New to this. Some advice please?!

[Knicksfan2015]

Here's my story:

About 1.75 years ago, I was having sex with my ex on top. She sat on my member, it made a loud popping noise and I felt a great deal of pain. It bruised minimally on the base of my penis, right near the scrotum. I was able to maintain erections since then, but they were never full. My penis never developed severe curvature(since it happened at the base), but the base lost all stability, and I've lost significant size. With a full erection, I can move it up, down, left, right. It's like a sausage link attached to my body with no control(if that makes sense)....I never got it treated, and sex became torture for me. I never knew if it only hurt me or my ex as well. I tried to discuss this with her, but she always got defensive and said I was "blaming her for everything", though it was entirely her fault. Over the next year, I became incredibly insecure, suffered from depression(still do), and developed an anxiety problem. I feel I am alone in this. I've told a few friends, and they look at me like I'm crazy. People think I've gone "off the deepend" because I'm so depressed. My ex left me because of my insecurity. Until recently, I didn't know what was wrong with me. I can't see a doctor because I'm on my parents health insurance and they're very religious...don't want me having sex. I just want to know if I'm alone, or if anyone else has suffered from this sort of issue/emotional trauma. Any input is appreciated. Thanks.

[Jonbinspain]

This is a difficult one. You clearly have an injury to your penis and you need to see a Urologist ASAP. Whether or not you have Peyronies is debatable.

How you handle this with your parents, I can't advise on, but you do need to see a doctor, now.  

[james1947]

Knicksfan2015

As Jonbinspain has said, you have to see a doctor as soon as possible.
Regarding your parents, maybe you ca say that you fall on the stairs and injured yourself?
How old are you by the way?

James

[Knicksfan2015]

James1947,

I am 21. Old enough to have sex, my parents just want me to be married...very old fashioned. I've considered the injury route, but my mother is a doctor so likely won't buy it.

I've read on several websites that peyronies doesn't always cause curving, and that it often only creates a loss of stability, like my own. I'll do my best to see a doctor.

On a side note, have either of you (or anyone else reading this) ever experienced a loss of self esteem or depression/anxiety. I grew up a confident and strong kid but feel like I've lost my mind since this happened. It was bad enough that my girlfriend left me, and is now engaged to a man 10 years older. I would like to feel validated that I'm not the only man who has been emotionally scarred by this.

[james1947]

Knicksfan

I am expressing my own opinion regarding your questions/statements:
* You must see a Peyronies specialist as soon as you can. Peyronies comes in different ways and different symptoms. The main point not treating it is that you may have further injuries and irreversible damages and ED.
* You are not the only man who has been emotionally scarred. All of us were/are emotionally sacred by what this disease is causing. And is the same for man of any age.
* All/most of us experienced a loss of self esteem or depression/anxiety, but we are doing much as we can to be over it.
* Regarding your ex girlfriend, engaged to a man 10 years older, probably she is seeking more stability than love so maybe she was not for you in any case.
I will repeat again, you have to find the way to seek help and start treating your Peyronies

James

[Pfract]

You had a penile fracture, i mean that's what all the medical papers state specially when you read about the "loud popping noise" and also the blood leaking to the scrotum. Did you loose your erection at the time? you should of went to the E.R to be seen by a urologist. :| Do you have any chance of visiting a sexual medicine place?  

[james1947]

pfract

Proposing you to slow down with giving diagnosis based on someone post.
Not me and not you we are doctors, so you may want to write:
"In my opinion you had a penile fracture"
and not:
"You had a penile fracture"
I agree with you that from the details sounds like penile fracture, but just a specialist, using ultrasound or MRI can give a diagnosis.

James

[Pfract]

And also obey the rules regarding quotes

You are totally right. I am sorry for writing things this way. Won't do it again.

[LWillisjr]

The symptoms you describe are more like penile fracture and NOT Peyronies. What I can tell you is that the longer you wait to seek a doctor's help and treatment the more difficult it is to treat penile fracture.