Undiagnosed but I think I have this. My story so far.

[Healthanswersneeded19]

Hello everyone.


I can ramble on sometimes so here's a summary of symptoms:

- Bend to the left while erect
- Pain in penile suspensory ligament
- 3 bruises on penis, one being where the bend is
- Pain inside penis
- soft erections
- shortened erection
- anorgasmia
- redness and a lot of clearly visible tiny veins while erect
- depression/anxiety
- sensitivity loss
- ED

I'm 27, and I've been having some genital problems since 25. At first, I lost the ability to feel orgasms, and my sexual sensitivity diminished almost to nothing. Then about a year later I started to experience soreness where my suspensory ligament is. About a month ago I found I had ED, and would sometimes feel a lot of pain inside my penis. Shortly after that, I got hard but noticed it was shorter than usual, and still soft with some pain inside. As of a week and a half ago, there's a curve when erect.

I used to have a bit of a masturbation problem. I have a healthy social life, and everything but as a kid I heard that masturbation helps "destress" your body, and can help prevent a lot of health issues, so I started doing it a lot because I suffered from depression and anxiety and wanted to counteract that in some way. I later found out that I hard a bit of a porn/masturbation problem, and had (still have) a difficult time stopping.
I feel like over-masturbation caused all of these problems I've been experiencing and I wish I could go back and give things another shot. It's frustrating doing something you initially thought would be healthy, only to find out you've been hurting yourself all along.

I've been very depressed the past few weeks. I feel like I've been getting to a point in my life where a lot of things are finally taking off for me, and now it feels like things are over because of this.
I guess I'm scared that I'll never have a normal sex life again. Currently the idea of being with someone makes me feel guilty because I feel like they'd deserve better.

I wish that my penis would go back to normal, and that the pain would stop and the length/erection quality would come back. I've never slept around and now I kind of feel like I wasted my time not doing that.

I spoke to my doctor a lot after the initial anorgasmia/sensitivity issues. He essentially brushed it off as anxiety and left it at that. I'm planning on going in to see him about this too, but I don't know how helpful it'll be.

I'm scared, depressed and stressed out. I just want it to be normal again. I don't want the rest of my life to be like this.
Do you think there's any hope?

[TDix]

Have you seen a urologist? I would seek out a specialist  

[Healthanswersneeded19]

I really want to see one.

I'm trying to book an appointment with my family doctor to get a referral but I have no clue how long it'll be until I can actually see one.
Last time I tried to see one, I had to wait about 7 months before my appointment.

[TDix]

That really is your best bet.  Find one who specializes in Peyronie's  

[TonySa]

With bend while erect and pain please read the survival guide as it maybe peyronies: Peyronies Survival Guide - Information for New Members - Peyronies Society Forums
Please then ask questions and keep us posted? You're in the right place for support!