24 and Here Because of an Injury from a Year Ago

[program4004]

Hello All,

I am Program4004 I injured myself last year by masturbating while in a partially erect state. This was done on the toilet before work one day because I didn't want to get an erection in public. This was foolish I know. I was masturbating without lubricant of any kind. I was trying to calm my hormones down and I gripped WAY too hard. I didn't realize until the damage was done. You could say the injury would be compared to like a cock ring in a way. I was experiencing pain. I also during the same period felt like my vein behind and to the left side below my glans were inflamed. Also I gripped too hard below the glans of the head.

I also hurt my penis somewhat above the base of my penis. It was stupid. I regret it for as long as I live. So far I seem to have made progress, but, I currently experience the dreaded hourglassing effect. It's restricting my erections. This however does not happen all the time. I so far went to a urologist and he said I had peyronies. But, it didn't start taking effect until months later. Like today I just experienced the hinge and hourglass, this was me trying to achieve an erection though masturbation. I also have pain in the flaccid state. I for the most part do not have that "hard flaccid" anymore. But, I have hourglassing where I gripped too hard in the semi erect state. I think that is what did the most damage.

If I was fully erect and would have used lubricant I wouldn't be posting here today to be honest. Anyways, I still have full erections when I wake up, they haven't decreased in size or girth, but, when I try to stimulate myself it happens. Also I put on 40 pounds since the start of 2017. I know this must have had an impact on the erections I was having last September which led to partially erect masturbation.

Currently: I am in school, about to graduate, I'm still a virgin and freaking the hell out. Also, I am working out again, but, I feel completely demotivated because my penis doesn't hang like it use to after exercise. Like I barely noticed it. It turtles. Also I had to alter the way I masturbate and I use to be able to do it everyday IF I wanted to. I was gentle. I didn't deathgrip until a time of stress that impacted my life. I also follow this routine: I use a hot rice sock, which is used for circulation. I also try to stretch to force blood down into my penis to keep strong erections. So far I see the mechanical impact of this, I'm not in denial of having this. I honestly have no medical insurance at the moment and there are only a few Peyronies specialists in my area. I am worried that they will aim for the surgery route, I defintely don't want that. I'm hoping that I could get a VED and use heat and traction to fix this one hourglassed area. I am also circumcised which led to me deathgripping since I have no slack skin. Like none at all. Its very small amount and was hard to grip before the injury which I think imo led to the injury.  

[TonySa]

Starting traction or VED is a great idea.  The least expensive device is the ESL-40

[suicidecomingsoon]

This sounds to me like an injury by jelqing..

[program4004]

It defintely was not an injury by jelqing, if you masturbate too hard in a semi erect state I guess it could be the same thing. I never would recommend anyone try such a dangerous thing. I literally choked the chicken because I was a chronic masturbator.  

[program4004]

Also I wonder is there like a way to make this site more mobile friendly? It's hard to use this site on my cell phone.