Why can’t I accept it and move on with my life?

[jakeM]

I'm starting to get angry with everyone in my personal life. Random people I see  and  I just yelled at my brother to get the F~@< out of my room. Before that I was at work and I made an excuse that I don't feel well and they understood because they told me I didn't seem myself today .  I lay in bed all day in a dark room.  I do this on the days that I don't work or go to school. At night I go to the gym to escape and feel in control and walk 30 mins on the  treadmill just to think.  at school in lectures I don't do crap. Just feel so depressed that I sit there and look around at the 80 people in class.

I can't accept this disease, and it's exhausting mentally. I'm starting to resent guys and girls. Family members like dad, brothers.  Honestly people suggest not to blame yourself for this disease.
F~@< that, I do blame myself for getting this damn disease. I do blame myself for not having the ability or control to stop masturbating when I first noticed something was wrong.  I do blame myself for being a f~@
If I wasn't shy I would of never been a victim to porn,because I wouldnt  isolated myself in my room. I would of hardly been home. And this would of never happen to me.  Why the F~@< did I have to be a victim to this crap ? I mean kids masturbate and watch porn and they end up quitting because they simply got bored of it.  Like my friends they all started way before me and quit. They don't have to deal with this crap. They can enjoy there 20s and not worrying about their dick. I personally think I'm going to block everyone I'm so close to in my life. Friends, dad, brothers, my mom.  I will never be the same person. F~@< life.  

[Keith Walts]

Yeah sounds like you and I are pretty similar man.

I keep thinking about how stupid I've been for overdoing masturbation and porn, ignoring warning signs, and letting my IBS keep me inside and feeling sorry for myself. I'm sure everyone on the forum would tell us how unproductive that thinking is, and they'd be completely right, but it's hard not to do it all the same : /

Not that I'm in any position to give advice since you've been dealing with this for a longer period of time and I only a few weeks, but whatever you do man, don't block out your family.

They are the ones who care about us no matter what, and we need them now more than ever.  

[Stabler]

but whatever you do man, don't block out your family. They are the ones who care about us no matter what, and we need them now more than ever.

Very good advice Keith Walts

Stabler

[Christopher1]

Medicine is advancing - especially urology.

Think about all the baby boomers who have ED and Peyronies Disease - who want novel medicines and surgeries to fix their problems. There is a lot of money to be made in it. I am sure medical modalities will continue to get better. In the mean time, there are a lot of answers on this website from people who have fixed their Peyronies Disease and ED. Just keep reading.

[Bubba dawg]

Nobody knows for sure what causes peyrones! I masturbated a lot in my lifetime. Probably everyday when I was a teen. Did things to my dick I should not have done to improve my orgasms. Some women were rough on my dick too. They bit it. They bent it. I masturbated until now. My dick has been through hell lol I had a perfectly straight dick until my late 50s when i got peyrones. So stop beating yourselves up. You just were doing what most healthy males do. If anyone were to damage their penis it would have been me. I have had women on top hammering it and sometimes it missed the target and got bent. But i still cant pin point what caused peyrones late in life. Dicks just aren't that fragile . You maybe just had some genetic flaw. Kicked in at a young age. Mine kick in later. Nothing in life is fair. Young people get all kinds of diseases. There is a children's cancer clinic for example. I see children out in groups that are mentally challenged. Will never have a normal life. So instead of blaming yourselves and taking it out on others, you should focus on getting better. Not easy at all but what you have to do. This is just one of many challenges you will face in life.

[Christopher1]

I agree with Bubba.

Stop beating yourself up. You are not at fault.

Just read the forum and learn and be proactive. And never give up hope because there's no need to give up hope. There are many treatments and they are getting better every year.

Just spoke with a doctor in New York and he told me some really wonderful results he had from bone marrow stem cell injections into the penis (specifically bone marrow). If none of the treatments work for you on this website (and there are many), then who knows what the future of medicine holds.