Making the most out of a bad situation

[Sam1992]

Hi guys. I posted a few months ago when I first injured myself and was struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts. Although my physical issue remains (severe erection problems and lack of feeling in penis after masterbation injury) my life has improved in ways I didn't think possible. This is just an update on how I have tried to turn things around.
When I first injured myself I completely lost it and my mental health suffered massively. I didn't rest long enough after my injury so made things worse (lost size, caused erection problems and ruined the chance of a full recovery according to my urologist). To be honest I became an alcoholic, started doing drugs and spent all my money on partying like some sort of escapism. The comedowns were so bad the next day that I would start drinking again just to numb the pain. I was spiralling out of control, lost friends and was put on antidepressants. No one wanted to be around me and I didn't see the point in trying in life with a broken dick. After a few months like this I tried viagra and it literally felt like I'd been given a second chance at life. I started talking to women again and some of my confidence began to return. Sure the spontaneity wasn't the same as I had to time when I took the pill but I was having sex again. Everything started to improve, I returned to the gym and got back in shape, got a promotion at work and reconnected with friends I had lost. By no means is my sex life as good as it was and I miss the feeling of sex which is now massively reduced but it's better than nothing. I got tired of depression and came off the antidepressants. I decided to chase the girl that I liked and now have a happy relationship with a decent sex life. I do still worry about developing a tolerance to viagra and do still feel down when I look at my penis as it's lost a considerable amount of size. I also hate the fact that I have to take viagra to have sex with my girlfriend. But at the end of the day things are better than I thought they would be. I've gone from suicidal to in a happy honest relationship. And although sex isn't the same I can still have it and still enjoy it in different ways. I just thought I'd write this as it's quite therapeutic to put into words how my penis injury has affected my life so drastically. And if it helps anyone else then even better. Good luck everyone  

[suicidecomingsoon]

Viagra saved you. If it worked for me, I would be happy too

[TonySa]

Congratulations, your story will give others hope!

[TonySa]

Sam, do you mind if we move this thread to the ED forum rather than peyronies so that those w ED will benefit from it?

[Sam1992]

Sure no problem. Wherever you think best