, but you have several other support systems and emotional issues that are making the Peyronies Disease seems so much worse.

I'm no therapist, but eventually you will need to be honest with your girlfriend if you (1) care about her, and (2) want her to be a part of your life long-term.  Of course she will not be happy to hear the news (and I'm not saying NOW is the right time... I don't really know) but living that lie will tear you up inside, and will make her feel worse when she DOES find out and realizes you were lying all that time.

Alcohol consumption is part of the problem as others mentioned, and perhaps you should examine why that is how you spend your time.  Concentrating on finding work, and working once you have the chance, should help to direct your energy elsewhere.

In the holistic sense, your Peyronies Disease is not likely to improve while you are so stressed out on so many levels.  Working to get yourself "right" emotionally, relationally (if that's a word), and financially will help ease your mind and THEN you can concentrate more on Peyronies Disease and some options to deal with it.  Until then, it will just be one more stressor and unlikely to get better.

My Peyronies Disease does not affect my career, wife, and family in any negative way.  In fact my wife is very supportive and that helps me/us figure out how we're going to deal with it.  That makes me feel hopeful about the future (even if my symptoms don't get better) rather than overly depressed.
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« Reply #4 on: July 09, 2017, 11:23:50 PM »

Switch the tylenol to aspirin.
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« Reply #5 on: July 23, 2017, 04:13:20 PM »

Or Ibuprofen if Aspirin is too weak. Aspirin overdose is not fun. Watch for heartburn anyways when taking NSAIDs.
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« Reply #6 on: July 24, 2017, 10:34:42 PM »

Sully had great input.  You have a lot of soul searching to do and none of it is found at the bottom of a glass/bottle.  Not many people and rarely for long does anyone have the cat by the tail in life.  It is about prioritization as much as it sucks to be rational and quit some of your temporary satisfying actions.  There is no rationalizing cheating on your GF and putting her health at risk (condom or not).  Time to step back and think what you would tell a loved one in this situation and apply such advice to yourself.  Suicide is never an answer either as every problem in whatever form is one that can be dealt with or adapted to successfully.  In order to make a difference you need to be the difference in your own life.  The Peyronies Disease setback is temporary...you do not thrive by sexual fulfillment only...you will find a way to improve your lot in life:)
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #7 on: July 26, 2017, 05:37:05 PM »

I am going to be bluntly honest right now-

I am 29 with Peyronies and it makes me feel like I am less of a man. I have taken on a personal journey to rebuild my self worth and realize that it does not start and end with my dick. Your self worth DOES NOT start or end with your penis, you must rewire your brain through sheer willpower over the course of what may be many months or years and realize that you are enough, and that the disease is not the end of your life.

That being said, you need to leave your GF like a man and rebuild your life from the ground up. If you haven't hit rock bottom yet you are on your way. I have been there and it is not fun, but realize that rock bottom is a learning experience. If you can push through rock bottom then you will be stronger for it. Masculinity is in the mind, it is shown by your actions, your strength and your honesty. You lost that and it is nothing to be ashamed up, but now you need to rebuild.

Pick yourself up. Dust yourself off and be the man you were meant to be- Bent Penis or not.

Make a list of who you want to become and work towards that everyday and yes stop having sex until you are better both physically and mentally.
Work on yourself and then come back to a relationship when you are ready to give UNCONDITIONAL love.



I have a girlfriend (who I cheated on with the prostitute), and am now having to make excuses as to why I suddenly have pain again. I also feel pressure to continue pleasuring her. But I know I shouldn't have sex for a while, right?? I need to wait until the everyday/constant pain is gone again, right? This is such a nightmare. I am only 28 years old, and I want to have sex like a normal guy. It used to be such a joy. Now I am just depressed everyday.

I am terribly underemployed and have very little money to my name. I don't know how I will ever afford surgery, but I am beginning to think it will eventually be the only option. I am terribly ashamed that I got drunk, picked up a prostitute, and then injured myself again.

Should I stop all sex and masturbation until the pain stops again? Any helpful encouragement or advice is really appreciated. I am kind of losing it...
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #8 on: July 26, 2017, 06:32:51 PM »

Well said, Swiss.
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Re: Back to acute. Fnck.
« Reply #9 on: July 27, 2017, 02:34:52 AM »

Swiss, totally agree with your post, good luck  :)
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« Reply #10 on: July 27, 2017, 04:28:57 PM »

Swiss, can totally agree. Thanks for sharing.
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« Reply #11 on: July 27, 2017, 10:58:57 PM »

Good job swiss
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« Reply #12 on: April 28, 2018, 10:02:10 AM »

I don't agree with giving love at all. Don't force yourself to give love, that sounds like a very bad way to live. I would suggest not attaching to any women at all, have fun have sex and live your life as a man. Don't listen to any girls advice because all of those would end with something that would give you pain. Surgery gives you pain, Implant gives you pain, everything except oral medications just give you pain. Why not grow some balls and be an independent man and have sex as good as you do and don't care if woman leave you. Why not just be confident in yourself even though you can't have sex for your life?

These are the questions i also ask to myself and i know that all of the answers are yes, and i know that at some point in my life i will be that strong mentally its just that it is the hardest things you can do while having this disease. You do that and be happy.

 You won't be happy when your dick is not working enough and your wife just goes around sleeping with someone else while you are trying to feed your children. Unfortunately, thats how the world works buddy. I know a lot of women will say somethings in order to save the whole womanhood in this entire universe but at least i know that no woman would stop having sex just because their boyfriend is having a hard time.(I mean woman that are -35 age) Woman would just go have the dick somewhere else and would leech on everything you got otherwise. So why not stop them from leeching you for things other than sex, and have sex as much as you can? It is just a no brainer question.
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« Reply #13 on: April 28, 2018, 10:15:52 AM »

Agree with farikgier
This guy knows what he's talking about
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« Reply #14 on: April 28, 2018, 10:21:18 AM »

then come back to a relationship when you are ready to give UNCONDITIONAL love.
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« Reply #15 on: April 28, 2018, 12:17:51 PM »

What?! Leave his girlfriend??? Issues arise in relationships and they can be worked through if both individuals are committed to doing so.  Most of us are better off in a living commited relationship, especially if having to adapt to a medical condition such as peyronies.
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« Reply #16 on: April 28, 2018, 06:32:19 PM »

Most of us are better off in a living commited relationship, especially if having to adapt to a medical condition such as peyronies.
i bet there are millions of men who have very small penises who are single and happy as ever. With peyronies as well, they just have the balls to be alone for the rest of their lives. And honestly whats better than being single dude, you get to do whatever you want whenever you want. If you see yourself as less of a man, then you just have to get over it.
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« Reply #17 on: April 29, 2018, 03:23:03 AM »

How old you are Farikgier?

I suppose at least 100 if you are a so big expert in woman.
I am just 70, but I have a completely different opinion about woman, including Turkish woman, I lived there many years.
I have to state that even at 70, I am still learning the subject (of woman) and I consider myself still a novice in the subject ;)
Your view of life is also a very selfish one.
Without insulting (it is not my target to do so), we have very different points of view regarding life :)
All my life I give much more than I get and I am fine with that. I like to see people happy :)

Also your posts lately are very contradictory to what you have posted not so long time ago. In your forum profile, you can go back and read all your posts and see the difference.

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« Reply #18 on: April 29, 2018, 09:06:35 AM »

How old you are Farikgier?

Also your posts lately are very contradictory to what you have posted not so long time ago. In your forum profile, you can go back and read all your posts and see the difference.

James

I am 20 and I am proud to say that i can see that both genders are shallow and usually don't care. I have a lot of years to live ahead of me, and the last thing i want is a girl telling me that she can't deal with my disease which i didn't choose to have. I don't call myself novice because i seem to learn very quickly from life, my psychotherapist sees that I have become a very brave young man and that she is proud with me. Do you know what happened after i changed? I no longer care or think if I am good enough to have sex, I don't see my penis length as my measurement of masculinity. And you know what, women do. They do care a lot even the most "angel" ones. So if there is nothing in this world to stop myself from losing size with this disease, I am actually better off without them.

People like me because i tell the truth, i talk the truth and that's why my friends seem to like me and stick with me. I see myself as not only a mere penis but a whole man. And some women just see you as a penis after having sex, they are too shallow to see you are strong and competitive. I believe there ARE women who can stick with me in my journey however I don't think there are as many of them in their 20s, and i can't be bothered to search for one. I know that my conservative girlfriend whom i taught about sex, said to me she doesn't care one bit about my disease and can't be bothered with it. She said she wouldn't stick with me. She loses, I win. I don't give out love because I don't feel like it, that's it. If you get over the thought of forcing yourself to be nice, you become much more relaxed and happy about your sex life.
 
I know you are 70 years old and have seen much more than me james, I know that. But I don't feel like listening to others anymore even my dad, because he seems like a less complete man than I am even though he is 55 years old now. I also have my brain to choose what to do and what to see, and it helps me see the reality very much. So thanks for the advice but I will pass.
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« Reply #19 on: May 01, 2018, 07:49:29 AM »

I agree with you Farikgier that everyone should do what he think that is good for him.
But this is still not giving no one the right to generalize on any issue and derogate woman as woman.
I am far to be a feminist, far from what's going on in the subject, I am an old chauvinist man, but treat woman with respect, same as I treat everyone.
Have negative woman and positive ones, cant say % same as I can say % about bad/good man

Just saying
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