Sanity gone

[Thisismyusername]

I should kill myself, but I'm too afraid.  It's pathetic.  But I'd be better off dead.  Life is too ugly.  I think I'm losing my mind.  

[james1947]

Thisismyusername

Killing yourself it will not hurt you, but will hurt all the people that loves you. I am sure have many.
Don't give up, you are still young and I am sure better times will come.

James

[Thisismyusername]

Thanks for responding.  I talked to my girlfriend and she helped me feel better.  I feel sane again.  I will try cognitive behavioral therapy.  I apologize for this post.  

[james1947]

Thisismyusername

Last think you need is to apologize. We all are in the same ship and have to vent sometime
We are here also to help each other.

James

[NeoV]

Thisismyusername

Add me on Skype if u wanna chat. I chat with a lot of other guys our age with Peyronie's, and I even my best buddy here in Tokyo I met through these forums, and we chill and chat regularly. You can do this. Check my PM.

[user of no names]

I completely understand what you're going through.  I have dealt with peyronies since I was 14 and had an injury then along with another at 22.  I haven't had a girlfriend since 2001 and my only sexual relations was with prostitutes.  This issue along with bad ocd and clinical depression make life difficult.  My journey has made me think about suicide a lot, even recently.  I only mention all these things as you're not alone. BUT things do get better.  In regards to pain, I use pentox 2-3 times a day along with ubiquinol every time.  This has helped quite a bit with the pain.  I take 2 pills before or after masturbation as it seems to help keep my penis looser.  The head of my penis gets irritated when walking or moving, especially after masturbation, so I use aveeno intense moisture on it.  My tendency is to wear looser fitting boxers, shorts, pants ect so it doesn't rub the glans.  I have tried every ssri, snri, or what other letters they can throw together for my depression.  Wellbutrin and mirtazapine, my current med at 22.5 mg, have the fewest sexual side effects.  I have seen a psychologist since 2007 to help with my anxiety and crappy moods by using cognitive behavioral therapy.  This has helped tremendously with peyronies by making me better understand my thoughts and accepting the condition.  Talking to friends and family has allowed me to have a support system when needed.  I know there other things I can do to improve peyronies and this will eventually come.  The culmination of these has allowed me to greatly improve my outlook.  You will get through this.  Take each day at a time and believe in yourself.    

[Skjaldborg]

Thisismyusername,

PM me if you want to talk. I'll give you my cell #.

You won't always feel this way, I guarantee it.

-Skjaldborg

[Knight]

Thisismyusername,

Hang in there my friend, you are not alone with those feelings. There is always hope! Sometimes we can't see it clearly, but it is still there!

Knight

[Jonbinspain]

Hey man!

You have a girlfriend who listens, and is apparently trying to support you. That's a lot more than some guys here have!  

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