I cannot do traction anymore.

[Voltage]

When I first got peyronies, I dedicated all of my efforts into combating the demon. I was 6 months in and I got an injury from VED. Since then, I've gone cold turkey for 4 months straight. It's utterly destroyed my libido. Sex with my partner is abysmal and I find myself simply wanting to fantasize about porn to escape my reality. I took the plunge and watched some, even though my gf and I agreed that we should not allow porn in this relationship. She's graciously forgiven me, but even after all the guilt, I find myself wanting it again. I've reached the point where I'm willing to let her go if I must. I absolutely adore and love her, but apparently not everyone would agree based on my choices. I want her to hate me, to abandon me, so that I don't have the pressure of needing to fix my penis ever again.

I've visited two Urologists this past year and had plenty of meetings with my primary doctor. All three of these people representing the medical profession have declined me an option. They've all shut the door, they've all told me there's nothing they can do. I cannot emotionally handle using traction anymore. The amount of time and pain I have to suffer on a constant, daily basis has chiseled at me for too long. I'm sure there are those who can handle traction, but I can't. I absolutely hate myself for this mess and I no longer wish to include a wonderful woman in my daily life. She deserves better. I'm constantly angry, constantly annoyed. I want nothing to do with sex and I never feed her with my desires. In turn, she never once attempts to give me hers. I used to, we used to, but that has all gone away. I wish she had the strength to break up with me, or perhaps it's finally time I let go of her...

[nemo]

It sounds like you're putting all your eggs in the traction basket. Have you looked into other options like Pentox, Cialis, CoQ10, etc.?

Nemo

[NeoV]

Voltage man I'm sorry, I can relate to you on this and I'm sure most of us can here. It's unimaginable to think that your girl would be okay without you having sex with her often, or not at all. It's something I'm working on and trying to understand. Some girls will tell you it's fine to not have sex, but for some reason we push back, saying "that can't be true", and we beat ourselves up and break it off. I am positive that girls, even beautiful ones, are okay with not having sex, as long as you treat them as a woman and love them for their sexuality even if they don't get to enact it.

I strongly think that adoration or love can beat this dilemma but it requires full acceptance of your problem and commitment to it. Traction for hours is a hard thing to do while living with a woman or seeing one often. You have to create clear boundaries and set limits on how often you meet or just have her know that you're doing it. You have to be positive when you talk about it.

If you can laugh and talk about it light heatedly a girl will have no reason to leave you. Still, I know how you're feeling and it's god awful. It's never the problem, but how you react that decides if the girl stays.

One thing Peyronie's does is it clouds our judgement on good partners. We start relationships with women we might not have wanted before, and then we feel so guilty breaking it off with them and we blame it on the Peyronie's. This happens without us even knowing it. Perhaps she just isn't the girl for you, and this is not even related to Peyronie's? Make sure you evaluate each issue separately.

[skunkworks]

Great advice as always NeoV.

Voltage the vac extender you asked about in another thread is called autoextender and you will find it via Google. They are expensive though and do rely on a vacuum to maintain traction, which given your history with the VED might be disappointing.

A cheaper alternative that would let you try out vacuum attachment would be something like this - http://www.ebay.com/sch/i.html?_from=R40&_trksid=p2050601.m570.l1313.TR0.TRC0.H0.Xegobooster&_nkw=egobooster&_sacat=0  

One of the members here uses it and says it works out well. It is an all day stretching device so it is at a lower tension which would mean less discomfort.

The other thing I would suggest is if you're having trouble with the noose attachment, and also pain from the comfort strap attachment, then another option is a soft silicon noose. I'm not sure what came with your device, but if it isn't soft silicon then you'll get better grip and be able to wear the noose much looser.

[james1947]

We are off topic here but:
This is the device that separated my glans skin from my glans beside the urethrae!!!
Use it for two weeks, slight traction, never more than one hour without a beak.
And then, last time, after less than 10 minutes, I felt a strange pain, took it out and discovered a big balloon some 6 to 7 mm diameter and 3 more balloons of 2 to 3 mm, full with fluid. It was at January 8, just know healed, January 23. I will never use it again.
I am using VED for some 3 years almost daily, never happened such thing to me!!!

James

[skunkworks]

Which device, Autoextender vac or egobooster?

[james1947]

The egobooster in the link

James

[Voltage]

I have to thank you all deeply for replying to my post. This is the first time I've let my emotions out to an audience. I have to admit I feel like a bloody whiner. I'm sorry you all had to see that. I'd assume we've all gone through this trauma from one degree to another. If it weren't for this community, I'm sure we'd all be in a much worse place. For all that, I thank you. For the sake of clarity, my partner and I are fine. She has a lot of love in her heart. I'd deeply regret losing her just because I have a low self image. I have to move on and keep trying.

The last uro I visited told me I could've been eligible for xiaflex and the last patient he used it on had great success. I wasn't aware of the apparent rule the FDA applied for 30 degree curvature and more only. I used to be roughly 30 degrees at one point, which sort of made me kick myself in the ass.

I find the pain I receive stems from the tight noose under my head. I have silicone bands that lock it up and I use multiple rubber bands to keep the silicone from slipping from it's locks. I'll give the vac heads a try. Thanks for leaving a name brand for me to research and I wish you all the best. I hope there are ways I can help you all, as you've helped me.